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Goodbye. So Long. For Now.

2009-09-14T01:10:00.002+08:00

Yep, ok. I'll make this short.

In than 9 hours I'll be enlisting into National Chalet. Yep. It's finally here.
Thanks to everyone for their encouragement and kind [albeit, semi-sarcastic] words. Will be seeing you guys v. soon.
I think it's gonna be a good time to think my life over, dats if I haf any energy left at the end of the day to say the least. TBH, I'll be leaving behind many memorable moments, and at the same time, many painful memories. Time will heal all wounds I guess. NS is probably gonna take my mind off all the needless worries and really juz knock me out. If you're reading this, keep yours truly in prayer. I'm melancholic, but life goes on. B'sides, everyone's been telling me how much fun it really is when you haf the right mindset.

Ok, It's lights out for me. One last moment with my bed, and, alas, it's go time.

"Training to be soldier, fight for our land.. Once in our life, two years of our time..."

Peace out & GB.

P.S. I'm diggin' the new hairstyle. Bad hair days BEGONE! xD

My |)/-\ys Ar3 NuMb3r3d

2009-09-11T00:49:00.002+08:00

So fast... and it's 3 more days left. With every passing day, the ticking on the clock gets louder, and I'm finding it harder to sleep. Hah... might even perish the thought of sleeping on the eve of enlistment.

As mentioned b4, it's flurry of mixed emotions. I LOL whenever I hear the word "flurry". Reminds me of that time when the aunty at McDonald's pronounced it as 'Mak-Fla-li' [McFlurry]..
Going off track there.
I'm really grateful to everyone who's encouraged me as of late, esp. my parents. Yep, that includes my dad who's been through the ancient days of NS. Now those stories of the gd ol' days of "chiong sua" become so much more applicable. Haha!
Then again, those were old times. He keeps reminding me NS is so much better now, and that includes the lodging. Well... that's comforting, considering that I'm going to miss my queen-sized mattress for the first 2 weeks. Arrgggghhh!

Speaking about missing things, I'm soooo going to miss my YCG. Haha. We had a rather... uhm... unqiue W Party on Wednesday. First time I ever had a party in relative darkness, thanks to Town Council not fixing the lamp at the shelter where we BBQ'd at. My feelings got cheated again! And the pictures taken exactly of stellar quality. We looked as if we were having an illegal gathering, HAH! Nontheless, the guests really enjoyed themselves. We finally had the biggest attendance yet, thanks to the many unexpected guests who came along. Many thanks to Pastor Alan for lending us a helping hand as well. You must consider that with only 3 regulars around, we were seriously understaffed. Thank God everything went well, even the Kung Fu Panda screening [a movie which I think is a little too underrated].

I dun feel like sleeping. I want to extend my time here in my own abode! Yeah... denial ain't only a river in Egypt. Really... I wish I had more time to spare. For friends. For family.

They say: "you never know what you've got till it's gone."
How true...

Peace out and GB.

M|X3D Em0t10ns

2009-09-08T00:24:00.002+08:00

Lol... if you were confused by my last post, I apologize very much. It's not easy to decipher when one speaks in 3rd person. Haha. Call it whatever you want. Sometimes expressing yourself in that manner gets much needed anxiety off your chest - at least for me.

It's down to 6 more days. I'm really going to miss a lot of people. You really never know what you've got till it's gone. The time and opportunities you never cherished are snatched away in an instant. 6 days will seem like a walk in the park compared to the next 2 years. I'm counting on it to change me.

Yeah, people tell me I'm a kid stuck in a young man's body. No one makes that more clear than my sis. Seriously, I might start appreciating those words after a few days in Tekong. Everyone says PTP makes life easier for you during BMT. Guess God has a purpose for everything, though I still haf that wanting to stay out juz a while longer. Haiz...

The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

I'm really grateful to a close brother and confidant. Though he may not be reading this, juz wanna give a shout out. You know who are *hyuk hyuk*. Yeah... he shared with me a lot of spiritual truths as of late, which really set me reflecting about my own life and the circumstances around it. Life hasn't been a whole lot fair to me as of late. Maybe becuz I'm so free these days to the point where I juz get myself into a lot of unnecessary trouble. I thank God for such friends in my life. We should never take them for granted. Dun wait till it's NS [or for something terrible to happen] - it'll be too late then.

Sounds like I'm writing a chain letter or something. HAH!

Life alone at home everyday can swing both ways. That could explain why one moment I can be extremely high, and the in the next moment become really anal about stuffs. Tried occupying my time with Maya and gesture drawing, but I'm too used to working under pressure. No pressure = no intestinal fortitude. Lol. I can forsee dat my weekends will eventually be spent trying to catch up, which brings me to ponder on my future; more specifically, where should I further my studies..

Guess that's what the 2 years are for; supposing I get a slack unit life. I hope...

I'll shall continue updating this space till my days in urban Singapore are numbered. I might consider shutting this blog down once for all then. The idea of sharing your feelings on the WWW does not entice me as much as it used to. We'll see where this leads up to.

Music video time again~!
This is a cute one from m-flo [extremely popular rap group in Japan] and Monkey Majik [a gaijin band based in Japan]. Enjoy!

Blogger finally loves me again!
Peace out & GB.

N0t3 T0 S3lf..

2009-09-02T22:38:00.005+08:00

Hey you! YEAH, I'm talking to you. Like... dude, sup with you man?
To say you've been behaving awkwardly would be an understatement. I mean... seriously man, it can't be that bad rite?

It's juz another phase that every male in Singapore has to go thru. It's gonna be fine. Really...

Yeah, stop ranting about your mixed emotions and all that. Your brain is cluttered enough as it is. So don't worry k?...

... like, you've rising up early, watching too much of them ol' Ch. 8 dramas, walking into the wrong elevators, drawing gestures for an hour or more, waxing lyrical about being home alone, freaking people out...

... this is not the Sam I know.

The Sam I noe eats alone, watches WAAAAAAAYYY too much Kamen Rider, does 3D Modelling for kicks, and NEVER wakes up early unless he has relief teaching and assignments to grind for..

... YEAH! Not to mention you've been spamming people on MSN. U'd rather be spamming bullets on TF2... at least, that's wat you usually do when you've got free time on your hands.

Really, this makes the instance of you talking to the wanton in your noodle soup PALE in comparison.

Haiz...

Given the choice, who wouldn't wanna pull out? If there's anything to look forward to, it's of you becoming more of a man and less of the, well, nonsensical, half-wit self dat you are rite now. OK, you're not a half-wit... you're juz REALLY insensitive. You deserve to shed more than juz a tear for wat you did!

Ok, I wun bash ur pride in any further. Juz look to God, k? I dun understand much of wat u're going thru as well. All I know is that... you juz need to trust Him.

Those that wait upon the Lord shall rise up on eagle's wings, aite?

I know, easier said than done; but there's no other way, is there? He's the only One who holds your future. And... you've got your parents, your sister, your frens. Cherish them in this next 1.5 weeks, but don't make it sound like IT'S THE END OF THE WHOLE UNIVERSE!

...kk, chill. I'm not going to say any more.

Jehovah Jireh... remember that!

If God brings you to it, He WILL bring you through it.

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Peace out & GB.

Food 4 Thought

2009-08-31T10:50:00.002+08:00

I thought I'd post some videos that really spoke to my heart. First one really spoke to me, since it's 2 weeks b4 I enlist, but yet there's so much unfinished business, both spiritually and emotionally, to clear up. I'm trusting in God's perfect timing, which is never according to our schedule but always timely, to deliver when the time comes.
The 2nd one... well.. I was just so touched after singing it at service ytd. "God forgive us for not comprehending how much Your love extends. Grant us a greater compassion for the lost.."

We Live

There's a cross on the side of the road
Where a mother lost a son
How could she know that the morning he left
Would be the last time she'd trade with him for a little more time
So she could say she loved him one last time
And hold him tight
But with life we never know
When we're coming up to the end of the road
So what do we do then
With tragedy around the bend?

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

There's a man who waits for the tests
To see if the cancer has spread yet
And now he asks, "So why did I wait to live till it was time to die?"
If I could have the time back how I'd live
Life is such a gift
So how does the story end?
Well this is your story and it all depends
So don't let it become true
Get out and do what we were meant to do

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

Waking up to another dark morning
People are mourning
The weather in life outside is storming
But what would it take for the clouds to break
For us to realize each day is a gift somehow, someway?
So get our heads up out of the darkness
And spark this new mindset and start to live life cuz it ain't gone yet
And tragedy is a reminder to take off the blinders
And wake up and live the life we're supposed to take up
Moving forward with all our heads up cuz life is worth living

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

God of the Moon.

God of the moon and stars
God of the gay and singles bars
God of the fragile hearts we are, I come to you
God of our history, god of the future that will be
What will you make of me, I come to you

God of the meek and mild,
God of the reckless and the wild
God of the unreconciled, I come to you
God of our life and death
God of our secrets unconfessed
God of our every breath, I come to you

God of the rich and poor
God of the princess and the whore
God of the ever open door, I come to you
God of the unborn child
God of the pure and undefiled
God of the pimp and pedophile, I come to you

God of the war and peace
God of the junkie and the priest
God of the greatest and the least, I come to you
God of the refugee
God of the prisoner and the free
God of our doubt and certainty, I come to you

God of our joy and grieve
God of the lawyer and the thief
God of our faith and unbelief, I come to you
God of the wounds we bear
God of the deepest dreams we share
God of our unspoken prayer, I come to you

God of a world that´s lost
God of the lonely cross
God who has come to us, I come to you

Peace out & GB.

Sam has been...

2009-08-16T00:43:00.002+08:00

-... studying for his Basic Theory for driving.
-... juggling region events and other church-related stuff
-... training for and anticipating National Chalet a.k.a NS
-... trying to do some 3D animation, but sadly, never got down to it.

But life hasn't been all that bad. I was elated to haf finally clear my Region's special event this week. If I've learned anything about people management, it's mainly thanks to the many obstacles I've had to face during these past 4 weeks of editing trailers, building props, abandonment by director [you owe me one still!] etc. I'm glad that most of the folks involved gave their utmost support for the event. YES, if you're guys are reading this, many thanks. Well done!
And yes, I suck at breaking foam. Ep1c Fail -1, Sam - 0.

So much for my short-lived relief, as in a month's time, it's "left-right, left-right" for mua. NO MOAR ORD TAUNTS! I still have my freakin' pink IC, and I'm civi, which means I'm higher rank than the rest of you NSFs. Muahahahaha!
Ok. Overdoing it there. But pls... stop. XD I wanna live peacefully for the rest of this urban existence till I haf to chiong-sua a.k.a. "rush the mountain."
Like I mentioned b4 on FB, it's great news that my frens and acquaintences alike are pulling through well in Tekong. Hope I can say the same for myself once I'm in there. No more iMac, no more hard-mattress bed, no more late nights... the list goes on. Yeah, I shouldn't bring all that up. It's depressing juz thinking about it. Still, can't help feeling left out of conversations where army stories are involved; thus going in, that shall be one of my motivations - to finally be able to clique with NSFs... or rather, with most of the older d00ds at least. Sheesh..

I'm dead tired from all the running to-and-fro 2day. First, had to get presents for my frens' 21st b'day, followed by Heart.Sports [where I realised I really have an issue with my knee... hurts like mad when I jog], and finally attending the birthday party, where the hosts were late by 3-4 hours. Anal guests aplenty in attendance. U'd never catch me doing that on my 21st. Wait... I didn't throw a party!
Knowing the hosts, it really isn't something new... rite Jen Sun and Joel?! XD
So I just patiently waited for their arrival with some of their really cheesed-off guests. I must say the BBQ did turn out better than expected despite the hiccups, especially the part where myself, Joel and another dude almost burnt the pit down by applying moar "cooking butter" to the grill. CAMPFIRE ANYONE? Nothing beats the 'thrill' of being surrounded by your secondary schoolmates [whom know I absolutely fail at cooking] while you set off a fire in their midst. Epic, no?

Josh: "You can do it, Sam! Dun burn the chicken!"

Tune in soon for more exciting adventures! Off to de-stress on Team For~
... 5% updated? Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....!

Peace out & GB.

*rants on Steam forum*

/-\u R3\/0|R [For nao...]

2009-05-02T17:26:00.002+08:00

Yes... tonight I'll be on an SQ flight to Europe. SO EXCITING!

Apologies to the Super Captains Ball ppl... really CMI today becuz of all the last min. packing. I'm like that.

Best of all, I managed to catch the Wolverine movie last night before I head off [with more movies on board SQ =P]. Still, being there for 11 days is gng to make me miss home-home. Singapore's the best place to be in nao... esp. with all this swine flu talk going on about. Peepz were trying to freak me out with stories of being quarantined when I return, bringing the swine flu back to Singapore etc.

Ultimately, I'm trusting God to protect our family. I'm not going to let some pandemic ruin a rare vacation.

So here's to all reading, keep my family and I in prayer, and we'll return with souvenirs harmless to your health.

Just wanna share a few songs from the latest Seventh Day Slumber worship album:

Till then, au revoir!

A|\|6RY 63R|\/|3N |<1|)

2009-04-23T21:29:00.002+08:00

So here's the story on Facebook [a quiz which I did]:

"People you want on your side in a bar fight. by Samuel -
Chuck Norris, Jim Raynor, Angry German Kid, Kamen Rider DIEND and The Demoman (TF2) ."

People have been asking me: "Who is the Angry German Kid?" Well, quite honestly, if you haven't heard of him, u muz haf been living under a really big rock.

Sadly, he has been misunderstood by the world...

More info:

'Angry German Kid (a.k.a. Der echte Gangster, Slikk or Leopold) is a talented actor of age 15 from Bergisches Land, Germany. He plays a character, Der echte Gangster, a parody of a wannabe gangster. This fact has often been misunderstood, and as a result he has been subject to bullying both on- and offline (e.g. school). For this very reason, he stopped making videos for almost a year in 2006.

From his blog: http://www.was-willst-du-tun.de/ -
I am not mad (translated):
"I am not sick or mad, I only have a sense of humor not everyone immediately understands. In addition, I have acting talent. I can do something so real that many think it is real. For this reason I will be insulted by many and hated. The aim of my videos or movies is to entertain people, not provoke. Nobody should take my short videos on the Internet seriously - they are merely for entertainment. No matter what people think or say, I am a very normal boy with acting talent."
- N. K. (aka "Slikk" or "Der echte Gangster")

This video was made as a response to some German politicians attempting to restrict access to violent video games. He was trying to show how they view gamers. Very amusing and intelligent. Too bad most people missed the point.

"Journalists" from Focus TV (Germany) used this as an example of an internet addict, claiming the kid to have been secretly taped by his father and to be undergoing therapy in addiction clinic. Naturally, this was not what "Leopold" understood to have agreed on when he gave approval for airing it on TV.'

So thr you have it. The Angry German Kid isn't that angry after all. So stop dissing him, world.

Peace out & GB.

P.S. Juz so you noe, I'm not him...

R3|)3F|N|NG [Typed Under The Influence of a Cold...]

2009-04-18T00:36:00.004+08:00

So I've revamped by blog a little. New music, new tagbox. I'm glad to say, still the same person who has learned juz a bit more from life.

Life: wat to say? I was really discouraged when I woke up yesterday morning. I juz had this awful sense of having missed the mark. Thank God His presence never fails. Guess it was a test of whether I'm really living out wat I teach; whether I believe that His presence really is the answer to my prayers.

Speaking about changes, I was so blessed to by a dear buddy just now. True... it's indeed God's blessing dat we live to see the changes the new charge is making in EFC. Time for us to make those adjustments as well. The message at HOF today was fitting: we must relate to our modern culture yet still retain our identity as a church. I dunnoe abt you, but it's a gr8 challenge to me to really rethink how I reach out to my contacts, and by God's grace, I'm starting to connect with them as well. Whether it is through LAN gaming or school, I find myself relating to some of them more than I expected, though I can't discount the fact some of them give me a lot of headaches as well [some of you know wat I'm talking abt]. Still, thank God a new dawn is coming upon our church; a new chapter is unfolding.

Gosh I feel so much better after saying all these. My Darth Vader maquette's lightsaber was broken off by me by accident! My dad was like: "God's speaking to you to throw it away..."

I'm like: ".........."

Putting dat aside, I've found a few new releases to my fav. Christian groups. Guess I've been browsing Youtube a little too much these days - *blehh*. First off, my man, tobyMac. This one's a kinda soft...

This Beautiful Republic, fast becoming my fav. as well. This one blew my speakers into oblivion, so note that.

Ok, I need to recover from this awful cold I'm suffering from right now. Till next time...

Peace out & GB.

|3@C|<: W1T|-| 25% M0@R 1337

2009-04-11T00:04:00.007+08:00

HOORAH!

Oh the irony! While I jump start my blog again, today we remember what Jesus did for us 2000 years ago on the cross. So I have more than one reason to celebrate.

So what has gone down lately?
- Graduated from Digital Media Design [Animation] course and had a uber-memorable grad. show.
- Got an iMac for my 21st birthday from my parents [they gave me a choice of either that OR a party, and I made the most practical decision. *sniggers*]
- Preparing for enlistment [which is a lot easier to say than to act upon...]
- Signed up for driving [basic theory]... FINALLY!
- Either practicing my drawing, Maya skills, TF2 skills [lol], or simply gaze into the horizon and ponder my next move...

Well actually more like rotting in my room.
I've approached Gerald from our church music team to see if he has any openings for a freelance job catering to my line of work, and so I patiently wait.

In other news...
Today was awesome! Probably the best Good Friday I had in a long time. Contacts came for service, and though the message was a bit hard to swallow for them, I managed to click well with them and get their questions sorted out. So it was a mix of new faces, plus some old ones whom I haven't seen in a while. So yeah... a change IS coming.

To top it all off, I caught The Fast & Furious with ma' homies today, and I have a renewed appreciation for 10-second cars. It was hilarious how we went all geek while waiting for the movie, and even while travelling there. AND I'VE FOUND A NEW KAMEN RIDER CONNOISSEUR IN JEFF'S FREN, GERALD! Cower in fear haters or be rider-kicked into oblivion!

OK Sam, behave...

Seriously, we talked about everything 1337 under the sun, from SF4 to KOF [lol, forgive my acronyms] to Gundams, and we were making notes on how we reek of fanboyism. Haha... it's good to go 10-year-old once in a while, even when we hit the arcade to play SF4. And Jeff... I WANT REMATCH!!!
Post-movie activity was visiting Yong Jie's mum at the Carrefour, followed by some shopping at NUM [for Ming Hui's sake], and then some Left 4 Dead [which is my first time playing, and probably won't in a long time] before I'm home here blogging and absolutely drained.

I'm basically soaking in all the fun these days. It was a far-cry from what I was doing about 3 months back, rushing projects and having late nights [tho' the latter hasn't really changed :P]. No doubt it was an adrenaline rush, but I guess I need a breather. What worries me these days is NS, and the wait can be painful sometimes, cuz' I juz simply wanna get it done and over with. I've heard more than my fair share of stories about the happenings in there and wat not. Given, I noe a little more about the pitfalls to avoid in camp, which gives me a some leeway for my blur-ness, of which there is no room for such in that environment. PTP awaits...

Life: you'll never know what you've got till it's gone. Thankfully, the invitation to "National Chalet" is still pending. In the meantime, I can look fwd to my European vacation and Evangel Family Camp later on.

Till next time, I leave you with one of the many things to come in the world of gaming...

Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers FTW!
For what it's worth, tho', it's Blizzard's annual April Fool's Joke, your keep your squealing till the game testers stop playing skate-scooter jousting and get down to releasing it for real.

Peace out & GB.

|t's 0|\||_Y |3iTT3R5W33T

2008-08-22T22:42:00.006+08:00

Ah yes... Do take this time to decipher the title before you proceed in skimming through patehtic attempt at reviving this blog.

Haha. I know... this blog dies on and off, but hey, I'm 20, and priorities do change. I shall dedicate watever time necessary into maintaining this blog for as long as possible. After all, it STILL IS and avenue where I can cautiously pen my thoughts down.

These past 3 months was a little more on the melancholic note. Felt happy for the majority of my friends who have graduated; saddened by their departure. Miss you guys who are at BMT man! Miss the great company [Southern Star] I've been working in for the past 3 months, not becuz of the loss of payday, mind you. Made a lot of friends and connections during the last day of my internship there, which is strange cuz you usually establish that during the first day of attachment. For me, well... let's just say I was a little quiet from the start, but I get the job done. Hey... it was reflected on my EXCELLENT grading I got for my company report - only by the grace of God.
Alrite, enough boasting, but the past 3 months were wonderful. Learned so many things about the animation workflow, 3D modelling, and... oh yes, 3Ds Max in particular, which I find it rather user-friendly in terms of building up 3D models and sets. It's quite and eye-opener for me, considering I had always blacklisted Autodesk products in my mind, but like the saying goes: "never say 'never'". Now I realise why Autodesk successfully bought over Maya from Alias, though I don't really digg the current documentation they provide [think most 3D animators will agree with me here].

After about a year and half, I finally get a well-deserved break for myself, though it doesn't end the need to start building up my portfolio again, which is really dismal at this point and really lacking on inspiration. On that note, Pastor Dale did share a very inspiring message today on 'The Voice of the Mind'. When he spoke about the difference between wisdom and Godly wisdom, it really got me thinking: when exactly was the last time I asked God for His type of wisdom? Not talking about that kind of wisdom just to help in the rigour of academics, but the wisdom for life's decisions and the situations we faced. As you can tell by me saying this I'm not all as spiritual as I used to be. In fact, life is getting more distracting as I edge closer to my prime; the need to strengthen/rebuild my relationship with God has never been more necessary at this point [yes, more necessary than my portfolio I would say], but it has never been more difficult. I need a renewed desire to pray and spend time with God more than ever.
I was quite surprised, recently, by a friend actually asking me to bring him to my church after seeing the amount of commitment and dedication I've given to my faith in Him. I shan't mention his reasons for doing so, but at the altar call today, God made me see once again the resposibility I bear as a Christian towards others. Such are our lives being closely watched not just by The Almighty, but the people who are closer to us than we think.

Am I my brother's keeper? Yes we are. Even the things we do behind closed doors will eventually reveal themselves given enough time. And boy, how I need to get my life right behind those doors.

A friend more recently has mentioned she wants to believe that a revival is going to sweep through our church in every congregation. I must admit I didn't share the same enthusiasim as she did, but I believe growing older should never make us believe in anything less from God than a miracle. To that sister, I boldly say you challenge my faith once again - to rise up.

Times are changing rapidly. Though I want to accompany the changes with besting myself both mentally and physically, whether be in studies or ministry, it is the spiritual aspect I must return to one more time.

Coming to the end of this entry, I'm kinda amazed at how much I've written. I must definitely check back more often, haha! Still, I hope by penning these down I can remind myself of the triumphs in my life, and missed opportunities as well. So - don't think for a second good ol' Sam's online 'scrapbook' is going to fizzle out any time soon. I'll be back when you least expect.

Life is bittersweet, but the Lord knows the seasons.
Peace out & GB.

Ep|c R3tUr|\|!

2008-05-23T23:40:00.004+08:00

Wooo! 6 whole months man... a new record for blog negligence.

Well... 6 months of sweat and toil in a sea of projects. 3 weeks of Studio Project, and then 3 MONTHS of Final Project. Really grateful that God has brought me through it all, victorious. Great was this time of testing for me, and I must say... I'VE NEVER GONE THROUGH SO MUCH CRAP IN MY ENTIRE LIFE THUS FAR AS COMPARED TO THIS PERIOD. But hard knocks are meant to build; wat dun kill us only makes us stronger. There was so much I was able to take away with me, especially from working on the 3rd season of the animated series, Gan Chiong Kin. Yes... the third season. Instead of going through the details [which would probably bore readers to sleep], I'll be posting up some related pictures of my work on this blog very soon... and hopefully it's not by the end of another 6 months down the road.

I must say I've been pretty selfish in the sense that I've neglected my spirituality in favour of good results, and yet God has blessed me as such. Dun get me wrong. I'm not proud of it, since I feel a lot of things could have been smoother if I had only sought His face more and all. So you can imagine, even at this point, a lot of situations are cropping up in life which is causing me to realise, once again, how handicapped I am without God. How stiff-neck I can be!

One of my more prominent worries is next Monday's attachment with a TV production company, Eyecon Production. Sounds cool eh?
They've got some amazing talent... just look at their show reel - it says everything. They requested for an animator to help in some post-production work, so we'll see where this leads me to, probably a job scope of motion graphics for TVC/Drama serial openings. Now that would be interesting AND, not to mention, challenging as well, considering that I haven't touched After Effects in a long time. I just pray it won't have to cost me Wed and Fri nites for the next 3 months when I'm interned there.

A lot of things are coming up as well; Create '08, Exemplify, Evangelistic Wednesday... the list goes on. G12 has been such a struggle recently, and was disappointed that one of my members couldn't make it anymore due to her two CCAs and work commitments! I'm gonna have 3 new members who are totally hyperactive kids [and I'm bad at handling children, mind you], and meeting them today gave me an impression that it's not going to be easy to reach out to them.

Trusting God is the only option sometimes, and maybe dats wat God wants to teach me even in the following weeks [or months] to come. Maybe it's time to climb to another plateau in my faith, from the place where I've stagnated at. The testimonies shared today at Stories@HOF were a great encouragement to me, especially Jeff's. When he used the metaphor about a tree having crashed down on his road to describe his life's journey, I couldn't help but relate it to myself.
Maybe for myself, a tree has crashed on this journey of mine, somewhere along the line, and I dun even noe it. Wherever it may be, I noe only God can remove it.

Will check back in a week's time.
Peace out & GB!

`Twas The Most |3usiest Time of the Year

2007-12-26T11:46:00.000+08:00

Will Christmas be forgotten?

So much was done just this Christmas: ths shopping of gifts, preparation for the church's The Christmas Banquet, G12's Home Christmas, more shopping, visitation... it's so easy to forget wat this season's all about.

It's been 3 weeks since I returned from a refreshing youth camp [and you can find out more at my church's website under the 'PeeP It' section, though I'm not featured... haha]. My return was imediately punctuated by much tossing back and forth between church and school commitments once again. Some things just don't change. To make matters worse, my dad had to undergo an eye operation for his cataract, which meant being ferried back and forth in his ride wasn't going to be a feasible option any more... not at least for a few days into Christmas.
Thank God for everything though. My dad's eye op. was a success, and the I managed to get presents for almost everyone [though many didn't reciprocate in similar fashion with the gifts they bought], despite the heavy church activities during the past wk. You have no idea how relieved I was after Friday night's Christmas Banquet. Even though we were last on the standings that night, many new friends joined us for the event, and I believe dats wat matters the most this time of the year: people getting a free chance to hear and receive the greatest gift of all Jesus Christ.
And not forgetting, wanna thank all the people from my G12 who came down on dat day, whether it was just to help, support, or in bringing new friends, especially the Rzoners... you know who you are [since one of you has already unearthed this dying blog]. I hope y'all have enjoyed yourselves dat night.

Did I mention I had the most horrific experience manning a games stall dat involved balloons? If not for the assistance of a few good men [and a woman, namely my G12 leader], I think I wouldn't have made it through that night.
Great... now everybody's gonna pop balloons in my face come my birthday.

In closing, thank God for a wonderful year on the whole. Though it was wrought with trials and much testing, year 2007 shaped up to be pretty exciting as well. No question I'll have to work harder come 2008, spiritually, academically, and character-wise as well. This year's Christmas traditions has brought out some of the worst in me, but it has made me see the urgency of the need for change. After all, character is wat you will eventually bring with you into heaven.

Peace out & GB.

I \/\/ill §ur\/i\/e

2007-12-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

Juz 3 words: [whatever's in my title].

I'm not exactly ecstatic about this whole camp. At least, not as much the previous ones. How can I when so many people can't make it! Now, we've got this Survivor thingy going on, and we so desperately need manpower when the manpower's not available.
However, seeing that this MAY be the last HOF camp [with the inconsistency of the Singapore institutions' time tables], I muz do my best to enjoy this camp... even if it does kill me!
Nah, I doubt it will be dat bad. I believe God has great things in store of us. After hearing Rev. Steven Kum preach today, I think it'll tough falling asleep during the services. He CAN relate to the young people, which intrigues me a little, since you don't have Pastor's looking 40 years older than you ministering to the youth every week. Apart from dat, I think I'll learn a lot in management, having to room a youth much younger than myself - and we're not even acquainted!
'Batman' wasn't particularly optimistic about our pairing.

Shawn: Eh... so who you rooming with?
Me: Hong Li, Jolene's nephew.
Shawn: Huh? Hong Li ar?! Wahahaha...
Me: What?
Shawn: All the best...

FYI, he meant that in a sarcastic way. Well, I'd rather see it as a challenge. It just means I haf to be a little more firm in my decisions. I sure miss the days where camp really was just taking of your own stuff in the room. Things change when you become a leader.

Even though the excitement isn't exactly to the overflowing, I've prepared my heart enough to have some form of expectation for this experience once again. Moreover, since there's high chance of it not returning for another 'season'. If it does return... can the people not be exiled?

So will be away from the 3-7 December. Thank goodness, I'll be home for Christmas [Sing it with me!].
And PTL, I've finally got my longing wish for a Wacom tablet granted today @ SITEX! God is good.

Before I leave, here's a funny compilation of, what my friend termed on his blog, 'Bunnies Very Useful Scientic Facts'. You may have seen it before, especially since the game came out quite some time ago. But hey... it still cracks me up.

Peace out & GB.
P.S. Don't forget to set up that Christmas tree.

AdJu5t|\/|ent5

2007-11-17T14:46:00.000+08:00

Ok. So I decided to replace my previous post after much consideration, since the last time I was basically trying to rush it out. My life's been pretty uneventful till now, especially since school reopened not too long ago, and I've got some things I wanna get off my chest.

Sem. break is over and it's now the 5th wk of my new school semester. I kinda slacked my entire holidays of, which was something I really didn't intend to do, even though in the early stages I tried to drive myself with some form of work, which eventually couldn't bring myself to do. Well, no use crying over spilled milk. I'm blessed with a new semester that only has me up for only 2 modules! Now how cool is that?
Even into this 5th week, the pressure isn't still really on for me. I've got great friends and wonderful tutors. But I've got to admit; there's seems to be an inspiration breakdown going inside my head. Maybe I'm too used to having stress be the driving force behind my work, but I think that's just superficial to say the least. Honestly speaking, I just feel lazy this time of the year, especially since Christmas is just around the corner. I think the rainy season doesn't make things any better. Rather, it only makes cloud 9 seem better half the time, although I still keep late nights for some reason, much to the annoyance of my parents. I noe it's a bad habit sleeping like 5 hours a day only, especially when there's no work to be done. Guess it's time I returned to managing my hours wisely.

Thank God, I've finally found a job that pays well. It's some sort of data-entry/trans-scribing desk job. I listen to this seminar file recorded on mp3, and I basically type out a report based on it. Trust me, initially I wasn't too enthusiastic about it. With cramped office space, cold air-conditioning, and the fact that I have to utilize my own resources (i.e. my laptop) to deliver the work, it didn't seem promising. Still, what's so bad about getting paid $40 for a 5hr/day job? Plus, my employer is probably one of the nicest people I've ever met, and I learn new stuff everytime with the seminar files. He's currently doing a series on dating, which I think is pretty useful for young adults like me, though I don't really dig his secular methods of doing so. I'm thankful He helps my mind to filter out the unnecessary stuff. So, on the whole, I'm fine with it. Don't get me wrong though, I joined it to get some working experience, and not for the sake of learning how to hit on girls. I'd rather trust God's timing in regards to finding 'true love' in the future. Nonetheless, I'm grateful to Him for His blessings in opening up this door, to work, for me.

I must reinstate the very necessity in my life to draw nearer to God as well. These days, life doesn't get any better unless you know God is control. To be honest, thought of seeking God's face doesn't really thrill me as much as it did in the past. Guess dats wat we all do we grow familiar with something; we like to put it aside and go on to something better. Still, nothing can replace the conviction in my heart dat He is the only One dat truly satisfies, and I haf to really pick up from there and start doing something about my crappy spiritual life.
This should be my primary goal b4 the year ends. The Christmas season is coming up [or rather, it alrdy IS here], and it's high time to stretch out those 'shriveled hands' of ours, if not physically, then at least in prayer.

Sounds like a mouthful, but God give me strength for the long run. Nonetheless, I think life's starting to spice up a little once again, and may my heart burn for Him once again.

Peace out & GB.

IT'5 b33n /-\ w|-|iI_E

2007-08-02T23:19:00.001+08:00

I dun really fancy cats, but this has to be the one that takes the cake. Totally made my day. Thanks Stan for the link.

I can't wait for Sunday. Yep...
cuz I'm gonna have a reunion with ma' primary school friends! Hahaz. And yes, it's going down for sure. It's been years since we've really made any contact, and finally, after half a decade of separation, we finally get to meet again!
I can still remember Wen Yang, Mervyn, Wei Loong, David... the whole jinn gang. In fact, juz had a conversation with Wen Yang today, along with that, coming to know about how much things have changed since we last saw one another. And when I say change, I mean drastic change.
He did mention I still look almost the same. ALMOST.

Looking forward to the gathering. It'll be one of the v. few chances I'll haf to relax before I hit Studio Project a wk later. Wat makes it more intriguing is getting to see how ea. individual has come thus far since our days of innocence. God noes how everyone will react. No matter, I miss them a lot. Having an opportunity to see them again gives me goosebumps; you really wun noe wat to expect.
It's great to know dat u came from the last class of EM2, but haf friends who now are doing well in life. Most haf graduated from JC, some still in polytechnics and ITE's. Managed to get some of them on Friendster, courtesy, once again, of Wen Yang, who's probably the closest to the rest of them. I'd consider him the closest friend I had in primary school as well, which is strange considering how we did not meet, initially, on very good terms. Hahaz. Used to bully me till my mum came to step in one day to mediate - and the rest is history.

Hey hey... if any of u pri. school friends of mine are reading this, here's a big SHOUT-OUT to y'all. It's killing me juz waiting to see you in 3 days. I hope y'all can make it. Remember thr's gng to be a surprise. Wakakaka!

Now... back to work... can't believe how one week has passed so fast. Sheesh!
Peace out and GB.

P[-/-\|\|UT |3Utt[-R J[-LLY Time

2007-07-26T17:22:00.001+08:00

Hahaz. Yes... was spamming this song @ G12 ytd via HP speakers. I think it came out in the year 2000, but apparently none of my frens haf heard of it.

It's v. therapeutic on the first 2 plays, but subsequently, you juz feel like squashing the banana.
So here are 3 of the funniest versions I've found while surfing through YouTube a few days back.
[For maximum enjoyment, pls up your volume to the max. Woohoo!]

Peace out & GB.

Back in Business

2007-07-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

Oh yes. I'll be back here more often I guess.
Blogging is sure a good way to de-stress, esp. after a long day where have to redo 10+ drawings of animation and having had class till 1900hrs.

A fren of mine was talking about 'burnout' today [and not referring to the XBox game, mind you]. She was referring to the dat sudden lack of willpower to continue working anymore. Be sure it's no rare sight in SIDM. I mean, having seen a bunch of pple break down/freak out juz like dat shows dat life in a design school like us ain't dat slack.
I had a tougher time in my JC days though.
Burnout is one thing u'd wish nvr to get while thr's last minute work to be done. Ur brain juz loses dat focus, and all of a sudden, u find urself unable to bring ur being to get the work done. It's kinda like when ur hard drive decides to crash whilst preparing a presentation [but having had the work saved a few mins back], and ur PC refuses to start up again. Yes, it sux! I can understand my peepz when they juz go into slack mode after a while cuz it's taxing to bear the burden of 4-5 assignments @ one go. Gd thing the pple higher up give us varying datelines, which help us most of the time, but do screw up our schedules on bad days. It's all about time management, something which I still struggle w/.

Thank God I've nvr had a burnout which lasted more than a day. The Word says dat 'God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind.' I was sort of meditating on dat on my way to sch today, in fear of wat changes Mr. Eugene might have me make again for my Earthworm Jim animation. Fortunately, he left before I could find him [we have to take our own intiative to find our lecturers u see].
Anyway, I was going to redo the drawings again...
Truly, there's no rest for me from now till end of August when my Studio Project is over. Plus, I've got the mini-musical's lyrics to work on, and God noes how I'm gng to get my pitching rite b4 the actual day.

I really need His strength, and I do find it easier to come to God on days like this. Only He understands our struggles, and the only One strong enough to carry our burdens. With Him, we can get back on track again, and it's been countless times since he has pulled me through. Even now I'm praying dat He will let this pass ASAP.

To God be the glory. May the last few weeks of this semester be a breeze by His grace.

Juz wanna share w/ u Da' T.R.U.T.H.'s new MV before I leave. U muz get his new album Open Book! It's hott.

Peace out & GB.

Moichido

2007-07-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

Wow...
I can't recall when was the last time I blogged. All I noe is... it's high time I stopped the pestering and start updating again.

Needless to say, alot of things haf happened within the past... oh... I dunnoe... 5 months ago [according to my previous post]. I mean some of the biggest highlights were like winning the church youth's Best Region Video Promotion, receiving 2 mp3 players within 2 wks [no kidding... sold one away alrdy], and beginning a new semester with new faces around me.
Amongst all the excitement, I still face the struggles of everyday life. God is good through all. Without his grace, I dun think I could carry on another day. Still, It's the trials that always draw us closer to God. It's the heavy rain dat always awakens us to a need. It's always a storm dat drives us to seek a lighthouse.

My prayer was never to be a complacent Christian, but I guess we're human after all. No wonder Jesus said that 'the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak'. I've come to realize procrastination as probably one of the biggest crimes when it comes down to being a child of God, and I haf no idea how long I've told myself to make a change, a difference in attitude towards God. These days, it's juz one day after another w/o any significant progress in my walk with God. Not dat I don't want it to move forward, but the cares of this world sometimes do get to me - I'm not afraid to admit it. Even being preoccupied with God's work has sometimes driven me further away from Him; the recent CREATE Video where I spent more time worrying about it than getting on my knees in intercession for it. No doubt it's one of the many reasons why we ended up being the last in a category which Walter and I supposedly excelled in, but I've chosen to recognise His soverignty in this matter. No matter, I'm pretty elated to know Region A has won the Canvas Art, Vocal Solo and Group categories, which now brings us up to 2nd position on the HOF Inter-Region board. Still, we have a lot of work to do for our attendance.
Souls... I remember like it was ytd when I reached out to Stanley, and thank God he's now faithfully attending another church w/ his gf. Dat was den, but now I seem to haf lost that heart for the loss - all over again. I dunnoe if it's a vicious cycle or wat, but totally am lacking boldness and faith to even reach out to my own coursemates these days. Maybe I'm not prayed up enough to truly deal with them as I've dealt with Stan in the past, even as a friend to them. Even during the recent outreach, I struggle to get some contacts, which unfortunately, wasn't able to get any, despite the 'roadblock' we set up outside a particular sch. As if dat wasn't enough, there was a slight rain before then, and the whole area became like a ghost town.

There should not be another day in my life dat continue in this manner. God, I'm asking every morning dat You break this cycle. Yet, I noe it's more than juz dat rise-and-shine devotion I gotta be faithful to.
Apologies if this post sound v. emo., but I can't help but reflect upon all these esp. since it juz rained in my area. It kind of reminds me how awfully cold I am to The Faith now when I noe I shld, and can, be doing better if I juz looked to Him.
I dunnoe how often I'll check back here. Maybe more often den before, now dat I've jumpstarted this blog all over again after a long hiatus. Moreover, for the sake of my STORY module, I haf to do something to keep my mind working, esp. on my language.
God grant me strength.
Totally encouraged by Pastor Dale's msg today on Performance vs. Presence, which refreshed my memory on performance actually paving the way for the Holy Spirit to move. Dat's how I looked @ it. And when we dun do well, sin ends up crouching at our door, and we haf to master it.
It's been a pretty long time since I broke down @ altar call. There was something different in that short but powerful sermon. I guess God wants to bless, as Pastor Dale would have it said.

Alrite, I shall stop my ramblings here for now. Need to touch up on my Earthworm Jim animation b4 tomorrow's lesson, and work on my singing for the mini-musical [arrrggghhh... juz less than 5 days away]. Thank God for today's most fruitful rehearsal. At least, I got to hear where I went out of tune so I can work out those parts.
Peace out & GB.

Ex|-|/-\U5Ti0\|

2007-02-13T14:33:00.000+08:00

*Exhausted*
After a long journey to Suntec yesterday w/ my parents, a few hours of shoppin' down there, and a ardous retrun trip home, I'm serious pooped, even today. @ this pt. I'm thinking: 'Maybe takin' SP4 could be a better option...' Well, most unlikely, since I'm only gng in depth into Digital Animation only next comin' sch sem.
Sadly, I was unable to get a new shirt for CNY which is like next week! So... anyone up for a shopping trip w/ me?

It's always refreshing to listen to a worship album, in retrospect to the exhaustion. Initially, I'm thinking... wat a strange thing it is to haf a name 'Pocket Full of Rocks'.
http://www.melodic.net/img5/pocketfullofrocks-song.JPG
Give this album a listen tho'... you wun be disappointed. I can't help noticing they haf almost the same style of music as dat of Casting Crowns, not dat I'm still in dat hangover... but this is a gd album.
Well, dat's wat I've been doing these past few days, ever since my current sem. ended [much to the envy of many of my coursemates, who are currently goin thru their SP4 riggin' and UVMapping processes]: finding out all the hottest CCM hits around. At the same time, I'm probably going to start my Maya retrainning in preparation of the comin' sem's 3D modules, which some of my frens haf reviewed as 'taxing' and 'stressful' in their contexts. I plan to redefine dat... NOT.
Well... I'll give it my best la. The rest will really be God's provision.

Ok... so enough of all this talk about stress and stuff. I had enough of dat for one sem. Maybe, I'd share something from my devotion:
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My Utmost For His Highest
5th Feb.

Are You Ready to be Poured Out as Offering?
If I am being poured out as a drink offering on the sacrifice and service of your faith, I am glad and rejoice with you all —Philippians 2:17

Are you willing to sacrifice yourself for the work of another believer— to pour out your life sacrificially for the ministry and faith of others? Or do you say, "I am not willing to be poured out right now, and I don’t want God to tell me how to serve Him. I want to choose the place of my own sacrifice. And I want to have certain people watching me and saying, ’Well done.’ "

It is one thing to follow God’s way of service if you are regarded as a hero, but quite another thing if the road marked out for you by God requires becoming a "doormat" under other people’s feet. God’s purpose may be to teach you to say, "I know how to be abased . . ." ( Philippians 4:12 ). Are you ready to be sacrificed like that? Are you ready to be less than a mere drop in the bucket - to be so totally insignificant that no one remembers you even if they think of those you served? Are you willing to give and be poured out until you are used up and exhausted— not seeking to be ministered to, but to minister? Some saints cannot do menial work while maintaining a saintly attitude, because they feel such service is beneath their dignity.
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Still seeking revival...
Peace out & GB.

N.o.t .'L.o.n.g.i.n.g.' A.n.y. L.o.n.g.e.r.

2007-02-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

After a long, technologically challenging hiatus, I'm back to blogging. And yes, I'm definitely gonna change my modem soon. Did I mention dat free stuff always comes with a 'price'. Ironically, YES.

Well, I've been pretty busy myself w/ projects; some which I voluntarily chipped in more since I had lesser modules than many of my classmates. Thus, dat results in, once again, many sleepless nites. 'Guess no matter wat position u are in SIDM [the new name of my NYP faculty, and it's lanyard colour is hot pink], there's always the same type of demand required of you. Makes me feel sometimes of returning back to my Yr. 1 days which were relatively slack, but... well... the Bible does say dat 'one who is slack is a brother to the destroyer.' Recited dat like countless times in my head, but surely not in my heart living it out sometimes. Gahhh...
I'm spiritually strugglin' still. You can say nth much has changed since the last time I mentioned about my spiritual life on this space. Although as the hols approach, it would be most wise of me to be back more often in the closet, altho' I would agree dat a true man of faith grows closer to God even in the trials we face. Personally, I'm pretty disappointed in myself for being so distant from God, tho' from time to time... u noe... u pray to Him like for 5, 10 mins for the really urgent stuff, and dats it.
I dunnoe abt u, but I've come not to believe in the wd 'longing'. 'Oh I long to be spiritual,' 'I long to be disciplined to seek Him,' 'I long "this and dat"...' The wd longing is a substitute for the phrase '... only wish'. 'I only wish I could be spiritual,' 'I only wish I could be disciplined.' Bros' and sis', truth is, we dun LONG to be like Him. If we wanna be like Him, action needs to be taken now. We need to discipline ourselves now; seek His face now; rise up now! If we believe in the verse dat 'today's the day of salvation', how much more we should believe dat we be all the things we long for in Christ NOW whom we haf accepted into our hearts alrdy!
As I'm writing this, I'm oso whacking myself in the face. How many times haf I overused the wd 'long' to justify myself, and it always turns out dat nothing frutiful turns out in the end.
Maybe I've become too religious to believe dat God can take me whr I wanna be in Him 2day, but glory be to God for his grace is always sufficient enough for me, and dat I muz always rmb. His grace ultimately is to cause us to fear Him even more so, and not to take Him for granted. Let's us long no longer [lol] to be like Him. Let's make it now to be like Him.

Thank God for His grace throughout the whole of the beginning of 2007 despite my distant relationship from Him. Buses haf been coming on time esp. when I'm late for class; being able to sleep 3 or 4, 5 hours yet remaining sane and lively; finishing all my assignments on time yet w/ gd quality; the anointing of God I haf while I'm teaching @ G12 juz to name a few. Now it's time to consider wat can I do for God. More than my ministry, more than the service I render to Him, it's time to devote myself to God Himself. And how true it is dat Oswald Chambers mentions dat 'the greatest contender of our devotion to God is the service we do for Him.' So be careful when u're dedicated to service, and not devotion, to God Himself. Good service may simply be a form of godliness, but yet behind all the hype, could lie a person denying the Holy Ghost and Power.

Ok, enough talk. I should bring all my thoughts to God instead [so as to cut this short as well]. Strange dat I got so much to rant abt here, yet when it comes down to seeking God these days... my mind sometimes juz blanks out.

'God, pls draw me back to You once again. Captivate my heart; reveal to me ur glory, dat I may be reminded of how awesome You really are. Let dat be a starting pt. of revival in my spirit to devote myself to u more and more on a daily, so dat when the world's eyes are on me, they'll see more of You, and yet less of me. I ask of You humbly, in Jesus Name... Amen.'

Juz wanna share a few vids I found on the net. Forgive me if you detest hip hop, but this is gd... and different from the secular stuff you hear.

This one's a lil' loud, so you may wanna turn down ur vol. a lil' if u're viewing this late @ nite.

Peace out & GB.

2007: A Good Start?

2007-01-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

OK. So blogger.com can't solve my probs. now. They say it's the ISP's problem. I've no idea how to bring this up to Singtel. Gaaahhhh...

I can't do long posts, so juz a lil' update. The jest of it all is dat 2007 has gone off w/ a rather shaky start. And still experiencing a Christmas hangover. I was really blessed by the recent movie screening of Flywheel tho'. It wasn't too preachy, and spoke to my heart a lot. U could say it was some form of a breakthrough for me after a long while of apathy. Yes... I may haf sounded quite spiritual @ times here, but I haf really been missing out a lot on God's will for me.

So I'm putting Jesus back in charge. Back in charge of my ministry, back in charge of my heart... back in charge of my LIFE!
2007... here I come...
Peace out & GB.

All I Want for Christmas is PEACE!

2006-12-23T13:47:00.000+08:00

Yep... it's been one busy Christmas. So now I'm back to blogging on this cold Sat afternoon, and hopefully thr wun be any downpour during Heart.Sports later.

Here's a breakdown of the events occuring in my life last wk:
- 3 - 8 December was a wonderful time w/ Casting Crowns. Great concert. Managed to befriend Hector Cervantes, although I missed out on taking their autographs... even tho' I was backstage w/ them @ 1 pt. of time. ARGGHHH!!! Anyway, they're a really anointed band, and you can tell it from the lack of hype they give to their concerts, but yet the wonderful presence of God juz fills the place when they hit the music. Hope they return soon for more.
Andy Williams rox!
- 2 weeks of *ahem* 'working from home' haf begun... and I've been so busy w/ Christmas... I haven't begun work @ all. Woot! [I'm being sarcastic]
- Finally shifted into my new rm, which is formerly my grandma's bedrm. Boy is it huge! And I got this semi-hard foam bed feels like the mat of a wrestling ring when you lie down on it. Yeah, but it's meant to be gd for ur back, and yes, it's gonna take time for me to adjust to it. At least now I dun haf to put up w/ my sister's whining whenever she feels like sleeping and I dun.
- Blue Christmas is finally over! I can feel the bliss of being free now to finish of my Christmas shopping... if thr is anytime left. Potraying a break-up in a Christmas skit, painting Christmas shirts, buying food for Home Christmas... man, it's finally gd to haf some peace and quietness gng around.

More imptly, it's time to work, work, work! Loads of assignments to dig into this holiday season.
Peace out & GB

|=Ru5TRaT10N

2006-11-14T01:09:00.002+08:00

Crap happens... but God is good.
Could things have gotten any worse this wk? Rushing for projects, facin' spiritual attacks, havin' to handle great losses... unable to blog etc.
Dixon and Jia Yan would understand... and much as I believe God does, or even to a greater extent. I mean... arghhh... it was juz so frustrating! Moreover I was doing it w/ gd intentions.
Haiz. Well... I guess God's juz gonna haf to provide wat I've lost. It's heart-wrenching, esp. since I'm juz a student.

So my mum's b'day is this Wed... like *gasp* I haven't even bought her a present [juz like every other yr]! It seems like whenever I wanna do bless someone material wise, I'm always running low on a bin of flour and a jar of oil. Give me faith like the lady in Elijah's story, O Lord! I'm actually still contemplating even @ this time wat to get for my mum.
Maybe a voucher? It sounds practical, since I've juz gotta guess wat she really likes. Strange Sam... 18 yrs and counting around her, and u still dunnoe wat ur mum really likes? WAKE UP UR IDEA!
Aite... I noe I'm a pretty unfilial son, but I'm gng to do smth for this time round, by hook or... nah, better not be by crook. Might as well do it tmr... since I'm free almost the whole day.

OK... juz a small update. Will be bangin' to my Winamp till 1.30 @ least b4 I hit Cloud 9.
Time to put up a countdown to Christmas!

Last but not least... welcome back home sista' Jia Yan!
Peace out & GB!

Sippin'-Some-Tea'

2006-11-01T14:15:00.000+08:00

Hey yo.
Much due to a bug in my home router [which till now I'm unable to figure out], I'm haven't updated my blog till now. The obituary you see below was intended to be up last week a day after my grandma's funeral, but I had actually posted it today, juz to let ya'll noe.

A big thank you to those who turned up for my grandma's wake and funeral, and thanks for all your condolences, may God richly bless you. It's really in times like these dat I realize how much God has blessed my family w/so many supportive people. Glory be to God.
And, yes, I feel much better now thank you. Do continue to keep my family in prayer tho', esp. for my mum who still finds it a little difficult to clear up her room. U get my drift.

My residential phone line recently got cut off - again. Dat put my parents in a pretty bad mood, considering this has been happening over the past 2 - 3 yrs alrdy, and Singtel has been inadequate in dealing w/ the problem. The technicians had to cut off another phone line upstairs in the master bedroom, greatly inconveniencing us - again!
They say much of the 'credit' is due to the unprotected cables which were short-circuited by moisture from the rain dat occured during the evening the day b4. Explains why we experience so much static when using the house phone during rainy days, but I guess since it was over a period of time, it's about time the cables gave way. The technicians suggested external wiring, which will prove to be safe, altho' thr's dat small chance of having someone vandalise those cables and messing them up. Watever it is, I dun blame Singtel for it, but rather the contractor who renovated the house for us, which, until 2day, we're unable to contact him! Haiz...

I'm right in the heart of NYP's new library cafe, totally chillin' out. Almost got freaked out by Christine juz now who suddenly came up to me informing dat a lecturer had to see me, which was totally untrue.
Thnx for the false alarm...
Seriously, I was tryin' out this new server which is enabled to bypass NYP's proxy server, supposedly giving us the privillage to access those websites dat those moderators blocked here in the campus. Actually, if NYP didn't block so many websites, people wouldn't be doing stuff like these which seems so unorthodox, and potentially wrong. Then again, this is a educational hub after all. Still, if we need to access certain websites for study, some of them end up being blocked. For DMD students, the best resource www.youtube.com always gets cut, when half the time we need to refer to them.
Well, actually they could oso simply be gng thr to watch their favourite series online, which is kinda abusing it.
@ least give us a chance to prove we can make gd use of these websites which are blocked. Who knows if NYP could be better improved in this manner.
Don't ask me wats the bypass for the proxy server. I may juz get hunted down for it.

Anyway, I'm currently waiting up for my group members from the Concept Pitch module to arrive so we can discuss our script to be handed p next week. Thank God they're such wonderful members, who always cough up really out-of-this-world ideas, and are rather open. Who can ask for more?
The ideas generated were pretty gd today; considering if were to apply them to FYPJ, they'd be pretty gd stories to do an animation on. Hopefully God will see us thru' w/ gd grades, and something to pocket in our portfolios as well.

Last but not least, to those taking the O's and A's - Gambatte!
Speaking about such academics like these makes me wonder how long it has been since I've really sat to study theory, till now[which is my Japanese language]. Imagine the struggle I've to put up now juz to discipline myself for 3 hrs a day to study, and we're not talking like burning the mid-night oil for 4 or 5 hrs, like I was able to do in the past. ARGGHHH!
Well, @ least dat compliments the only 4 modules I'm taking this yr.

Dun be jealous.

Any part-time jobs to intro'[except those in the service industry... pls]?

Pls save my home router!
Peace out & GB.

...To Grandma...

2006-10-25T13:55:00.000+08:00

I was woken up on Sat morning, only to hear the most shocking news ever.

My last grandparent, my maternal grandma, had juz passed away.

At first, I didn't noe how to react, but somehow I knew immediately dat it was finally time... God's will has been done.
If thr was one thing I knew throughout the whole of the past 3 days, it was dat she has gone home to be w/ the Lord in a better place whr thr wld be no burdens. It really put me @ peace knowing dat almost throughout the past 18 years of my life, she was slipping in and out of heart attacks, strokes and whatnot.

You will truly be missed grandma:

- for preparing and feeding me porridge during my younger days.
- for comforting me whenever there was a thunderstorm [yeah... I was afraid of thunder... in the past...]
- for always being there for me during the times of my illness, w/ all the funny chinese concotions which strangely tasted pretty gd.
- for forcing me to drink barley every Saturday, even coaxing sis and I by adding rock sugar, during the times when you were stronger.
- ...

Well, for simply being thr for me when I needed you most.

Yes, she did cause much inconvinience during her last few months on earth, but I guess it could nvr outweigh the many years she spent raising me up, since most of the time, mum & dad would be @ work.
You'll always remain in our hearts till the day we see you again...

"God, thank You for my grandma. She was porbably the only grandma I knew all too well, even her eating habits. Thank you for putting her in my life. Even though she was nvr satisifed w/ life, she always desired Your will to be done ultimately. Forgive me, Lord, if I was ungrateful to her during the times whr she became more of a hinderance; for being so insensitive @ times to her needs. I thank You dat you gave her the peace to let go, and I know dat even though in death, she has found eternal life. Grant me and the family strength to move on from here on. The memories we will cherish, but remind us dat one day we will see her in heaven, whr we will live eternally forever. Thr were times I did struggle with the fact whether or not she would end up in eternity, for she hardly attended church, hardly read the bible... but you rebuked me for being so religious in my thoughts. Had I not taken into consideration she prayed? Had I not taken into consideration her desire to yearn after you daily?
It's too late for regrets. Lord, you haf given and you have taken. If only she could be raised from the dead, I would be willing to make amends... any amends!
Then again, would not Your care and protection be so much better in her imperishable body?
Lord, thank You for saving her soul, above everything else. For if not for You in her heart, she would not have lived her life to the fullest, till a ripe ol' age of 94. Thank You for blessing her life, as much as she blessed us w/ hers. Though in flesh gone, in spirit, she remains; and longing to see her one day.
Thank You so much for grandma, one of the greatest blessings in life I will live on to rmb for a lifetime. I commit all of this unto Your hands, knowing dat Lord, she is finally w/ You in paradise, and I nid not fret.

In Jesus Name... Amen."

"For me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain."[Philippains 1:21]

Peace out & GB.

For |-|[]|_YHIP-HOP...

2006-10-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

It's misunderstood these days... and half the time, I get criticised for listening to such musik.

But it's much more closer to the faith than u think...
Here's ma' man Da T.R.U.T.H.!

Peace out & GB.

[Holi-End]

2006-10-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

Waahhh...

Time sure flies when u're havin' fun... and juz like dat, 6 weeks of hols r gone. Awww....
It was fruitful nonetheless. Getting employed part-time, getting paid, learning to work independantly... yeah, I did get a sense of achievement.

Still, I'm always wondering why my course's hols r always shorter than any other courses dat r around. Maybe, dat's truly the life of a designer.

'Perogatives' aside.
I managed to enjoy my last few moments of my hols ytd @ Heart.Sports. Frankly speaking, I was feeling rather lerthargic while gng @ it, but Praise God for the win pulled by the skin of our teeth. Hey, we not doing too bad for a team dat has hardly any sporting talents. Moreover, we were up against a very strong team. It's truly the hand of God. Hahaz.
Made our way, thereafter, to Wen Yi's place for a pot bless session, and had a wonderful time enjoying dat time of fellowship, and of course, it was good to see some old faces as well.
Oh yeah, I was witness to Dixon's 2nd driving experience on the road after he juz recenlty passed his driving exams. Well, it was quite a gd try for a beginner, although the ride was quite bumpy. I was mumbling half the time while he was parking, afraid he would crash into another vehicle. It was distracting for him I admit, and yes he did express his utter resentment @ dat after the whole ride was over. Lol.

OK. I will not try to get into cloud 9 with all this talk. After all, we shouldn't be lovers of pleasure, rite?
Monday, 6 p.m. tmr... BACK TO SCHOOL!

Peace out & GB!

|-|/-\R[)|=A(TS

2006-09-25T22:28:00.001+08:00

Yoz Samuel... welcome to the School of HARD KNOCKS.

Ok, I received my 1st sem results alrdy... and I FAILED 2 MODS! Rite... I was half-expecting it, since I wasn't really motivated to complete certain of my projects, even tho' I kept up late nites juz trying to figure out ActionScript 8.0, and most of the time... I never resolved to completely comprehend it.
Well... guess it's NS one yr. later. It's not dat bad after all. Seriously, though, seeing 2 F's on my report was pretty demoralising. At least my GPA was 2.3, matching to many who juz scraped thru' as well [thank God for my 3D Modelling B-grade]. Bad thing is... I've to graduate one yr. later. Less opportunites, less time to learn more things b4 I start aging.

I've juz begun work @ this advertising agency Dynamic Asia. Alot of unity in the company thr, and almost all the staff thr are youths. Cool ain't it? I think God was leading me into this type of work basically also to get me to realise how privillaged I am to be studying, cuz, to be frank... no job is easy. Well... @ least not as easy as studies. So 2day I had to create an awareness for charity along w/ a grp of team-mates by encouraging donations from pple. We gif em a charity postcard in return. Honestly speaking, I think it's tough to sell $10 cards for charity donations; really not worth the money, esp. when u can get it free outside [quoted by one of the ladies I approached]. For the first time, I felt the sting of being rejected by pple... it's downright frustrating if u ask me. Can imagine the feelings of how those other charity fundraisers approached me in the past... and I didn't gif em' a single cent [not dat I've never given to charity @ all].
Well, for most of the more experienced pple working w/ me, they did relatively better... of course. I heard someone else dispatched @ another area received 75 dontions, equivalent to $150 in juz one day! Looks like I've got a loooooooooooong way to go b4 I acheive smthing like dat. At least I was commended for my gd effort for receiving 11 donations on my first day @ work. Others couldn't even fins half of one book.

Glory be to God.

Yesh... tmr I'll be heading back to work, tho' it may juz kill my partially-flat foot. Boss says I'll get used to it no matter wat. Time to start trainning for hardcore shopping, esp. since Christmas is juz a few mths down the road. I wun really noe whr I'll be assigned to tmr, so dun bother trying to figure out how to help me. Surprisingly, I met a few Bartleyans while I was gng arnd Bras Basah Complex i.e. Tan K.C., Jasmine etc.
They didn't contribute anyway... lolz.

Life sure demands alot more from u as maturity catches up. I'm sure God is preparing for greater things... not dat I'm boasting. I thr's one thing I've learnt from all my foolish ways in the past it's dat God breaks a man b4 he makes a man. And, boy, do I haf much to learn [no pun intended]. Staying true to Pastor Chui's sermon on Sunday, I simply can't help but sympathize w/ King Solomon. Truly, wateva man strives for is in vain. One day, riches and materialism will all be folded into a garment, and the only one who will truly be rich is the one who has built up his treasures in heaven.
God wants to bless us w/ more material things, but it's all to bring us to a realisation dat we need to gif back God even more, in time, energy, tithes etc. May even the life of mine be one of serving the Lord w/ all my heart, and obeying His commnds, for truly, dats the whole duty of man. Imagine the whole world resting simply on dat one duty... how much less stressful life would be.

"God... help me to focus on heaven's treasure -building. Even bring me back to the discipline I once had settled upon for my studies and education. As King Solomon proclaimed: 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto thy own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.' How tough it is to acknowledge u in everything, esp. when we are busy trying to build ourselves up in every area. We want health, we oso want wealth. Sometimes I wonder about Your tolerance for man. Yet, Your heart will not contend w/ man forever. Help me, thus, to recognise Your unfailing grace and mercy upon my life thus far, preserving me thru the seasons. As I lean upon u, teach and guide me to build the rite treasures, which above all, is treasures in heaven i.e. fruits of the Spirit, discipline, holiness, righteousness... and not least... souls. I pray all these in Jesus' most wonderful name... Amen."

Peace out & GB.

IWANTTOBREAKFREE!!!

2006-09-13T03:00:00.000+08:00

Arghhh...
The boredom's seriously sappin' me dry.

The only thing dat really excites me [in a negative manner] these days is simply the not-so-friendly, neighbourhood, flying cockroach dat ends up in my toilet every nite, and I get a 'kick' out of gasing it w/ a few shots of Sheltox, which is normally done in defense for my own hygiene's sake.
My dad's biblically correct: God gave us dominance over animals... so why should I fear them. I mean... it's tough to strike down a pesky lil' pest upfront really, even though we're like having a whole lotta' physical advantage over them. Maybe I can tame the household gecko, but roaches... maybe after NS when they've really hardened me up.

Anyway, I didn't really spend the whole day @ home ytd since I was @ Sentosa w/ Stan, Adrian, Andrea, Linda and Ming Yi [Linda's bf'] for @ least the earlier part of 9/11 [forgive me for the deliberate mention... planes only flew over us]. Yeah, u probably haven't heard of these peepz, and I hardly make mention of them myself. Anyway, we did some suntanning, and for the first-time, I got no sunburn. Cool ain't it? Thnx to Stan's banana-cake fragrance suntan oil - really smelt like one. Played this sea-jostling game, whr one player becomes the 'horse', and the other, a 'knight'... yeah... and u're suppose to knock [via push/pull] the other 'knights' off their 'horses'. FYI, the 'horses' piggy-back the 'knights', and since everyone was a 'horse' or a 'knight' @ one pt. or another, we were all kinda knocked out after the game was over. LOL.
Hit the showers w/ red spots all over my body, den it was off to Sakae Sushi for a sumptous buffet. Ate a whooping 50 over plates, I think, which actually, isn't quite a feat for a group of 8. I was down by my 11th. Left for Dhoby Ghaut w/ the gang b4 we parted ways, they to watch movie and me to go home w/ some $2 Takoyaki balls[finally... some worth eating], dead beat.
For once... I slept @ 10 p.m. ytd, a first ever since my pri. sch days.

Ok... sounds mundane but it was a comparably exciting outing as opposed to rotting @ home.
I finally managed to get the Freaked! album 2day from Life Bookshop @ Tampines, since Stan wanted to collect his dad's repaired HP from thr, and got me along 'cuz it's awkward doing stuff alone'. Guess he's more sociable than I thought. Anyway, I managed to share some of my Christian faith w/ him, along w/ a Chick tract, and pray he will open up his heart soon.

BTW, Freaked! is a 7/10 album for me. In my opinion, get it if u really juz need to hear something different. Other than dat, DC Talk fans may find it a lil'... um... disturbing. And I mean really disturbing [remixes].

I really dun understand why I haf to do this @ 3.30 a.m. Juz felt like it.
God is still gd, no matter wat. Only he can give me freedom, even while stuck in my household half the time.

Peace out & GB.
*zonk*!

Blog's 2nd Anniversary

2006-09-10T12:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah, like any1 would care these days. My blog seems to haf less entrants as the days go by. Anyway, bloggin' is a gd past-time no matter wat - provided it's conducted in a civilised manner.

I couldn't haf picked a more timely date to start an online journal, juz a day b4 the anniversary of 9/11. I always keep mistaking it as 'the day which will live in infamy', and juz in case u've been hibernating under a rock for the past 7 decades, dat was the famous Roosevelt phrase made after the Pearl Habour attack.
I juz getting it straight here so I wun mix it up again...
It's unbelievable juz looking back @ the events of dat sinister attack which brought down the world's tallest monuments in juz an hour. All it took was juz one man w/ an Ak-47 b4 the cameras, 2 planes, and a handful of madmen. Shows wat genuine faith actually can do, except for these pple... they've done it genuinely wrong.

Anyway... I've got this intriguing video which I was hooked onto last yr. Long one, but worth watching.
Discretion: this video is juz the opinion of a few pple who seriously haf nothing better to do. It's up to u whether u believe them or not (though most of the statements seem to be valid).
As far as I'm concerned, I'm neutral.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7866929448192753501&q=loose+change

I'm not going to get all gloomy here hahaz.
2day Pastor Lim delivered, once again, a hard-hittin' msg from the pulpit based on Joshua 9. Simple yet effective sermon on seeking the counsel of God first and always, especially, as he mentioned, w/ God about to bless Singapore in times to come. All the more we should not be complacent as the children of God, and rely on secular experts rather than the Almighty.
It's true. Sometimes even when I seek God's will, it's so easy to say I want his will, but in our hearts, we desire none of dat. We may not be like Pharoh who exclaimed in Exodus: "who's the Lord that I should obey Him?" Deep in our hearts, we may even be mumbling w/ dat same phrase.
I think it's also high-time for me to start seeking wat's really God's will in my life, esp. after all dat has happened recently pertaining to my educational path. I mean... I've juz had enough of changing paths time and again. 2day was one message dat was definitely for me.

Ok... it's gettin' late. My initial idea was to sum up the events of the past 2 days, which basically are:
1. I'm going to apply for a job at a Shi Lin outlet. You know... the franchise that sells the big XXL Chicken and stuff. Hahaz. Hoping to get dat job since it's kinda basic, and wun require much cooking skill.
2. I'll be heading to Sentosa tmr with some poly-mates! Woot!

All in the name of my blog's 2nd anniversary. Who noes how long it will last. Not even I dare assume.
Peace out & GB.

[St/-\|\|G(-] LiBerty

2006-09-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

Haf u ever been so busy for a period of time dat when u finally break free of all dat hustle & bustle, I find it tough to get used to the boredom which begins creeping into your life thereafter?

I haf. I'm experiencing dat rite now...

Ok... I mean... I do spend time w/ God everyday, keep myself busy w/ some light reading (I used to like reading alot... haiz), and aimlessly surfing the net. Yeah... I did mention to my peepz dat I'll be finding a job and building up my portfolio at the same time during these hols. Just wanna make a simple plea here...
IF YOU GOT ANY JOB LOBANGS DO NOT HESITATE TO INTRO' ME TO THEM! Um... but no service jobs lahz (as in those returaunt kinda jobs ya' noe), cuz I'm seriously not cut for them, unless you want me smashing some china-ware and stuffs (which I'm sure you wouldn't want to). Muahahaha!
Anw, I'd love to get a job (can't believe I'm saying this), since it'd be something nice to keep me occupied for a while. May God bless me w/ some office job. It'll be gd. Hahaz.

I wound up making many frens during Studio Project 3 somehow, some of which I've become quite close too. Cool ain't it? Well, I never considered myself as sociable compared to normal pple, but hey, I guess God does bless us w/ frens when we need them, i.e. in times of boredom. LOL.
Anw, I went out w/ some of them ytd and it was hilarious alrite. I'm really looking forward to the Sentosa trip w/ them on Mon. Guys... if ya'll gng out pls inform me! I need some fresh air!

PTL. Ytd's F4(Family, Faith, Food and Fun Night) was terrific, even tho' I came late :P. I was kinda distracted w/ the high noise level, but thank God for the many souls saved! Hallelujah! Truely it's not emotion nor atmosphere, but the Holy Spirit at work. Stanley couldn't make it due to some karaoke session he had arranged earlier, but @ least he'll be comin' for the movie screening tmr @ HOF. Yeah! The Second Chance had some pretty gd reviews according to some internet sources I read recently. May thr be a great demonstration of God's Spirit and Power once again!

BTW... if you consider yourself a Christian, I suggest you dun watch this phenomenon called 'Hard Gay' (or 'Hardo-Gay'... wateva it's called). IF u haf, dun spread it. Shall we partake of something God has clearly condemned as an abomination?
Legalism? Think about it.

So being free isn't dat gd as it seems after all. But... hey... I think I need to chill. Best to spend more time w/ God. Amen?
Peace out and GB.

Brace For It!

2006-08-28T12:11:00.000+08:00

Yeah! 6 more days and the sem hols will be here. It's sure been a slow semester for me, w/ so many challenges juz in this 1st sem of my 2nd yr. Wateva it is, I'll be heading to another specialisation nxt yr. So much for graduating one yr. later... haiz.

God has been so good lately. Ever since I began my fasting last wk.(yes... even in the midst of my Studio Project), I feel so much more uplifted in spirit, even though it's tough sometimes when u haf frens munching away on snacks rite in front of you. Nevertheless, I believe fasting does produce gd spiritual results. Always haf believed in dat. Coupled w/ the Holy Spirit, it's more than enough motivation to keep me going for this wk's fasting, until The Lord tells me to stop.
Wat am I fasting for? Well... many things. My ministry, G12 vision, revival (thank God for helping me constantly in this area)... hmmm... think dats abt it. God gimme strength to last these nxt few days!
The crux of this whole affair is abt my ministry, which I believe I'm simply juz not doin' enough(dun u juz feel dat sometimes) in wat God has entrusted to me - a G12 Assistant Leader. I was really inspired by this annoynomous Christian quote I read recently: "Shepards don't merely point the way, but lead the way." How true it is! Jesus never simply pointed out the way dat leads to eternal life, but led them to it - dat was Himself! How I intepret it is somewhat abt more than juz informing people wat they should do, but to prove it through our actions. It's kinda like saying: "faith w/o works is dead"(James 2:26). My life needs to live wat I preach, a truth which I cannot hide from this time round.
Thank God for Pastor Chui Chui's sermon ytd on 'Contending for The Faith', a really hard msg which I believe woke many up to reflect on their spiritual lives (me included), whether we've really been standing up for the 'one holy faith' as Jude emphasizes in his epistle.
How true it is dat we're living in the last days, w/ all the apostasy and cheap grace going around in the certain Christian circles. I'm not saying churches shld be perfect. No church is perfect, but the most important qn. one shld pose to any congregation and it's ministers would be this: are we winning souls and building them up in dat holiness, w/ the faith, doctrine and long suffering dat Christ exemplified during his life on earth? How dare ministers of such twist biblical truths to suit themselves in order to walk this Christian life free and easy! Thank God they're winning souls, but it's as if they're giving these babes in Christ a poison apple, w/o the babes knowing the apple is poisonous. It still leads to death!
I'm not condemning those who haf (and maybe, still are) sitting under such preaching. I pray dat they all will receive discernment through the meditation of God's Word and prayer to be sensitive enough to see the truth.
Anyway, I've digressed... hehe. But I really hope dat God will open the eyes of these pple.

Can't wait for Thurs, cuz I'll be revisiting my alma mater, dear Bartley Sec., for some catching up w/ old frens (i.e. see how much they've changed lol), and, of course, paying some dues to the teachers dat had helped me thru my much cherished secondary sch education. I'm gettin goosebumps juz thinking of how they'll react upon seeing me and my frens again. Maybe it wun be dat bad, since our year is still the batch dat the did the best for the O's. Dat shld give us some credit rite?

Alrite... gotta get back to my SP work b4 I get it from my team...
Peace out & GB.

P.S. "Is what you are living for worth Christ dying for?" - An epitah of Leonard Ravenhill

Back!

2006-08-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

So it's been like 2 weeks++ since I've last updated. So I'm back to clean-up some cobwebs, dust etc.
Following 2day was one whole week of burning the midnight oil, although in the process, some assignments were done up pretty crapily (if there's such a term). I guess I've learnt to sleep a lot less during the course these few 'working' days. *Haiz*... sometimes I wonder if I'm a student or a working adult.
Anw, specialisation transfer's successful and I'll haf to talk to 'Mr. Director', 'Master' Yang Tien come this week. Hopefully, I can pull out of SP this sem., since it won't do me any good staying on.

It's pretty antagonising to my parents to noe dat this is the 2nd time in my entire life so far dat I've made an abrupt decision to switch course/study. Call me a late bloomer, but I can't help being a person dat's in the process of finding myself. In any case, my parents haf permissed, so I'm kinda on my own now. I pray dat somehow I'll get to prove my worth through my results, which hasn't been very promising this yr., despite the many sleepless night's.
Maybe it's becuz I'm not spending enough time w/ God as I used to, remembering dat he's always the source of my strength. Ah but, yes, HOF taught me self-ctrl ytd nite. Muz stop staying up so late and catch-up on some shut-eye. I can feel the detrimental effects slowly coming in.

I really wish I can some exercise during the free time I haf next semester. I can't even run around for 5 minutes in the soccer field without feeling drained. Did I tell you how drowsy I felt during last week's game? Ok, maybe it was the sweltering heat dat sapped all my energy, which explains the drowsiness. Hopefully, 2day's weather will be better.
And I've got tix to the Planetshaker's Ultraviolet concert 2nite! Woot! Guess I'll pass the fireworks festival for this yr. Hehz.

Thank God for slowly reviving my walk w/ Him. It's sad dat I've probably allowed the Devil to distract me w/ all my studies, so much so dat I've missed the appoinments I've made w/ Him. Thankfully, I'm currently reading the book of Psalms, which is pretty encouraging, though half the time there's mourning and grief somewhere in it. Thing is, dat despite all the sorrow, the authors of Psalms never fail to proclaim God as their refuge and strength ultimately, and never fail to constantly seek His face despite His wrath upon them.
It's so important to pray for mercy everyday, for we do not noe in wat ways we haf offended God. Even the most subtle sin God sees - physically, mentally, spiritually. However, we always haf 2 choices, harden our hearts and believe in the lies of the enemy, which condemns you, or believe in the Word of God, repent, and receive forgiveness sans the condemnation.

Ok, I'm juz speaking my mind. Wat I'm trying to say is dat, we've got so many things to learn, even overcoming the most subtle sins in our lives. If we truely 'go on to perfection'(as Hebrew mentions), let us not compromise even on the slightest things the Bible teaches us. It's tough, but His grace is sufficient enough, and we shld always go to Him in times of difficulties, not juz pertaining to studies, working life, family, but spiritual ones. May the Holy Spirit all guide us towards perfection.

Aite, I gotta get rdy for Heart.Sports. Can't wait to get to Ultraviolet! Muahahaha!(Pardon the evil laughter... I'm really gng thr for the praise and worship). For those who didn't manage to get the tix, juz wanna encourage you by saying dat they'll be back annually. U simply can't miss them!

Peace out & GB.

Scumbag in Christ...

2006-07-14T11:15:00.000+08:00

Sad to say, after the bunch left... everything was a downward spiral from thr on. At least for me.
Yeah, I'm a scumbag in Christ.
I think this morning was the longest time I've spent w/ the Lord in prayer ever since several months ago, when the whole saga ended, and a few months after dat. It's probably the first time in a long time since I've wept over my iniquity; not doing enough for His glory; not winning souls... it all has added up like cholesterol in the body. We love consuming it, but the aftermath, after a prolonged period, is not so nice.
2nite's new HOF series is probably gng to be a wake-up call for many... and I'll probably be the 1st to be slapped left, right, up, down, centre, for everything spiritual dat I was not.

Yes Lord, take me into the Holy of Holies.

Yes, I wanna rise up again.

Yes, I'm sorry for the way I treated You.

No, I WILL not sleep no more.

Yes, blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness.

Yes, I shall be filled!

'Finally, brothers, good-by. Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.' - 2 Cor 13:11

Peace out & GB.

?aLmOsT LoSt iT¬

2006-07-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

[Updating from SSC library]
I almost fell sick ytd, much thnx to the stress sch gave during the past week.
Thnk God everything's finally over; the assignments, the MTV, the drama... I wasn't just breaking a sweat, merely, but lost some sleep, which I managed to catch up on some today.
Then again, to every end, there's another beginning. So I can relax... for now dat is.

So in this very quiet area I'm updating, with a sense of ease for once, away from the hustle and bustle of the world. Can hear some fireworks from the National Stadium which is juz nearby only. At least it's spectacular, rather than boring schwork. @ least I'm gettin' used to muggin' late into the wee hrs of the night. Anyway, the grace of God never fails; it always warns me when my body's gonna to break down. The bouts of sneezing couldn't come any more timely than ytd, juz b4 we began rehearsing for our Create drama, and I had to take some Panadol in trying to stall it. Thank God dat he witheld the running nose during the skit, and we managed to pull it of. I realised only several minutes later dat my nose had been cured. God works wonders isn't it? So much for the medicine. Well, at least I've got an excuse for not attending the blood donation drive at my church 2day. Hahaz... juz joking. I hope God bestows me with courage to face it next yr when it takes place again. Hehe.

Btw, Region A came in 1st for the Create 2006 MTV submissions! Woohoo! Thnk God... all our efforts were not in vain, esp. for Walt [who burnt the midnight oil juz to see the vid rendered 3, 4 times]. Sing Tee was so overjoyed she could have somemore Sakae Sushi [won vouchers entitled to dat retauraunt], along w/ the other voucher she received for her vocal group efforts w/ David[yeah... the 'a name created by Pastor Alan' Duo team]. The irony was dat Walt and I were treated to some Sakae on Wed, and the former had bad food poisoning, ultimately missing G12. I'll spare the details b4 they lose business. LOL.
Our drama came in 2nd, which wasn't too bad since mayn things were last min, and we didn't even haf props. Joshua nvr ceases to amaze me, this time clinching the Best Supporting Actor Award for his role. Kudos to Region C, who pulled it off w/ some ROFL material on 'Creation', a good theme to work on for an event coined as 'Create'.
Congrats to all the winners [and non-winners] of Create 2006. Ya'll did v. well, becuz ya'll ultimately did it for the glory of God, and dat's good enough for Him as much as I hope it will be for ya'll.

Now dat all this has finsed, reality check is @ hand. Stress really has been getting to my head, and I've been less able to ctrl my emotions, let alone having enough time to seek God.
"God, I pray you'll forgive me for habouring so much anger and bitterness this week. Like you said: ' man's anger does not bring about the righteousness God desires for us.' I pray dat you'll guide me in my many endeavours, but also keep me in check of my spiritual state dat I may not forsake You . Help me not to compromise on wat You've convicted me of, for You're setting me apart from the chaff till the day You come. Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from the evil one. Through Jesus Christ I ask and pray... Amen."
I may be changing my specialisation from IM to Animation very soon. Keep me in prayer dat I may make the right decision this time round, as there are many pros and cons to this.
God light my path.

Peace out & GB.

\\/\//()rRy-|\\//|(-'-(/)oT

2006-06-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

The 1st wk of the term break has passed by so swiftly, and by the grace of God, he has brought me through w/ some of my homework done. Authoring assignment still bugs me though.
Haf been listening to many sermons which really encouraged me to push forward in the course I'm in. I've learnt one thing through all of this: God doesn't need us to excel in everything we do, but merely juz to do our best, and he will take care of the rest. The scriptures brought me some form of edification when I read this portion:

25 'Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? 28 'So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 'Therefore do not worry, saying, "What shall we eat?" or "What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?" 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.' - Matt 6:35-34

The words of Jesus never fail, and I found such peace after heeding the above. A sermon led me to reading yet another portion of the scripture about Abraham's faith in the Lord:

'5Therefore He who supplies the Spirit to you and works miracles among you, does He do it by the works of the law, or by the hearing of faith?— 6 just as Abraham "believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness." 7 Therefore know that only those who are of faith are sons of Abraham.' - Galatians 6:5-7

I think wat God has been trying to drill into me this entire week was the need to juz simply trust Him. Wat I'm convicted of is this; that God's children should not be as stressed out as the ungodly, for it wouldn't be a testimony. I'm not saying that you should put aside all diligence and wait for results. I'm saying dat we should not be overwhelmed by circumstances until we start worrying about our future, and whether or not we can ultimately pull through or not. All God wants us to do is to surrender it all to Him in faith.
Like Abraham, sometimes God tells us to come out of the comfort zone [rmb dat Abram, then, had a call from God to juz come out from the country he lived in for many years and go to a land which he knew not of], or He tells us to do something ridiculous. We hesitate and start questioning God. It' human to do dat. We get over that conflict soon enough, but then some time later the enemy comes w/ a lingering qn, 'wat if...' S.A. Tan juz needs these 2 words to stir up unbelief in us and cause us to shake in our faith.
'Wat if... wat if... wat if...'
Unlike Abraham, we live in post-pentacostal times and posses the Holy Spirit, who's there whenever we need Him. Which is why Paul mentioned: 'Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead'(Philippians 3:13). Wat Paul is trying to say is dat, 'I may not be able to see wat I'm heading for, but I noe where I'm heading for!' Bros' and sis' in Christ, we all may be heading to another tomorrow in this sin-cursed Earth, where juz about everything is unpredicatable. Should these bother us, knowing dat, if we're genuinely saved, we're all going to finish in eternity w/ our Heavenly Father, whr he will reveal to us, in all his glory, all the help and grace dat was available to us through His angels and The Holy Spirit, and dat every worry we had on our minds were unnecessary?

God wants us give Him all our burdens 2day b4 He can cause us to haf peace. We dun haf to remove the worry in our own flesh [which is not possible], or by turning to any other source [which will ultimately fill us]. Juz cry out to God 2day and believe.

My parents finally returned from their China vacation 2day, and Thank God for bringing them home safely. My grandma's not feelin' too well, so it was timely for their return 2day. If my grandma were to suddenly get some sorta heart-attack or smth like dat, I'd probably be so unprepared.
Hahaz.

God is good.
Hopefully, I'll be able to fins my assignments ASAP so dat I can cut myself some slack for the rest of this wk, as well as freeing up some time for MTV filming this wk. Juz too bad when the sun-set came so quickly while we filmed the outdoor scene on Sun.

Peace out & GB.

!Jammed-The-Breaks!

2006-06-13T10:08:00.000+08:00

This morning's post will begin w/ some ActionScripting *grins*:
sis_Esther.duringHolidays = function (success) {
this._dad = overseas;
this._mum = overseas;
this._boyfriend = cometohousetostudy;
this._breakfast = makeforbro;

if (failure) {//if there's such a statement in the first place...
this._brother = norespect
this._complain = 1000
this._sleep = 9hrs
gotoAndStop ("12p.m.")
}
trace("yeah parents are overseas, time to havoc")
};

Hahaz. If you catch wat I juz mentioned, u'd probably be chuckling a lil'.
My parents left for their China vacation ytd, which leaves me primarily in charge of the house [dats if Esther does listen to me]. Thank God for their safe journey thr [was msged by them this morning], esp. after getting so paranoid after overhearing abt a terrorist threat in dat country on the recent news.
Seems like Andrew [Esther's bf] is gng to be part of our family soon, cuz this whole week he's gonna be here in the house tutoring Esther [or rather I HOPE he is]. Really cannot trust Esther somtimes, esp. when she has a tendancy to duality [refer to ActionScript above... hehez]. Makes me feel for Walter who has to deal w/ 3 women in the house everyday of his life - esp. now dat it's the holi... *ahem*... homework week.
Ok lahz... despite being pinned down w/ loads of work during thses 2 weeks of 'term break', I've been feeling pretty relaxed, by the grace of God. Initially, I was pretty downcast, sometimes if wondering if this specialisation is really God's will for my life. Sometimes all the scripting involved can really kill my interest @ a certain pt., but God nvr fails to refresh me by His Holy Spirit. Will be fasting this week to ask for God's direction.
PTL!

One thing I'm getting worried abt is dat it seems many pple haf been lying to me. I've no idea whether they're doin' it blatantly or not, but whatever it is, if God is for me... who can be against me?
Maybe I'm juz being oversensitive...?

Create 2006 marks another leap of faith for me. This time round, Walt and I are promising some form of computer animation to really up the standards of this round's MTV competition, which, thus far, have been dismal. Praise God for the technical direction dat was settled earlier this week, and we're ready for filming ASAP. Hopefully this MTV will come in handy for my portfolio as well. Hehz. Music videos galore!

It's joyous to see dat those who had left the church not too long ago are slowly returning back to Evangel, even thou' I wasn't the one who encouraged them to. So many things haf changed... seeing them makes me really reminisce on the past times of fellowship. Hahaz... yes Weisheng... the 'meat' was thr, but I think now, we'll all haf to rely on only God and His Word for dat. It's all for a higher purpose. @ least my prayers of asking God to heal the land were not in vain, although I can't interact w/ them like I used to.
Btw, I had a really sumptous dinner w/ the poison ball team for the Heart.Sports ytd @ Marche. Pastor Alan was so kind to actually fork out an extra $50 for the amount which could not be vouched. And I realised Xin Yi is the best person to travel home w/, cuz she can converse w/ you on juz abt anything, from her work to girl gangsters [cuz we saw one gang @ Bishan, and she was so afraid] etc. Hahaz. She was practically chattering all the way home w/ me. Hahaz.

'Heavenly Father, ur hand is upon this land, and the spring is slowly returning...

Hallejuah.'

Enjoy the new MTV [it's the latest by KJ-52, btw].
Peace out & GB.

_=Run For Cover_=

2006-06-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

I REALLY NEED SOME TIME ALONE WITH GOD!
A lot of times, when we're in deepest pits of trouble, we tend to turn to God, only juz to throw him to one side later when the trials are over. Like Pastor Dale said during prayer meeting: 'We tend to give God the crap!'
Personally, for me, it's kinda vice-versa.
I dunnoe. Maybe it's fatigue from all the work and longsuffering I've got to put up w/ during those trying times, and I've a feeling God is putting me through more ridiculously stressful situations for training me up. After all, we're transforming from image to image, and from glory to glory!

Ok, so I thought JC alrdy busted me up real bad. Can't believe 2nd yr. in poly is juz as rigorous. Argh! So much for withdrawing from dat institution. Anyway, I like this course for wat it offers; creativity, skills, industry experience, steady frens... if I were yr. one all over again, I'd probably still choose this course above any other. Hahaz.
Thank God... he has been ever so faithful in helping me deliver my assignments on time, even tho' I've been a bad testimony in certain ways [i.e. 'poning' a particular class this week... *ahem*]. I mean... like haf u ever tried working until 5 a.m. in the morning, and expecting urself to wake up @ 7 a.m. the nxt morning to head for sch? Kinda insane. But as I said, I had only 2 1/2 hrs of sleep during one of the days. Craaa-zzzii-ee!
Well, we all face problems. It's the Christian who always says: 'God is good!' No matter wat the situation, we muz believe God is still in control! It's a matter of opinion... how big is your God? Rmb... the power of agreement matters.

"I tell you the truth, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven." - Matt 18:18

It's time to return back to my prayer closet, and really set ma' mind on Christ. So many things to pray for, yet so lil' time.

"O God, cleanse me of all unrighteousness! Your word says: 'blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled!'[Matt 5:6] Help me to overcome my apathy, and the lack of desire for your presence. May I never neglect this great salvation! I've lived this life for so many years, and I noe much will be expected from me. I believe you're throwing all these @ me to raise me up to another level of trust in you. I will not question Your ways, for I noe wat You haf in store for those are Your's are gd things. You haf good thoughts about us, and You haf never failed us in one promise, and never will. Its all abt our faith in You, and I pray dat You will enable us, by Your Holy Spirit, to haf dat child-like faith in u. Faith dat juz looks up to You and completely believing You are truly above everything we face, juz like a child looking up to a father, and has complete trust in him to be able to defend him.
O Lord, thr's so much to learn still, but help me not to be a drop-out, like wat I was during my JC days. When the tough times came, I crumbled under the immense pressure. My earnest desire to be more like You, tho' it will take even more stamina than any physically strain I've ever experienced b4. Thank You for the Holy Spirit! The Comforter, The Helper on whom I can depend, in times of great adversity to help us, and in times of great triumph even to humble us. A power dat was due to us w/o any conditions or stipulations, but only by the simple acceptance of You, Jesus, was it given to us. The rest was alrdy finished for us.
Help me set my eyes upon You once again I pray! In the most glorious name of Jesus Christ, I pray... Hallelujah and Amen!"

I need some gd rest too manz. I'm gettin' panda eyes soon. No.. wait... I ALRDY HAF EM'! Arrgghhh!

Peace out & GB

* It's Been A While *

2006-05-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

I'm back after having to handle several days of sleepless nights, trying to rush my assignments. THANK GOD, they're finally done...

yes... and more are coming my way...

@ least now I can sss-qu-eeee-zee in some time for bloggin'. Juz decided to pen something brief about wat God has taught me, thru' all dat has happened these past few weeks, esp. when it came dwn to meeting the numerous assignment datelines.

Discipline.

Something which I've lacked ever since the start of the sch term began, and truly... it's been a while since I've sat down proper to study. Complacency? You can say dat. How God dealt with me so severely in this area in juz these past few days. He 'enabled' me to sleep only 2 1/2 hrs on several occasions [broke my record of 3 hrs], allowed me to lose my documents [of which I had to redo]... basically these past few days it's juz been one working disaster after another.

And I hardly had time to beseech Him, which was bad.

Wat a great testing of my faith it was, and it really brought out to me the many sacrifices we haf to make as Christians.

Anyway, pls keep me in prayer dat God will help me to balance out my time.

Peace out & GB.

¿...Can We Move On...?

2006-05-12T11:10:00.000+08:00

I can now understand how James Gomez feels. As of now, thr is much strife within the body of Christ.
I dun understand the pt. of praying up on the matter when I can spend dat time praying for souls. Bros' and sis', I APPEAL TO YOU, if we're gng to continue being affected by the consequences, looking back at the past and how these pple haf mistreated some of us, we'll become juz like Lot's wife, who's heart could not bear to part w/ Sodom.Whether it was becuz of gd or bad intentions, God is abt to do smth abt it, and if we look back, we'll become nothing more than A PILLAR OF SALT!
This was all dat God revealed to me while I was seeking Him 3 days back. Pardon me for being frank, but this is starting to constitute as folly.
Let the matter rest in the hands of those who can take charge, pple like our Lord God Almighty and His elect. Why do you worry? LET US PUT ALL THESE ASIDE AND START DOING SMTH CONSTRUCTIVE FOR THE LORD... like winning souls. Giving God the cold shoulder ain't gonna make things any better, and I noe some alrdy haf, simply becuz of this matter.
If you really trust The Lord, then seek His face! Do not whine, moan, BLAME or COMPLAIN. 'I sought the LORD, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears' [Psalms 34:4].
God is good.
I finally managed to grasp my lesson concepts for most of my modules alrdy, and Thank God for His faithfulness and wisdom in aiding me, cuz this wk I've got heap-loads of projects to undertake, many of which, the submissions, are in 5 days time... AND I HAVEN'T EVEN BEGUN! Thankfully, today's one public holiday in which I hope I can chiong and avoid sleeping late [past few nights haf been burning midnight oil for a 3D Mod assignment], lest I miss my church's Sentosa outing tmr. I'm still contemplating my absence or not... hmmm...

Maybe I will, since God helped me recover from a flu recently, and in a record time of 3 days! The speediest recovery I've ever had from a virus. Hahaz.
Ok, it's mug, mug, muggin' time. Gng for HOF later... I really need the presence of bros' and sis' in Christ. Haf a blessed wk ahead ya'll [since I porbably wun be updating dat often anymore]. Hopefully, I can change this blog's music video section by today.
June term break, so near, yet... SO FAR AWAY!
~Peace out & GB~

!NotAnotherDay!

2006-04-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

Ok, it's bad enough having dealt w/ probably the worst week of my life as of yet.
Today's msg was real timely I guess, and thank God for it. How often do we forget to bless our circumstances, but rather we curse them, and it's kinda like striking a donkey which refuses to move. Instead of solving the situation, you get more frustrated and hurt. I dropped to my knees @ the alter, and wat the Holy Spirit impressed upon my heart was this one sentence: "I won't take this for one more day as long as I live!" How liberating it is to cry out to Jesus, for only He can bear our burdens, as He did on the Cross.
Praise the Lord.
Wonderful outreach ytd, and I moved around w/ Pastor Que Beng. Made a joint effort in preaching the gospel to this particular youth, but I kinda forgot his name. It seems nowdays I'm getting more and more abesnt-minded anyway. Haiz. Thank God for wonderful fellowship w/ Michael, who suggested I pick up crossword puzzles to exercise my cerebral power, ytd after that, basically discussing abt the various probs he had in his home cell, his prev. church, how he wants to be on fire for God but ppl arnd him keep dousing his flame etc., and many other stuffz. Was edifying, even though I thought he was really gng to get down to studying his History text in midst of watching Man U. Vs. Chelsea @ W.T.C. Kinda unrealistic, but we were hardly focusing on the match either. Only managed to catch Joe Cole score the 2nd goal for his team. Hahaz, was a fantastic shot anyway. Much to Michael's dismay, he forgot the following match was to be Liverpool Vs. Aston Villa[Michael's choice team], and b4 we left, a most heart-wrenching scene: Liverpool scored the 1st goal via Fabregas. Ouch! So much for the blonde-moment followed when we left the cafe havin' forgotten to pay the bill, and had a rappin' from Karen thereafter, of which she threatened she would hunt us down like loan sharks if it really happened. As they say, 'hell hath no fury like a woman scorn'. 'Ouch!' again.
Ok loads of work needed to be done 2nite. Chow!
I'm not gng to let the enemy steal my coming week. God will make a way!
Peace out & GB.

::Pricele$$ Salvation::

2006-04-29T12:27:00.000+08:00

Bad week. In general, everything still screwed up.
I kinda felt God was a puppet master, toying w/ me throughout the week. Sending me buses on time, yet I was late for classes; had misunderstandings w/ my lecturers; having to deal w/ a v. unprofessional lecturer, and having to forfeit G12 [hopefully, for this week only] so I can attend his lessons; forgot to pay promise slip offering; the computer crashed, and my lappy's only comin' in mid-May; having to face up w/ a matter that should haf been settled a long time ago...
The Lord giveth, and the Lord taketh away.
If you think it's easy having to face up to such a truth, it's easier said than done. As always, I'm reminded of Job, except, I was but anything like him @ the end. I wasn't given a back a double of what I've lost over the week.
Then God gave me something greater... the joy of seeing a loved one saved.
I received a phone call from Sister Susan ytd, thinking she was probably gng to say smth abt me having not paid up my promise slip on time. I was like: "Oh cmon', this can't be happening..." I was on the brink of screaming @ God. She requested for my mum, who obviously was not @ home. Then my HP rang, and it was my mum. So I told her Sister Susan was looking for her, and this is how it went down after I told Susan to call my mum on the office phone...

Mum: 'Which "Susan" you talking abt?'
Me: 'I check caller ID...'
[gave her the no.]
Mum: 'Oh, Susan Lee.'
Me: 'I guess so...'
Mum: 'I think she wants to tell me that Ah Yi [dat's my aunt] got saved this afternoon...'
Me: 'oh, I see... HUH, WHAT? REALLY?!'
Mum: 'Yah... It's a miracle. When I heard the news, I couldn't help contain my tears [chuckles].'
Me: 'Waahhh!!! Praise God! Hallelujah!'
Mum: 'Pastor Marion was thr, and was informed by her.'
Me: 'Praise God... OUR PRAYERS WERE NOT IN VAIN! God is good!'
[conversation continued thereafter]
Mum: 'I'll cya later.'
Me: 'Eh... I'm gng for HOF special event, "LIFE!".'
Mum: 'Yah, we will be gng as well.'
Me: '... ...'

Strange how God works in mysterious ways. I mean, wat could be more worth than having the soul of a loved one coming into the kingdom of God. @ that moment, everything else seemed so distant. All my problems, all my cares... as if God oso lifted my spirits in the process.
I was reminded of wat the Lord spoke unto Jeremiah, as I was making my way to the 'Life!' event in the stormy weather. Coincidentially, it was oso the focus of my devotional reading from Oswald Chamber's My Utmost for His Highest that day.
'And do you seek great things for yourself? Do not seek them; for behold, I will bring adversity on all flesh," says the LORD. "But I will give your life to you as a prize in all places, wherever you go."' [Jeremiah 45:5]
Truly, wat more can we ask of God, other than the greatest thing any man can be given - his/her life. Whether we survey our lives as beautiful or juz downright lousy, it is stil a gift from God.
If you're an unbeliever, and reading this particular post, I can only gif you this 1 encouragement: God feels your pain. I can't guarantee dat accepting Him into your life will stop pain from manifesting itself in you again. However, whether it'd be physical, mental, or emotional suffering, only one being can completely alleviate that pain - Jesus. The Son of God, who came in flesh and bloodof man, so that he could feel your pain. He took all of dat pain on himself on The Cross; every embarassment, every physical abuse, every sin, every rejection [even from God, his Father, becuz he was baring the sin of the world on himself @ that point of time of his crucifiction]. He did it for me, and he can do it for.
Christians: I say the same thing to you, and take it from a guy who has grown up learning sbout Christ and God for almost his entire life as of yet. Suffering will still come becuz the enemy will do everything in his power to create dat unbelief in you. The Devil isn't lying down, defeated, juz becuz of the promises of Jesus, through His death and resurrection. He's fighting becuz of those promises. And until we learn to be faithful unto Him, we will most certinaly fall. It's all a matter of trusting in Christ, and we haf the Holy Spirit to help us in our times of unbelief. All we need to cry out to Him, and he will hear us.

'Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.' [Matt 13:45-46]

God is good. Beloved, let us focus our affections on Jesus, and he will take care of the affliction.
Peace out & GB.

+Commitment+

2006-04-20T11:35:00.000+08:00

Hur hurz... sch's reopened.
Thank God b4 sch reopened on Mon, thr was Easter svc., and was very blessed by the sermon. One quote in particular kept going through my head: thr's a difference between juz knowing abt God, and knowing God. Wat a challenge dat is to us Christians, who simply juz go abt proclaiming our faith, but dun live the life God has commanded us to - wholeheartedly. One thing comes to mind as well, dat merely following God in part does not make the cut, in God's eyes. My recent devotions on 1 & 2 Kings haf proven why.
Now God promised to keep the family of David in generations to come. However, realized that the kings that subsequently succeeded his throne were given this main emphasis: 'And he did what was right in the sight of the Lord, yet not like his father David.' Such descriptions were given to the various kings that followed, all except Hezekiah and Josiah, whom 'did not depart from following Him, but kept His commandments, which the Lord had commanded Moses.' These two exceptional rulers had one of the longest reigns in Judah, such as was King David. If God is the same ytd, today and forever, how much more can we expect of Him today if we live a life of wholehearted obedience to His Word! Morevoer, we haf the grace of Jesus to enable to walk in righteousness!
God is good.
Ok... so first day of sch was gd and bad. Gd start, bad finish. Had a Web Design class in the morning which was a breeze, and ended the day w/ a night class on Authoring, which had a lecturer that was kinda unprofessional in his teaching i.e. every few mins he has to let off a vulgarity. Left the campus grounds rather offended, although it was easier to be more attentive to him since he kept runnin' his mouth in that manner. Anyway, most of the classes for this wk were cancelled, so thus far, the pressure ain't on yet.
Thankfully, thr was laptop sales on campus recently, and managed to register for a Fugitsu E series b4 the promo ended 2day. Hehez, I dun haf to wrestle w/ my sis for the desktop anymore!
Speaking abt my sis... she oso juz purchased a new HP[Sony Ericsson W800i]! Manz, she juz loves to compete w/ me... Lol.
Hahaz. More and more new things are coming my way. I'm praying hard dat this new sch sem. wun steal away the time I wanna spend w/ God on a daily basis.
Hopefully, I can make more new frens as well, since I'm in a new module grp.
Many other things happened as well. Managed to fellowship w/ Josh, whom I haven't met up in a long, and went shopping w/ my sis for her bf's gift, of which most of the time I was complaining to her. Hahaz.
In the spring of things, let us not forget the gdness of God upon our lives!
Peace out & GB.

~GroWinG~GloRiouS~PainS~

2006-04-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

I'm referring to the pain dat comes when you're trying to get spirtually strong.
I dun see myself as spirtually strong yet, cuz thr's many more things I haf yet to comprehend i.e. loving God passionately, separating myself from the world etc. No matter wat, God has been faithful. 'Blessed are those who thrist and hunger for righteousness, for they shall be filled.' [Matthew 5:6]
I dunnoe why I said dat, but I guess it's becuz of having been faced w/ a set of humbling experiences over the course of this wk, which has much to do when I was spending time w/ God and how He dealt w/ me, probably to prepare me for the soon-to-reopen sch sem. and many more challenges dat haf yet to come.
I hope the prev. post has blessed ya'll. The enemy's truly rising up w/ everything in hell to put us believers into flight, but PTL, we haf Jesus as our deliverer; A God man, in which no evil spirit or Devil is any match for!
Hallelujah!
Highlights of the wk: AGM cum Prayer Meeting. I FINALLY COULD VOTE! Hahaz. Anw, every1 wld probably concur w/ Pastor Lim's decision [except one lil' grandson of his named Joseph, as I've learnt during the meeting], so ain't nuthin' big of a deal. Yeah... it was kinda corny to see everybody raise up all their hands @ the same time at the unction of Pastor Lim. Well, all in the name of company voting.
Thurs, went night-jogging w/ Walt. Got dropped w/ some hard news: Charlotte's been barred from attending church activities on Wed and Sun. Walt's mum has been doin her best to keep Walt himself from spending time in church, wats more, he claims S. A. Tan has been messing around w/ his head. So kinda led him in prayer after the run. He didn't seem too upbeat, but I'm praying for the best outcome in Jesus' Name!
Thank God for Good Friday, whr we can be reminded of the death of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Really, really powerful worship thr was manz, although the sermon did lil' to minister to me @ least, but I muz say dat Pastor Marion really loves the Lord through the way she delivered her msg, 'The Greatest Sacrifice'. Headed down to AMK later, w/ my parents, to purchase a new mobile phone, and got convinced to get a D510c. However, if u asked, I was pretty upset in the sense I got a discount through some unscrupulous method of which I was oblivious to despite the discussion I had w/ the store owner. So I kinda got punished by my dad when I got home, by paying more than then the agreed half-price of the phone [my dad paid the other 1/2], to my dad. Yet another humbling lesson for me concerning 'why I should be more alert to my surroundings', as my folks wld quip.
Haiz. Kinda tired, though 2day Rounders was postponed due to the threatening weather.
But I Thank God for His grace and mercy through His son Jesus Christ, for which w/o it, we wld all probably haf been struck down dead ages ago. God is love. I'm reminded of one of Rev. Carter Conlon's [Sr. Pastor of Times Square Church] sermons, 'Becoming Familiar With the Presence of God'. In it, he mentioned that if he were God, he would haf juz taken the the whole world and juz haf blown it up into space, beginning all over again. It would be the same if any1 of us were Him. As mentioned, God is love, so much so dat instead of destroying the human race, He sent His only begotten son, to be die for us, becuz only through His sinless life, could we be reconciled to God. God could haf stopped it, and thus in other wds, God killed His own Son out of His own accord. The Law states: 'Thou shall not murder.' Then how could God execute such a unjustified sentence on His son who Himslef is pure and blameless? Beloved, God is above the Law! Rev. Conlon described it as if having put your hand into an ant's nest, and all the ants start biting you. However, instead of killing those ants, you kill your own son, but the meaning's still deeper than dat.
Praise the Lord.
None of us can focus on God or holiness[we've been made to grow in Christ-likeness] 100% of the time.
Grace works, Amen?
'Lord, Your love is so amazing, so divine, it would be unrealistic even to jot all of it's qualities into the books of the world. It is a love so great, dat no man can fathom. O' Lord, let us not juz rmb Your love juz on Good Friday, or juz on Easter Sunday, but daily we'll come b4 Your presence, and stand b4 You in awe and reverence of Your unfailing kindness. Every knee shall bow, and every tongue confess dat You are Lord, King of Kings, Lord of Lords! Let us not strive in our own flesh to achieve wat You haf called us to be, but to haf confidence in the Holy Spirit to become more like You, Jesus. For we glory not in the flesh, but if we walk by the Spirit, we shall live by the Spirit, and glory in Jesus forevermore! In the most glorious name of Jesus Christ, I pray... Amen!'
Peace out & GB.

||...The GREAT Business of S. A. Tan...||

2006-04-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

Dun mind me... but this ain't another sermon from Charles G. Finney.
It's lieu of a multitude of things that has happened recently, and, specifically after hearing of wat a gd fren of mine has been gng through, and although I feel like speaking my mind out on other things, I feel this has to be more crucially addressed at this time. It's a scheme from the deepest pits of Hell, and it has been striking down many Christians through the ages.

Wat exactly is S. A. Tan's GREAT buisness? It definitely ain't selling you insurance. Well, basically, it's to get you, as a child of God [the grp which I'm addressing], down! He executes this in 3 ways.
1. First, he is going to come like a FLOOD [Isaiah 59:19]. That's rite, he's gonna rain down a flurry of problems on you; a flood of inquity will pour out onto you. It will be evermore so when you're advancing spiritually in God! He sees you as a potential danger in his plans, cuz once you rise up, he noes u're gonna win souls regardless of the cost, which means less pple following him into the Lake of Fire, dat is, Mr. Tan's finally resting place. Such will be his hatred dat it will drive him to do all in his power to destroy you - physically, mentally, and spiritually as well.
2. Next, he'll tempt you to qn. God [or to put Him to the test]. Rmb, the same thing happened to Jesus, after he came out of the desert, exhausted; having spent 40 days and nights fasting thr [Matt 4:1-11]. It's the same: after the enemy exhausts you, he'll lead you along, to a pt. whr you will start blaming God for your problems and sufferings. He'll, cause you to think you've 'laboured in vain', as expressed by Jesus in Isaiah 49:4. He'll make you think dats it's been useless having trusted in God for so long, and after all the effort and prayer has come to naught.
3. If you dun counter the 1st two, your mind's gonna be opened only to Mr. Tan - and only Mr. Tan. Sin comes in w/ full force, and it's gonna destroy you completely, or even worse, lead you to death. Contemplating suicide is the most common poison He plants in people thereafter; a lethal poison dat will take effect overtime, sometimes so subtly dat pple arnd you wun even noe you've been inflicted as such.

Beloved, thr's a whole treasure of remedies in the Bible dat can lift the siege of the Devil over your life. All you need is juz haf faith in His Word. 3 ways to counter back.
1. '46Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say? 47I will show you what he is like who comes to me and hears my words and puts them into practice. 48He is like a man building a house, who dug down deep and laid the foundation on rock. When a flood came, the torrent struck that house but could not shake it, because it was well built. 49But the one who hears my words and does not put them into practice is like a man who built a house on the ground without a foundation. The moment the torrent struck that house, it collapsed and its destruction was complete.' [Luke 6:46-49]. The remedy to the first assault of the enemy is to constantly read His Word, and thereafter, put it into practice. This is probably the first, and strongest, line of defense. No wonder Paul mentioned: ' so then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.' [Romans 10:17]. James further elaborates: 'Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.' [James 2:17]. Peepz, this is the way to go if you wanna resist S. A. Tan's treachery. If you haven't been living out the infallible Word of God, or even reading it, it's time to get serious!
2. Ok now, so you've hit the second action plan on Mr. Tan's list [dat is tempting you to qn. God]. How do you reverse it? Take a look @ the same portion of the Scripture in which Jesus got tempted. Mr. Tan tempted him all he could, but Jesus kept rebuking w/ only one thing: the infallible Word of God! When the Devil had knocked you down to this stage, the ony thing you can lean on is this, and the promises it holds. However, unlike in the Old Testament, we as modern Christ-ians haf Jesus to lean on as well. The Messiah himself said: ' Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.' [Matthew 11:28]. Rmb, as well,'therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.' [James 4:7].
3. Counter to the 3rd action plan of S. A. Tan is to consult an authority of God i.e. pastors, ministers, leaders, spiritual counsellors etc. 'For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light.' [Ephesians 5:8]. Do not keep mum abt your suffering, but bring it out to a God-given authority, and do it in private if it's really necessary.

Thr you haf it. It really all comes down on how much trust you're gonna put in God's Word. Will you learn to let go and let God?
Let's go!
'14 Do all things without complaining and disputing, 15 that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, 16 holding fast the word of life, so that I may rejoice in the day of Christ that I have not run in vain or labored in vain.' [Philippians 2:14-16]
Peace out & GB.

`...MAD...RUSH...`

2006-04-11T01:47:00.000+08:00

Juz finsed my module registration, and boy was it crazy. I was nervous cuz I misunderstood course codes, and would've got kinda messed up if not for Walter's help. Once again, thnx for the help bro'.
*Phew*.
It's only 1 more wk left till sch reopens. Hols have been so short, and I've hardly gotten any real rest for obvious reasons. Really thank God, though, for His faithfulness in His will being done in terms of aiding me in my module registration [although some time slots kinda suck], and for putting me in the focus track I desired. Results haf a slight improvement from prev. semester, of which my parents were quite satisfied [though I believe they always wish I could've done better]. Hahaz.
G.P.A: 2.885. Compared to last sem's 2.769, I guess thr's a frequency jerk on the line-charts for me.
Josh has been feeling kinda lost lately, so he decided to treat me and Walt to Sizzlers today for the sake of fellowship. Guess he was feeling rich as well, LOL. God bless you, my bro'! We headed 1st to NYP [for Josh to find his lecturer, who evetually we found out was M.I.A.], then dwn to the retuaraunt branch @ Toa Payoh, since it would oso be on the way to the optics shop whr I had to adjust my new spectacles. Thr was gd news as well: I can finally get a new phone! My 21 mths had been expired, so I kinda lost my former HP coincidentially [not accidentally, mind you] after all. Wootz! So we took to sourcing out @ various telecom shops, but only a few were able to offer gd prices. Hopefully, my dad will be willing to get me a gd phone though.
I promise to take gd care of my HP this time round... PROMISE! >_<" Smtimes I juz wish God could've made a day longer, like 25/30 hrs. Time sure flies.
And I'll be flying to cloud 9 now. Tata.
Peace out & G...B...Zzzz...zzz...

=From Image to Image``From Glory to Glory=

2006-04-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord.
I really Thank God for the friends I haf. Not that they're thr trying to scratch my ears, but I think the encouragement I've received has been simply overwhelming.
Josh, Dixon, Wei Sheng, Jovin, Midori, Jia Min, Wen Yi, Xin Di... May the Lord richly bless ya'll!
Recent Thursday was Pastor Lim's birthday dinner, and boy was it a dinner. PTL, @ least I've gotten the assurance dat I've been made rite w/ the pastors. And Pastor Lim... hahaz... gave me such a tight hug, I almost choked. Lolz. Thank God for the reconciliation!
Fri day was the umpteenth time I've watched 'The Cross and The Switchblade'. Hahaz. I wun mind reciting some of the lines mentioned in the movie for u, if u ask me. Yepz... powerful, ministering as ever b4. PTL!
I've been reading John Wesley's classic sermons from a book I've bought not too long ago, 'The Holy Spirit & Power'. Truly, Wesley is a righteous dat smithe me! Maybe some time soon I'll be posting some of his sermons here. Wat caught my attention recently was a topic he titled, 'The New Birth'. It speaks of how water baptism, sanctification and fufilment of Godly duties does not equate to the new birth. Wanna noe why? Hahaz. You'll haf to wait for me to post it up then keke...
Glory be to God.
I've really learnt to stand in awe of God more than ever b4, and He has never been so real to me until now. Even juz now, in my own prayer room, I could really sense His majesty through the Holy Spirit, and was travailing all over. Hahaz... I think Josh wld term this as being 'burnt' by the Holy Ghost. In any case, I've made a commitment to God:

Peepz, If my living and worship does not draw people to God, or spur u on to greater Godly jealousy, please let me know! It musn't even draw pple to exalt me!

I don't wanna go on in holiness and righteousness if it ain't gonna cause pple to come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ, or cause Christians to 'march towards perfection'[Hebrews 6:1]. For this cause, I pray dat the Holy Spirit will lead me and guide me in His will, and through as many bros' and sis' in Christ as possible. Peepz, I pray dat it will be your heart-beat as well: to walk in holy living as Christ has called us to, and drawing men unto Jesus Himself, the true Saviour of the world. O Lord, may our walk speak loud, and our words be true!
'13 You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.
14 You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.' [Matthew 5:13-16]

Not forgetting wat a wonderful combined service we had today, which was held in honour of Pastor Lim's 60th Birthday.
Happy B'day to Pastor Lim! May the Lord's richest blessings be upon you!
Peace out & GB.

\\I Can Finally Breathe A Lil'//

2006-04-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

Ok... so last night I had to attend prayer meeting becuz Pastor Dale wanted to advise me once more.
I didn't know our actions during a counselling session Josh and I had w/ Pastor Lim actually caused him to be so grieved, which sparked off his actions on Sunday. Moreover, it was juz a week b4 his 60th b'day. O manz...
In any case, I believe both sides should have reason to relent.
I've really seen another side of my group of frens in recent days, much due to the this matter actually exploding out of hand. Some haf adopted a more aggressive stance, while others are simply stumbled or confused. Peepz, juz to let you noe I'm trying to absorb as much impact this thing has on me as far as God allows me to. After all, He wun put me through anything I cannot take. I stand upon that promise.
Thr's reason to exonerate all here. Juz wanna tell ya'll dat no matter whoever was/is in the wrong, we shld all move on from here. Like what Paul said: '13Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.' [Philippians 3:13-14]
Bros' and sis' in Christ, let's not allow past, present, or even speculated hurts stop us from running this race! The author of Hebrews himself expressed these same sentiments of Jesus Christ: '1Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.' [Hebrews 12:1-2]
Let's lift up the name of Jesus, and cut the Devil down
"Oh Jesus, how foolish I was to haf allowed this to go so far. All the spiritual things haf led to a sudden downfall, and even to a pt. the grp of us almost went cultic! God forgive me for being such a disobedient child, for doing so many things out of my own flesh. I thank you for your grace Jesus, for using so many figures of authority and friends to expose this in time, and for yanking me back to reality time and again. O Lord, help my unbelief, my blindness to sin, and my ignorance to the many warnings that haf fallen on my deaf ears. Holy Spirit strengthen me, as you pick me up from the ruins once again. May You comfort those who need to be conforted, and wipe away the tears of those who cry out to you. In the mighty Name of Jesus, may Devil's mountain be destroyed! Let the name of the Lord God Almighty be lifted up once again! In Jesus' most wonderful name I pray... Amen!"

'There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.' [Romans 8:1]

Peace out & GB.

!TrEaSoN!

2006-04-04T13:28:00.000+08:00

I think every1's pretty exhausted, physically, mentally, spiritually.
However, if matters need to be clarified, we cannot sweep things under the carpet.
IF I haf stumbled some1 along the way, I will make sure the injustice I've done is corrected. I will not avoid the matter altogether.
Frustrated.
Everybody... I seriously wanna move on, but I'm not gng to do it @ the cost of others being left behind, hurt and condemned. Moreover, we run this race together. Pple, may we haf the discernment to see dat S.A. Tan is behind all these! Let us be deal w/ this situation as Christians shld. And lemme be v. frank here... every1 of us, including me, are in the wrong.
I appeal to all of u w/ Galatians 6:1-5.
'Brethren, if a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness, considering yourself lest you also be tempted. Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. For if anyone thinks himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. But let each one examine his own work, and then he will have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another. For each one shall bear his own load.'
Let's all trust God to take us through this. God is still good no matter wat.

Weather's been pretty bad these past few days, and ytd when I went out to meet up w/ the peepz, it rained thunder cats n' dogs! So much for my umbrella, which proved defective in the torential rain, and was drenched from head to toe once I reached my destination. Then again, the monsoon season gives me even more reason to slp more, but prob is my neighbour's dog has been barking more often the usual thnx to the gloomy weather. Hahaz.
If I'm not wrong, the last time I experienced such a powerful thunderstorm was 2 yrs back in sec. 4, when Bartley Secondary (then @ Macpherson Rd.), flooded, much due to the bad drainage, and my frens and I got 'capsized' @ the bus stop after trudging through water up to knee-length. FYI, we all thought that was totally cool. Thnx to a newspaper photographer who caught us standing on the bus stop seats to avoid the water, our backs actually appeared on The New Paper (the newspaper which I strongly detest) the nxt day. My class made such a big hoo-ha over the entire incident the nxt day. Well, so much for schooling in a gangster school.
May we all ask God to calm the storms in our lives at this pt. of time. With Christ in the vessel, truly we can smile at the storm!
Peace out & GB.

`§oUL§eaRcHin`

2006-03-23T12:02:00.000+08:00

Awesome!
Wat a 'prayer chalet' it was. I manage to meditate upon my soul for the past few days, and the peepz really got together, united in one body and one spirit to seek the face of God.
Hallelujah!
Kinda like the times of Acts, except we didn't spend 5 days in any upper room. Hahaz.
I realized dat thr is much to accomplish in my own spiritual life, after reflecting upon my soul these past few days. Moreover, it's not easy yearning to become more Christ-like, and by the grace of God, someday I'm gng to achieve it. I still cling on to some forms of worldliness; my character has DEFINITELY much to change.
If thr was only one thing I wanted to repent of, strongly, it was in the area of soul-winning. Personally, I felt dat I haf been slacking off in regards to reaching out to the ppl around me, and during prayer I totally broke down. Thinking abt my aunty, the backsliden ppl, and many of the unsaved frens dat I noe of, but haf yet to speak to them anything abt Jesus.
PTL! The Holy Spirit surprised us in the midst of all dat prayer, and I believe it's the first time I heard Weisheng pray w/ so much anointing. Although nothing was revealed to us, I believe it was strength dat was bestowed upon us, and a renewal of our commitment to the Great Comission, w/ the help of the Holy Ghost.
U may think it's pretty boring havin' a chalet w/ juz prayer and fellowship for over a course of 2 days.
On the contrary, it's always the best to haf nothing but communion w/ God and the frens who love the Lord. I've come to realize dat juz by experiencing it this once.
Glory be to God.
Ytd's G12: 6 ppl again. It's greater sign. More muz me done for the kingdom of God, esp. on my part. May we all haf a passion for God!
And I'll be travailing upon dat in prayer for as long as I can in the next few days.
*Still feeling fatigued*
Peace out & GB.

+The COST of Sanctification+ | .WAIT.

2006-03-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

Adapted from Oswald Chamber's My Utmost For His Highest.

February 8th.

"May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ." - 1 Thessalonians 5:23.

When we pray, asking God to sanctify us, are we preapred to measure up to what that really means? We take the word sanctification much too lightly. Are we prepapred to pay the cost for sanctification? The cost will be the deep restriction of our earthly concerns, and an extensive cultivation fo our godly concerns. Sanctification means to be intensely focused on God's point of view. It means to secure and to keep all the strength of our mind, body and soul, and spirit for God's purposes alone. Are we really prepared for God to perform in us everything which He separated us? And after he has done His work, are we then prepared to separate ourselves to God as Jesus did? " For their sakes I sanctify Myself..." (John 17:19). The reason some of us have not entered into the experience of santification is that we have not realized the meaning of sanctification form God's perspective. Sanctification means being made one with Jesus so that the nature that controlled Him will control us. Are we really preapred for what that will cost? It will cost absolutely everything in us which is not of God.
Are we prepared to be caught up into the full meaning of Paul's prayer in this verse? Are we prepapred to say, "Lord, make me, a sinner saved by grace, as holy as You can"? Jesus prayed that we might be one with Him, just as He is one with the Father (see John 17:21-23). The resounding evidence of the Holy Spirit in a person's life is the unmistakable family likeness to Jesus Christ, and the freedom from everything which is not like Him. Are we prepared to set ourselves apart for the Holy Spirit's work in us?

.WAIT.

2006-03-20T10:36:00.000+08:00

It can get a little irritating when the ans u receive upon asking for smthing is the 4 letter wds, W-A-I-T.
Now I'm not implying some foul language mind u.
It's pretty easy to say, "I'll do watever u ask, Jesus. Anything for my Lord and Saviour." It's gd to haf dat attitude and not merely lip service. And when the Holy Spirit ministers this wd, we often find this unction the most difficult adverb to bring to pass. Juz one wd, yet in man's fallen nature, we get so hard-up against it. We get peer-pressure from every direction, distractions and hinderances dat will try to throw us off track.
However, I've learnt dat the greatest reward comes from waiting upon the Lord, and not upon anything, or anyone else. I'll always rmb the verse dat gives me strength to wait upon God's will on my life: " but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. "(Isaiah 40:31). Maybe it could be the desire to change, or a job opportunity. It could be a relationship, or a enemity. Watever it is, I'm sure God has asked u to WAIT upon Him in one way or another.
Haf u learnt to wait upon the Lord?
Thnk God for Pastor Marion's sermon ytd on "Debt Free". Wat I've been praying abt is dat God will teach His pple to learn to be separate from the world. I could say my prayers were 1/2 ans'd. Still, it gave me a wake-up call as well, reminding me dat no matter how much I wanna march towards holiness and perfection, to become more Christ-like, I still haf many areas in my life I haf to be delivered from, which means stopping for a while, and taking a gd look @ myself. Small-gods, like the computer, even listening to Christian music, still ctrl me. Nth wrong in using the com., or listening to Christian music itself. However, if it starts ctrlling ur life, instead of God, then it is wrong. As Pastor Marion quipped: "Even the spiritual things can become our gods!" How true!
By the grace of God, I can gladly say dat in recent wks I've learnt dat spending time in God's presence is the most invaluable thing we can ever haf on a daily basis, juz sitting @ His feet, waiting upon Him, cutting dwn on @ least my com usage. My iPod has gone haywire, thought I can still listen to it now and den.
If u haven't done it, sitting int he presenc eof God, juz admiring Him, DO DO IT! Hahaz.
This will be my last post b4 heading dwn to the Aloha chalet. I believe it's our own special revival camp, if u could put it in such a way. No barbecue, no theme parks, juz purely waiting upon the Holy Spirit to fill us. It's gonna be so jam-packed! Oh yeah! Oooooo...
Pardon my exuberance.
I'll juz leave ya'll w/ the above devotion. It's a follow-up on wat Pastor Marion preached ytd. Hope it blesses ya'll.
Rmb, nth beats waiting upon the Lord. Ask God for the patience and the determination, through the Holy Spirit, to carry u through. Not gonna be easy, but great will be the reward. I haf so many other examples. Juz lack the time to do. Hahaz.
Take it from me. I noe smtimes I'm unreliable (yeah... I noe... and BLUR too), but let Isaiah 40:31 speak for itself.
Peace out and GB.

||...The GREAT Business of Life...|| - ParT ThRee

2006-03-15T17:36:00.000+08:00

By Charles G. Finney
Edited for the modern reader by L.G. Parkhurst Jr./Paraphrased by Samuel Toh.

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." - Matthew 6:33

The Meaning of The Promise

We must now seriously consider the meaning of the promise: "And all these things shall be added unto you." Observe in the connection of our text, Jesus Christ is speaking of worldly things. He tells us not to give any anxiety about these things at all, but to let our anxieties be respecting the kingdom of God and His righteousness. Then, all these worldly things of which He is speaking shall be added unto us. The word, "added" here means thrown in, something super-added.
Now, Christ says: it is perfectly unnecessary that we should be anxious about worldly things, because, if we seek first "the kingdom of God and His righteousness," He will see that we are fully supplied with what we need in relation to our bodies. Let the great business of our lives be spiritual concerns, and He will take care that we shall not want in relation to temporal matters.
From what has been said, it is plain that we can all very well afford to obey God in this respect; for, He will take care of our temporal wants, if we will only pay supreme attention to our souls. We can very well afford to obey God thoroughly. You see, He has not placed us in such a position that we must starve to death if we seek the salvation of our souls, that our families must starve or our fellow-creatures must suffer or that the ruin of our temporal concerns must necessarily be the result of our determination to attend to the cause of Christ. How infinitely kind of God to give us the assurance that He will take this stumbling-block out of our way, if we will but attend first to the salvation of our souls, and make faith in Jesus Christ and the glory of God the objects of our supreme regard. He very kindly says, "If you will take care of your souls, I will take care of your bodies. You have an immortal soul to be saved, let My kingdom be set up in your hearts, seek your own salvation, work it out with fear and trembling, and don't be anxious about your body, for I will take care of that."
I have become acquainted with many interesting facts that illustrate the care of God for the temporal interests of His devoted servants--those who came right up to obeying the require- ment. I have known, too, many instances in which persons have said that they could not attend to the cause of Christ without ruining their worldly prospects. A barber, who had been in the habit of cutting hair on the Sabbath day, became awakened, and began to reflect upon his sins, and felt the importance of attending to his soul. He was in a difficulty. Many of his customers were ungodly men, who always came for haircuts on a Sunday. He did not see, therefore, how he could close his shop on that day. Yet, how could he be a Christian and not close on the Sabbath? He spoke to his customers, and the great mass of them said, "If you shut up your shop on the Sabbath, we must employ someone else." However, he made up his mind to starve to death rather than disobey God. He resolved to tell his customers that his shop would in the future be closed on Sunday. When he had fully resolved upon this, some of them asked if he would cut their hair on Saturday night. "Oh! yes, till midnight," he replied. And this he did. He cut hair till midnight on Satur- day, but resolutely closed on the Sabbath. I saw him some years later, and I asked him, "How do you get along?" "Why sir," he replied, "my business has been better than ever; a great deal better."
Proper attention to business is really attention to follow- ing Jesus Christ. If you make your business God's business, transact it on right principles, and get your heart into a right state, so that you do everything from Christian motives, why, your business is then as much a part of the kingdom of God as praying and going to church.
God's promise here is designed to leave people entirely without excuse for neglecting to attend to their eternal salva- tion. Many reverse God's order in point of time, and instead of putting loyalty to Christ first, put it last. The first place is given to the world, the attention is wholly given up to the pursuit of wealth.
And then there are many persons who not only reverse God's order in point of time, but there are multitudes who reverse God's order in point of the importance of it. How remarkable that many persons should think themselves religious people, while they really place more practical stress upon the most trifling things around them than upon the great questions of salvation and disobeying God. Instead of making their Christian faith the greatest and most important practical business, they make it the least important. The persons I am speaking of do not utterly neglect it, but they so attend to it that everybody knows that they care very little about it, and do not rest upon it. Those who do not make the kingdom of God their great business, tempt God. Multitudes of souls are lost by tempting God in this way. They are living worldly, selfish, and ungodly lives, and yet they try to make themselves believe and the world believe that they are going to heaven in spite of what God has said to the con- trary. They live in disobedience to God, but profess to be Christians, and it is proclaimed that they died in the faith, and people charitably hope that they are gone to heaven.
It was Dr. Doddridge, I think, who so extensively investi- gated the results of death-bed "conversions." Of two thousand persons who supposed themselves to be dying and who expressed their faith in Christ, only two afterwards gave evidence of true conversion.
Don't rely upon death-bed repentance. "Seek first the kingdom of God." If you will not do this, you may never be saved at all.
Once more, many seem to say, "I don't care how many sins I commit, if I can only get to heaven." They go as far as they think they can go in serving the devil and dishonoring God. But let me tell you, if you put God's arrangements out of order, the probability is that your soul will be lost. God says, "Put Jesus Christ and His kingdom first." You say, "Not so, Lord, let it be put last. I must attend to everything else first." Do let me ask, "Is it not in your best interests to seek it first?" If for that reason alone, why do you not seek the kingdom of God and His righteousness first?
In conclusion, let me ask you one question: "Will you decide now to seek this kingdom first, that it may be set up in your heart? Will you pray for this? Will you make it your business to pray? Will you begin now? Now that the Lord says, "Seek ye my face," does your heart reply, "Thy face, Lord, will I seek"? If you delay, your soul may be ruined--lost for ever!

^Seeking^the^Face^of^God^

2006-03-11T13:49:00.000+08:00

I find education a SNARE! Shld haf considered dat long ago.
Studio Project's finally over... by my soul was neglected.
I've juz gotten out of my prayer closet, and oh how God dealt with my spirit. So many things to yield to him, and yet so difficult to commit to prayer. I can't stand it! How Studio Project has stolen my time away from God!
Thank God His voice isn't a voice of condemnation.
I rmb wat Josh once told me abt Keith Green, and I was reminded abt it today while we were walking to sch today.
This happened after Green was saved, and one day he woke up, feeling somehow smth was not rite. Pent up with much unrest, he approached a church counsellor one day, and asked her wat was the root of the problem. After asking him a few qns, the counsellor came to a conclusion: "it's probably Satan planting lies in your heart." With that he reutrned home, sat down, and examined his heart. After much thought, he realised dat it wasn't Satan, but his heart, dat was the problem. He had not made his heart rite with God yet! So he told Melody(his wife), the following morning, dat he would stay in his room. "I will not get out of my room until I've given my heart to God," he said. "I don't care if I don't eat, sleep, or bathe @ all." He locked himself in the room for the whole day, and ultimately reconciled w/ God.
I'll be honest, this holiday will be the only chance I haf to get rite w/ God, if not, to get more intimate w/ Him. I pray dat every distraction will go, every malice, and every afterthought. This holiday, I resolve to get rite w/ God! Spend more time w/ Him, and really juz yield my spirit to him day after day. Guess tmr would be a great day to continue, since today God really showed me how much more I needed to sacrifice in order dat I may become more Christ-like, burning w/ a passion for God.
His grace is always sufficient enough
Well, Studio Project assesment today posed was quite an unexpected one. I was thinking my animation would get the shot @ for the terrible way I finsed it off, and dat they would compliment more on my poster and CD design. It came the other way round! They said my package identity was not consistent, but my animation was downright good! I haf this terrible gut feeling I'm heading to animation now... other than dat, it was pretty much ok. A lil' critique on my portfolio, and dat was it. Wat a relief! Finally, I could seek God on care of my soul.
Hahaz. Let God's will be done. If he wants me to enter the animation focus, so be it! Jeremiah 29:11; pray dat it will truly be His will dat is done.
Tmr is Evangelistic Wed for G12. Really hoping for ppl such as Alnin, Junlong, Xi Quan, Andy, Edmund and Enblin to be wooed in by the Holy Spirit. And no, I'm not teaching the lesson tmr hahaz. Will be asking God to anoint me in the songleading tmr instead. Gonna prepare the songsheet after this.
I'm praying dat God will really restore me during this wk. Will be praying for the gang as well, who will be preparing for the chalet, whr we'll be simply asking God to pour out His Spirit on us. Yes, it's juz gonna be abt total prayer. Nth but seeking the face of God. Pls do keep us in prayer, dat we'll truly see yet another Pentecost! Hallelujah!
"God, help me nvr to negelct my soul! Thank You for using Charles G. Finney to deliver such a timely msg on caring for the soul, and making it our no. 1 priority, even above soul-winning. For the most impt. thing is one's own soul. ' What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can man give in exchange for his soul?'(Matt 16:26) Help us not to do away w/ the need to seek Your face. Give us a broken and contrite spirit! May we uncover the sins we've been trying to sweep under the carpet all this while! May we always thirst for Your righteousness, would You, then, be able to continue filling us! Jesus, help us not to juz make a mere confession of you as The Messiah, but may we yearn daily to comprehend you, and more imptly, commit to you! Thank You for everything, Jesus! Thank You, God, for Your judgement, for one from You is good, holy and righteous! Let the Your rebuke drive us to our knees to repent, and may Your grace keep our souls in check. Juz wanna be ever so grateful to You, oh God, for everything. In Jesus' most wonderful name, I pray... Amen."
Peace out and GB!
GOD IS GOOD!

+.God Is So Good.+

2006-03-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

Once again, my title speaks for itself.
Many of my prayers were ans'd this wk, though I really need to keep watch over my spiritual self.
I recently went to visit my aunt who's in SGH receiving kemotherapy(wrong speeling?) for her colon cancer. Boy, I've nvr seen her in such a terrible state. She told us how trying it is for her to live out her days w/ this ailment; worst of all, they put her in a class C open ward, and when I went thr, the atmosphere was so depressing; thr were many other inpatients suffering, so much so dat I really pitied them. God did show me a glimmer of hope yet, cuz my aunt actually told me she wanted to accept Christ, but her heart wasn't ready to receive Him, cuz her mind had been so indoctrinated w/ Buddhist teachings dat it will take time for her to loose it.
Praise God.
Nevertheless, I've gotta be persistent in praying for her, and hope ya'll who haf been visiting my blog will oso keep her in ur prayers. God is Good.
God's grace nvr ceases to amaze me. I'm alrdy finishing my Studio Project 2 animation, and shld be able to start shooting it on Mon. Hopefully thr wil be enough conmputers for both me and my classmates to begin their captures as well. Btw, haf I ever told u how primitive our animation studio coms are? The DMDC has been using them for like 8 yrs and counting alrdy! Gosh! Hopefully when the new batch of students come in, they'll be more sensitive to perform some form of maintenance. It's not as if we didn't give them feedbback at all.
Last nite: Planet Safari. Rev. Ranwell Mwenisongole: came, saw, conquered by the anoinitng of the Holy Spirit. Such power-packed preaching, and it's really God's answer to our(prayer warriors) prayer, as he touched on God pouring out His spirit on all flesh, and on the Pentecost dat can happen even now! Hallelujah. Dat's wat we've always been travailing in prayer abt. Thank God, He is sending pple to minister, and tell the church to yearn more and more of the Holy Spirit!
I'm really challenged. We muz seek ye first the kingdom of God! Thank God thr's outreach today, cuz I cannot ta-han anymore. I muz win souls! I came to realize though, dat nothing muz replace seeking the face of God, not even soul-winning. Like the recent G12 lesson mentions: " When we want to haf a passion for the lost we muz first haf a passion for God." How true!
I'm learning more and more abt this as the days go by. I reached home late last nite cuz Josh brought me and Walt to celebrate Nicholas'(my ex-classmate) b'day, after the church event ended, w/ the intention of reaching out to him. End up, we played pool and Golf Mania (at White Tangerine Cafe) instead of speaking anyth abt Christ to him, although we did mention among ourselves the need to win-souls etc. I was alrdy telling Josh abt wat I felt I shld do, dat I was to go back home and seek God instead. Morevoer, I had to send my sister home. I dun think I even made a promise to be thr. I simply mentioned I can make it, if my parents allowed (which they did). Anyway, fact of the matter is I went home, took my Vit. C pills, and went to slp, cuz my eyes were really heavy. Waddaya noe, I woke up this morning w/ heaviness in my heart instead. Wow, the rebuke of the Lord is w/ such imapct! I knew I was wrong to haf gone for this outreach thing in the first place, and yet negelct God in the end.
Sometimes, I really wonder whom I truly fear: God or man himself.
"God, You are the Author and Finisher of my faith, not man! Help me to fear You! I haf set my heart to seek Your face like nvr b4. I'm only under Your spirtual authority, to which all other things are only helps. Thank you for Charles G. Finney, a man w/ a firey passion for the things of God. Thank you for speaking to me through his sermon. Though it's hard teaching, this IS sound doctrine. Help me to hide Your Word in my heart dat I may not sin against You, and make it marrow to my bones. Make it a part of my daily lifestyle, dat from the rising of the sun to it's going down, I will seek Your kingdom first. Thank You for answering my prayers, though sometimes I feel unworthy at all to receive any just reward. Then again, we are human, and not 100% of the time we'll be focused on You. It is by Your grace and mercies dat we live everyday under Your unction and love. Continue to sanctify this vessel of Yours, dat I may be under your authority, only your authority! In Jesus' name I pray... Amen."
Peace out and GB.

The GREAT Business of Life - ParT TwO.

2006-03-02T14:49:00.000+08:00

Juz wanna mention dat if u're visiting my blog, and esp. if u're a Christian, I really encourage u to read this topic. It's hard teaching, but if you say u truly love Jesus, this is sound doctrine, and endure it u must. Hope it blesses ya'll.
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By Charles G. Finney
Edited for the modern reader by L.G. Parkhurst, Jr./ Paraphrased by Samuel Toh.

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." - Matthew 6:33

God's Kingdom must be sought NOW!

The present is the only sure time that we have; therefore, we ought now to make this our immediate and first concern. The Bible always says now, "Today, if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts" (Hebrews 4:7). You may die, or if you do not die, you may be given up of the Holy Spirit!

Every moment's delay increases your sins, increases the hardness of your heart, and the probability that you will be lost. If you continue to reject the great salvation that is offered, you may soon come into such a state that the truth will cease to affect your minds and hearts at all; your conscience will become "seared as with a hot iron," and your words will constantly be, whenever the truth is spoken, "When I have a more convenient season I will call for thee." It is almost certain that that season will never come!

Procrastination is a great evil. Perhaps more souls have been lost by this form of iniquity than by any other. The devil is constantly suggesting reasons for delay. The ordinary policy of Satan is not to try to make infidels of you: he suggests that the present is not the time to attend to your souls--remember that if you listen to his suggestions, you may be LOST and are almost sure to be.

Unrepentant persons, and even religious persons, are con- stantly in danger from the fact that they are not feeling the unspeakable necessity of a present and solemn earnestness in seeking the kingdom of God and His righteousness. With respect to those who CLAIM to be CHRISTIANS, unless you make the kingdom of God the great business of your life, YOU ARE THE CAUSE OF STUMBLING THOSE AROUND YOU, and misleading them in the most effectual manner. You are saying by your works, "There is no need to make this the great and solemn business of your life. There is no necessity to be particularly anxious about your soul."

I suppose you intend sometime to make this the most serious business of your life. Let it, then, be your first business from this time forth, or you may LOSE YOUR SOUL.

I have known many cases where people have come to see clearly that they were likely to lose their souls unless they began immediately to obey God by seeking His kingdom first. In revivals of religion, I have seen many instances where persons have come to feel that if they procrastinated any further they must lose their souls and have resolved that nothing should hinder them, that nothing should engross their attention or stand in the way of giving their whole mind up to attend to it. I could tell multitudes of facts where people became conscious of this, when the providence of God aroused them from their sleepy state and arrested their attention. In such cases, they have made up their minds that nothing should, by any means, stand in their way--nothing should by any means be allowed to hinder them from making faith in Jesus Christ the great business of life. I shall mention one fact.

A lawyer, a man of large business in his profession, had been awakened in a revival. He went to his office, and when he reached his office, some individuals, to whom he had promised his assistance, called upon important business. "Gentlemen," said he, "I cannot attend to your business now, I must first attend to my soul. I have neglected this business so long already that if I allow myself to neglect it any longer, I shall lose my soul to all eternity. Will you excuse me for the present, or get someone else to attend to your business?" They left the office and took the papers with them. He stayed alone in the office, resolving that he would not leave till he had given his heart to God. And the fact is he did give his heart to God and found peace.

My dear reader, what an awful game you have been playing with yourself, if you have been neglecting the business which God sent you into this world to attend to. He made it your great, solemn, and only business.

Have you neglected it?

The care of your soul is your ONLY business, to which all other things are only helps. And are you attending to this great business, or are you neglecting it and thus on the road to ruin? (Maybe some of you are alrdy finished, and DUN EVEN KNOW IT). God is speaking to you by His Word, by His Spirit, and by His ministers, saying, "SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD AND HIS RIGHTEOUS-NESS" This is the errand upon which God has sent you into the world, and have you allowed yourself to neglect it? Did your Father commit a soul to you, and tell you to take care of it? And are you running about thinking of everything(i.e. stuides, CCA, career, shopping, Disneyland etc.) but taking care of it and by so doing DISOBEYING your Father and ruining yourselves?

I DARE SAY YOU'VE BEEN ACTING FOOLISHLY AND WICKEDLY! RESOLVE NOW AND PROCRASTINATE NO LONGER! REPENT, FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS AT HAND!

For a person to act thus on any other subject, he would be pronounced insane. And it is moral insanity which makes people neglect the business of their eternal salvation: it is madness in the heart. Suppose a man should neglect the most important part of his worldly business, the neglect of which would ruin all his worldly prospects, why everybody would say he was insane. Who can doubt this? Now, what higher evidence can a person give of insanity if he admits his guilt and danger in words and yet systematically neglects to save himself from ruin by his actions? If a person should deny the whole matter and say there was no truth in the statement, "that he is in danger by his neglect," what higher evidence could he give of being insane? LET ANYONE TELL HIM, HONESTLY, IF HE CAN!

--cricket-post--

2006-02-27T02:07:00.000+08:00

It's 2.05 a.m. in the morning alrdy... and wha... o yeah...
I was busily creating a CD-cover using Maya 7 juz a while ago, now chowing down on some fruit crunch. So much for a nite-snack.
Hopefully my parents r sound aslp @ this pt... hehz.
Ok 2day's svc didn't really haf a sermon behind it, but it was kinda like a presentation from JECPP(Jireh Evangel Church Planting in Philippines) pple to encourage us for missions once again. Yeah, some feel it's a nag, but how necessary it is to be constantly reminded abt it. Isn't God our Heavenly Father after all? And fathers do nag. Hahaz. It's great to see though wat an amazing work God has done through our church (I was greatly challenged by the testimony of the empty jail cells of Rev. Rosemarie), and all glory be to God; and I'm sure Pastor Lim's very grateful abt it, since he has sacrificed so much to God so as to see this explosion of evagelism throughout the land, despite much social unrest stirring in the country.
PTL! 500 churches by 2010!
Seriously, it's time to get my butt off the laurels and start doin' some serious outreach. Dwindling attendance of the G12 ever since the day several of the members backslided has really gotten on my nerves. I'm believing Devon's contacts, Alnin, Junlong, and Xi Quan will be able to make it this Wed, esp. since I'm gng to start fasting much longer from tmr onwards.
'God, I'M ASKING YOU FOR A MIRACLE!"
Ok, I musn't give in to my flesh, but 2day was really, physically exhausting for me as I had to do so many things and neglected seeking the face of God. Hope ya'll haf read the recent post, and I myself am greatly challenged. Dun keep looking @ me like some self-righteous guy. I nail it hard, but I'm still human and I'm prone to falls. It's God who nvr fails to pick me up time and again when dat happens.
Thank God for the speedy recovery of Hwee Min who's now back on her feet (no pun intended). Pls continue to pray for my aunty, Jennifer's(my cousin, dat is) mum, dat her colon cancer will really be healed completely and dat the Holy Spirit will really minister to her to accept Christ.
Juz fins my cereal, and last song of the day's Heaven by Salvador... yeah, u noe... the song that keeps askin: "How far is heaven?" Gosh!
I'm really juz gibberishing - if thr's such a term.
Off the internet radio... off to shower... off to prayer closet (none other than my bedroom)... off to cloud 9.
Peace out & GB.

||...The GREAT Business of Life...|| - ParT oNe

2006-02-25T17:30:00.000+08:00

By Charles G. Finney
Edited for the modern reader by L.G. Parkhurst, Jr. Paraphrased by Samuel Toh.

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you" - Matthew 6:33.

Introduction

What does the Kingdom of God and His righteousness mean? I remark first that this kingdom is not an outward and visible kingdom. As Jesus said, the true kingdom of God "cometh not with observation" (Luke 17:20). It is a spiritual kingdom set up in the hearts of His people. It consists in the establishment of His own dominion in their hearts. "The kingdom of God is within you," but this kingdom is expressed on earth by an outward and visible Church (Luke 17:21). Yet, the kingdom here intended is not a visible church, but an internal and spiritual kingdom.

By "the righteousness of God," we understand these two things: first, the method by which He pardons and justifies us, and second, the way in which He makes us personally holy. Faith in Jesus Christ is God's method of justifying us and bringing us into a state of acceptance with himself. Faith in Jesus Christ is God's method of making us personally holy. Faith in Jesus Christ works by love; and this faith, by its very nature, puri- fies the heart.

The injunction "seek ye first" means at least three things. First, seeking God's kingdom and righteousness must be our first business in point of time: we must allow nothing else to take precedence before it. Second, we must regard nothing as of greater importance, or of equal importance, than seeking God's kingdom. Third, "seek ye first" implies that Christianity is to be the great business of our future life. The Christian faith is always to be considered as of the first importance to be attended to, and to be the first concern of life.

God's Kingdom Must Be Sought First

Until we seek first God's kingdom and His righteousness, nothing else we do can be acceptable to God. As long as we neglect this great salvation, as long as we have not secured our justification by faith in Christ, as long as we are not interest- ed in the kingdom of God by actually embracing it and receiving its laws into our heart, we can do nothing acceptable to God. Until we have done this, we cannot fulfill any requirement of God and He cannot accept anything else we do--for "whatever is not of faith is sin" (Romans 14:23). Whatever does not imply faith in us is sin; therefore, if we neglect salvation in Christ as of primary importance, nothing that we do can be acceptable to God.

People may have all the outward forms of morality and goodness, but if they have neglected the kingdom of God and His righteousness, whatever else they do, God will not accept them. He will not and cannot accept us if we are putting last what He has put first, and that first which He has put last.

If we secure an interest in the kingdom of God, if we become subjects of His government, whatever else we fail to secure is unimportant. Whatever else we fail to secure we shall hardly regret in the future. But if we do not secure this, whatever else we secure will only increase our responsibility and our guilt. People ought to understand this: nothing is of any real importance to us unless it is connected with God's kingdom, and shall enable us to obey more effectually His command.

Now, if we regard anything as more important than our relationship with God in His kingdom, we entirely pervert things. God's kingdom is most important to ourselves and to our families; most important to all who stand in any relation to us and have any claims upon us. The real and best interests of his family require that he should pay his first and chief attention to this great re- quirement of God. By neglecting to put Christ first and make Christian faith his first duty, who can tell how much the family may have to suffer from his negligence? Putting God's kingdom first is most important to a person's creditors. If a man owes me money, and that man tries to obey and please God, I have reason to believe that he will be enabled to pay me sooner than if he did not regard the commands of God at all. Therefore, even if I were a selfish man, I should say to my debtor, "Whatever else you do, don't neglect to obey God--don't neglect your duty to Him." Putting God's righteousness first is important to our neighbors, friends, connections, the world at large, the Church of God, and all with whom we are surrounded. Who can doubt this? No person can doubt it, who believes in the reality of the Christian faith!

It is extremely dangerous to neglect this business and concern. It is more dangerous to neglect this than anything else. Why, suppose we did neglect everything else, what then? Why, it would be an evil in some sense, but, in comparison, it would be no evil at all. Who does not believe that it is infi- nitely dangerous for a man to neglect his eternal salvation? And if he does not assign this the first place, he may never attend to it at all. He is in danger every moment of dying or being given up by the Spirit of Christ! Suppose he should gain the whole world and lose his own soul, of what value would the whole world be to him? All other dangers are as nothing in comparison with this! If we will neglect the kingdom of God and His righteousness, we must inevitably lose our souls. "How shall we escape," says the apostle, "if we neglect so great salvation?" (Hebrews 2:3). Let them be good wives, good husbands, good parents, good children, good citizens, say prayers, go to meeting, and give money to send the Gospel to the heathen. Let them do anything else in the world but what God requires as of first importance, and they are sure to lose their souls.

People make a great mistake on this subject, or else the Bible is not true. They make a great mistake on this subject, or else our own natures contradict us. Our own natures affirm that sin is an evil from which we ought to escape; and the Bible tells us to run for our lives, to "so run that ye may obtain," to "so fight that ye may obtain," to "gird up your loins,".

Sadly, The great mass of those who claim to be Christians are not making this the great business of their lives! It seems as if they attended to it just enough to entertain a hope that they shall be saved, but they never attend to it in such a sense as to manifest much solemn earnestness about it. The fact is, such people know nothing at all of Jesus Christ, and the natural result will be that they will lose their souls! They never get rid of their sins, they never become sanctified, and they are not fit for heaven. Really, many persons seem to suppose that they can live in sin till death, and then all at once they will become sanctified and prepared for heaven. Now, we never read in the Bible that, death will sanctify us or that we will go to heaven if we are not sanctified in this world by the renewing of the Holy Spirit through our belief in the Gospel! Many who claim to have gospel faith, "the kingdom of God and His righteousness," understand it very little. They regard the righteousness of God as imputed(bestowed), not imparted(worked for), righteousness. They imagine that somehow or other the righteousness of Christ can be accounted to them without their being personally holy. God's government has no dominion over them! How, then, do they expect to get to heaven? What can they understand by the kingdom of God and His righteous- ness; which they are required to make it the business of their lives to seek?

Nothing is to take prece- dence over this. When one said to Jesus, "Let me first go and bury my father," he said to him, "Let the dead bury their dead" (Matthew 8:22). Your own father, and the duties you owe to him in that relation, must not stand in the way of your seeking eternal life.

"Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteous- ness:" NOTHING should be allowed to have precedence over this.

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Peace out & GB. (Hope it wasn't too wordy for ya'll).

!WAT GREAT DISTRESS!

2006-02-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

I juz managed to upload a DC Talk music video (which was featured last nite @ HOF) despite the great stress dat's upon me to fins my animation for SP2!
Hahaz.
I was half expecting lots of stress comin' from dat direction, but more of the hot soup actually came from the fact dat this wk posed many setbacks in the spiritual life for many of my Christian bros' and sis'. The attack of the enemy is upon us for sure.
Hweemin's sudden relapse of a age old injury (pls pray for her); Wei Hoong backsliden... again; Charlotte's poor results; the folly of many who want to pls their flesh but return stricken down in many ways.
Devon, Josh and I haf nvr been so broken b4 @ the sight of such torment, which was why the Lord, impressed upon my heart subtly on Tuesday, to actually head dwn to prayer w/ Devon @ Aunty Candy's place. I wasn't intending to go, but somehow he was all alone to pray dat late afternoon! I was quite astounded - God actually lead me thr to pray w/ him!
Nevertheless, we've decided to fight the gd fight. Frankly speaking, I dun care how many Christians are trying to pls their flesh, time and again, and r indulging more and more of the world. All I can do is warn them. Jesus ain't gng to wait until u're not on a vacation, not playin' video games, not watching TV etc. to return. He says he's gng to come like a thief! So while all others can juz do wat they want, I'm gng to seek God like nvr b4, if it's the only thing I do.
Bros' and sis' in Christ, if u're not hated strongly by the world in one way or another, smth is terribly wrong. They will hate us, becuz they hated Jesus 1st, and hung him on the cross w/o remorse!
Rmb... frenship w/ the world is enemity w/ God.
I feel a great urgency to post this following sermon up, and it will be in prts as I do my various posts throughout the month w/ bite-sized chunks so I can really get the msg across. Btw, really thank Devon for this timely msg, as it applies to me as well, esp. w/ all dat the enemy's coming like a flood. Hope it will bless ya'll.
And SP2 continues...
Peace out & GB.

‡Cultist‡?

2006-02-21T11:25:00.000+08:00

Honestly speaking, I was too harsh in the previous post.
My recent hearings of a sermon on cultist pple really got me to reflect if I'm really speaking abt God's righteousness or mine.
The thing is... I almost crossed the line of discrediting God from His due glory.
I feel the need to clarify this and ask for ur forgiveness; if any1 has, as a result of this, been truly stumbled, I apologize. Like wat Paul has mentioned in 2 Cor. 13:10, I've been given the authority of building pple up, not tearing them down.
Pls warn me the nxt time I do approach the edge of the cliff of falling over into being occult myself. If not for God' grace, I'd probably continue rapping in this manner.

Now whr do I begin?
Sunday svc was great. World Missions: it doesn't cease until WE cease. Hahaz, that's probably the only pt. I can take home w/ me dat day. I'm glad dat wat our church is doin is fueling mission work in various countries, but Pastor Marion did bring out dat although one day the giving will come to an end, our mission to evangelise and impact is continual. I really think dat in the past few days, the emphasis the church has placed on soul-winning is gd. We not need a revival in dat area. I think it couldn't be expressed any more vivdly like wat our current series, Unashamed, has done, and thank God for Pastor Dale's foresight, and his recent sermon on finding and feeding sheep.
Reminds me of a scripture Devon pointed out to me last yr. while I was still fresh in ministry: 'The lazy man does not roast his game, but the diligent man prizes his possessions.' (Proverbs 12:27).
Ytd was the 1st round of Studio Project II, but it's kicked off on a rather slacked note. I discovered smth more threatening than dat. I'm starting to believe the enemy is rising up w/ all hell to combat my faith. Maybe it's God's judgement upon me for being self-righteous? Hahaz. However, as I face spiritual warfare, I'm always reminded of wat James said in James 1:2, dat we shld consider all trials and tribulations as pure joy, as the testing of faith will make us perfect, not lacking in anyth. I oso like to view it as God' preparation for me heavenward.
My personal devotion ytd for me gave me rhema abt smth God was to impress upon my heart to do, and comes from Judges 1-2. It was after the death of a great leader, Joshua, who lead Israel to drive out all the Canaanites, and the pple of Israel were asked to claim the rest of the land dat were still inhabitated by the remaining pagans. However, they failed to do so, instead forcing some of them into labour as the Israelites grew stronger. God wasn't plsed, having commanded them to drive out ALL of them, and as a result wat Moses warned abt came to pass: they became thorns in the eyes of the Israelites, leading them astray and causing their hearts to turn away from God. They were oppressed for many yrs. to come until the reign of King Saul was inducted.
Now how many of us are still suppressing our past flesh desires (like the Israelites suppressing the Canaanites through forced labour to them), instead of driving them out completely, as the Lord haf commanded? Let's ask the Holy Spirit to search our hearts (dat means mine as well), and check if thr's anyth dat's still left us dat sets God's hand against us, causing us to be oppressed. Some of you may alrdy be experiencing the wrath of God as result of not driving out completely all things dat are evil in his sight dat still reside in your heart, even the slightest of the worldly desires. I noe I haf some. Wateva it is, Let go, Let God, Let's Go! Drive out the Canaanites in ur heart, and ask God for the strength, cuz it was God dat gave Israel the strength to accomplish their many victories over them.
Hope this post has blessed you.
"O Lord, search our hearts, and weed out every worldly, fleshly desire dat clings onto it. Help us to drive out every indignation, even the slightest one, out of the land of which u've given us rest - dat's in our hearts. On dat v. day when we've accepted You as our Lord and Saviour, Your peace has since settled in thr. Help us, thus, to do battle w/ the evil dat's in our hearts, so we can truly find the rest of which You've promised us. Prod us in action, and help us not to linger arnd. Even if it's difficult, God we will ask You for strength, and surely when we thirst for righteousness, you will fill us (Matt 5:6)! In Jesus' name I pray... Amen!"
Studio Project continues w/ it's 2nd day today, and so does fasting (8th Day).
Peace out GB!

+'Epistolic' Faith+

2006-02-18T11:43:00.000+08:00

I mean it literally. I've to get it off my chest if not day and nite it'll be buggin' me!
Lemme repent 1st of my sins, even of that 5% which is evil.
... ...
From now on, I'm either gng to be personal or I'm gng to be epistolic (1st Cor 13:10). Why?
I'll tell u why (my personal reasons)... and may God be a witness to this.
Through the many times I've tried to turn pple away from their sin, all I get reciprocated w/ is, "I feel stumbled...", "Dun tell me wat to do...", "Wat makes u think U'RE any better...", "Aren't u being too POSSESIVE?" Even when I'm I approach the situation amicably, this is wat I get back. It's a like tight slap in the face sometimes. It's like I've laboured in vain (but I noe my reawrd is w/ God).
Listen... I've not been called to baptize, but to preach the gospel (1 Cor 1:17). Why shld I let pple who haf heard the gospel more than once hear it over and over again, when thr are pple who haven't even heard it once?! I'm gng to leave the role of sanctification to the Holy Spirit. Then again... how can u get baptised by the Holy Spirit (and I'm speaking to those who are living like He's NEVER comin, and yet keep asking us to pray for the baptism of the Holy Spirit to fall upon u... u noe who u are), if ya'll are living like the world lives? Living in apathy toward, and i dare say, in enemnity w/, God (James 4:4)?
'Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.' (Matt 7:21)
I love my bros' and sis' in Christ, even if u wanna pursue your FLESH, and feed it constantly. Even if I've to force myself to do it, I will. If I dun haf love, I'm nothing and ya'll shldnt hear me (1 Cor 13:1-3). In fact, u shld close ur browser immediately if u fell wat I'm saying is not of love.
Btw, I'm saying this out of love, not out of condemnation... cuz some of u see it as the latter.
I was once @ the place of apathy too, I admit. Even @ dat pt. of time when I was reaching out to Josh, I lived like 1 of the heathen. It was not until I got inducted into ministry, heard of David Wilkerson's 'Great Final Separation', and attended the CGI International conference was I absolutely convicted. God is still convicting, cuz its not as if I nvr sin, but I noe I keep my eyes on the prize which God has called me heavenward in Christ, whether through His chastisement or not... and Thnk God for his chasetisement, becuz He only disciplines those He loves(Prov. 3:12).
The thing is some of u haf heard the conviction of the Holy Spirit repeatedly to separate urselves, yet u shun.
I'm a spiritual Nazarithe, and still learning. Yes, I do go crazy @ times, but I keep myself in check, to 'walk circumspectly, not as fools...'(Eph 5:15), like last nite while I was on the MRT (those who were thr shld noe it).
Btw, thnk ya'll(Josh, Wen Yi, Weisheng, Walter, Charlotte, Dixon, Devon, Aunty Candy and Jenn, Ken, Alan, Karen, Jia Min) so much for the mini-celebration last nite... really appreciate it.
As such, the nxt time I wanna tell ya'll pple, I will either address it here, or personally face-to-face. I'll try not to address it here, since of of u may start labelling me otherwise.
I'm 18. Gd ol' 18. I've officially reached my prime, and I hope it'll be gd to glorify God.
Thnk ya'll for ur presents (once again Josh, Devon, Wen Yi, Jia Min, Jovin, Aunty Candy), greetings, celebrations (i.e. through G12, after HOF, family) etc. I will really rmb this yr's b'day as being one of the best so far.
5th day of fasting after gorging on so much fd last nite... heh hehz... even after the celebration. God gimme strength. Motivated to fast for: family, ailing aunty, G12, Yishun community.
Peace out & GB!

---^mY VaLenTInE^---

2006-02-13T15:33:00.000+08:00

Come tmr will be Valentine's Day... and thank God I can spend it w/ some1.
No, it's not.
I noe probably thought smthing like, 'yeah this guy's probably one of the few dat's gonna haf a gd time w/ a gd date tmr nite.' I'm talking abt spending time w/ God!
Yes, Him. Cuz I'm part of the bride of Christ... Hahaz. And He's comin' back soon.
PTL! God IS love.
Recent Sat was the SPB finals, and I played like nvr b4. Shouted like nvr b4! Hahaz... but felt dat I could haf performed better. Anyway, I prayed for God' will to be done, and although thr were @ times during the match I bit my nails (it was a close fight), we eventually won. Hallejuah! Blue Marlins did put up a gd fight, I muz say. Three cheers for them! Went home for dinner w/ my family, and decided to head dwn to SSC (as usual). Along the way, Esther felt totally giddy much thanks to her recent recovery from fever and a persisting throat infection. Prayed for her and really asked God to gif me total faith for her healing. I didn't receive dat total faith, but He did heal her (of her giddiness) eventually when dinner was served. Spent time doin' my Storyboarding sketchbk in the cozy library (wat a relaxing time it was), b4 learning my mum had gastric pain, the ones which I used to get. Prayed for healing once again, and when we drove home, again the Lord manifested, and she was healed!
So many victories in juz one day! Glory be to God foreva & eva!
I was excited for Sunday's svc, and although the sermon ministered smth abt purpose in the body of Christ, it didn't really speak to me. However, I believe God was reminding me of how ea. and every single one of us ought to play our part in the body of Christ, and MAXIMISE OUR POTENTIAL in serving Him in where He has placed us. Even as church members w/o a ministry, we've all been called to support the church in anyway we can. I really got me down to reviewing how much attention I've payed to my G12 follow up in recent wks. Time to get dwn to communing more w/ my members.
O, b4 I forget... Wei Hoong's finally returned to Christ! Hahaz. Thank God for the Holy Spirit's conviction upon him in drawing him back. Will continue to work in bringing back other backsliden pple to Hougang 5.
God gave me some powerful Rhema ytd, after I left for home, while the others went to discuss abt worldliness dat's plaguing our frens. I refered to (in order of how the Spirit led me) Gal 6, 1 Cor 2:14-16, and 2 Cor 13. I think these verses speak a lot abt being a watchman, and why some can be so still so involved in worldly activities despite the frequent warnings to abstain. If you dun understand wat I'm sayin', I encourage ya'll to scrutinize every wd dats in these scriptures, and not juz merely read through em'. Let the Word of God speak for itself.
Now I noe some of ya'll haf been driven by circumstances, and some even more so after the recent release of the O' Lvl results, and you say u juz can't take it anymore, and fall back into heathen activities. God has not passed you by.
Carter Conlon - 'Getting to the Other Side of Your Storm'.
'Lord, I come to you in prayer to ask for your enlightenment on your pple. You grieve when You see Your sons and daughters turn away from You, shun You, and instead of turning to You for comfort, turn to the world and it's pleasures. You noe well O Lord, dat as Christians are not to be driven by circumstances. We are Your children, and we noe the only source we can ever get permanent, everlasting peace, is from You and You alone. Help us to submit our will, our plans, our everything unto; to deny ourselves and take up the cross - the bloodstained cross! Your Word says: 'How shall we escape if we neglect so great salvation?'(Heb 2:3). Restore unto every1 of us the joy of thy salvation! Help your children to see dat the only way they can EVER get to the other side of the storm is by relying on You and You alone. As much as their sins haf been crucified on the cross, help them to crucify their flesh and desires as well(Gal5:24). They will not tell the storm how big it is, but they'll the storm how big their God is. Help them to commit everything unto you in thanksgiving, you will give them 'the peace dat passes all understanding'(Phil 4:6). God, I Thank You for the demonstration of Thy Spirit and Thy Power during these past few days in my life. Now let the same thing happen to your ppl, dat they may see dat thr's no other name like the name of Jesus in all of the earth! In Christ's name I pray... Amen.'
It is impossible to overcome your storms by relying on man, becuz they are bound to fail you!
Why not juz trust in the Lord Almighty?
God bless those who will be dating tmr. To my bros and sis in Christ, may you rmb your first love, which is Jesus himself.
Peace out & GB.

[Charmaine] - Acceptable//[Todd Smith] - So Much Greater

2006-02-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

Two songs dat haf really ministered to me tonite while listening to Christian radio.
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Charmaine - Acceptable

Oh Lord, my God
My Strength, My Redeemer
King of kings and Lord of lords
Hear my voice don’t turn away
Oh Lord I pray

Let the words of my mouth
And the things of my heart
Be Acceptable, Acceptable

Let the words of my mouth
And the things of my heart
Be Acceptable, Acceptable to You

Lord I want to know Your ways
Show me the path that I must take
Oh God I pray
Cleanse my soul and make me new
Lord I want to live for You
In all that I do

Todd Smith - So Much Greater

You won't find freedom living in the rules
Walking around in dead man's bones.
You lead the choir,
but are you singing to yourself?

Chorus:
Feel the fire in your heart.
(It's all inside you.)
Feel the mercy in your soul.
(It will lead to)
A life that's so much greater,
(step outside yourself)
A life that's so much greater.

You're quick to judge the world
when something's wrong
But there's no justice in your life.
You lay the blame, but will you lay it on the line?

(Chorus)

It's all inside you, and if you needed to
Just step outside, just step outside
Just step outside yourself.

(Chorus)
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Peace out & GB.

~Reminisce~

2006-02-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

I'll haf to make this post a short one cuz I'm abt to rush off for HOF. Spent abt an entire morning worrying abt my animation, but God is gd, helping me to finish the last of my 'Walk Cycle' drawings b4 accompanying Josh to visit my sch's SBM(School of Buisness Management). Pls pray for him as he'll be switching course, and dat God will gif him wisdom in choosing, cuz he's got many options open to him now.
Demonic attacks... now dats smth we dun see everyday, but it happens on a daily basis in the 4th Dimension. S.A. Tan's demons r having a lot of fun these days, gettin pple on a spiritual low, invading the thoughts of God's pple. I've not been spared, basically havin' been tempted in many areas recently. Though in my flesh I say I muz abstain from all appearences of evil, it is still weak! I was seeking God on how I could overcome the onslaught of the enemy's legions, and God lead me to read my past blog posts. Lo and Behold! He did reveal smth we forget most of the time, dat is having a child-like faith in Christ, which is knowing dat every moment, every min., every sec., God is w/ us - w/o qn.!
I rmb how my dad put it across to me whenever I asked him: "Does God really hear our prayers?" His reply would always be abt Jesus always walking beside us. As I grew older, I came to realise dat it's the Holy Spirit dat receives our prayers and brings them to God. In a way, my dad was rite, since the Holy Spirit is Jesus' spirit, as defined on the day of Pentecost.
I really took time to reflect on these former wds, and oso on my blog postings, realising dat it's been a long time since I last asked God for dat child-like faith(Matt 18:4-5). It's these sort of pple dat will be made the greatest in the Kingdom of God. For me, it's oso a characteristic we can use to overcome our daily issues, even if it's coming against demonic strongholds!
I admit dat I still give in to temptations, but God's grace is always sufficient enough, and it's becuz of sin dat we always draw back to God, becuz God wants brokeness and contriteness in our Spirit when we seek Him. I'm not sayin' dat we shld get ourselves into sin! Rather, it shld be our yearning, thrist for righteousness dat draws us to God, and we muz haf dat daily. We shld learn to empty our cup on others, in his works, and in spiritual warfare, and ask God to fill it up again!
I see child-like faith juz abt as the basis for everything in Christ. W/o it, we will falter, which we all haf @ 1 pt. of time. However, such faith is the one dat actually helps us to stand strong in the faith God has called us to, whether u may see it as a paradox or not.
So haf a child-like faith pple!
Today is the release of the O' Lvl results, and thnk God for rather favourable results for my peepz. To God be all the Glory for my bros' and sis' in Christ, whether or not u've done well, cuz ultimately God will haf a plan for ya'll, plans to prosper u and not to harm u(Je 29:11)! Amen!
I'm reminded on how faithful God was to His promise to grant me 14 pts. W/ much fasting and prayer... he fulfilled it! Hallejuah! (refer to 'Feb 2005', 'Pasts'.)
Be encouraged ppl. Dun let the enemy get u down. Allow Christ to lift u up!
'AND WE KNOW THAT IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM, WHO HAVE BEEN CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.' - Rom 8:28
Peace out & GB.

URGENT!: (Read This for Clarification)

2006-02-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

I dun wanna start of this post on a gloomy note, but after the prev. post, many ppl haf alrdy been stumbled by me and the wds I've put across, not juz on this blog, but in other situations as well.
The grp dat I've been meeting up w/ consistently are ppl whom haf been called to be watchmen, and we r not being nosey-pokers, or trying to run ppl's lives as we feel they shld, or being possesive. Like I've mentioned, every1 has a choice to make @ some pt. of time, and has always come dwn to this qn: will you CHOOSE God, or the world?
We recognise dat our approach to certain matters, and towards our bros' and sis' in Christ haf been rather harsh, and we apologize. I APOLOGIZE on the behalf of the crew. If we haf been overly-judgemental, den we seek ur forgiveness.
We're not a cult, neither r we trying to create another religion. We're juz doin wat has been issued upon us by the Holy Spirit. Here's assurance from the Word of God itself:
"In the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who will judge the living and the dead, and in view of his appearing and his kingdom, I give you this charge: ²Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage—with great patience and careful instruction. ³For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. ⁴They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths. ⁵But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, discharge all the duties of your ministry." - 2 Tim 4:1-5.
Dats wat we've been called to do.

1. It's our charge, given by God, but He Himself will judge (v. 1)

2. We to do our job by correcting, rebuking and encouraging, patiently and prudently(v. 2)

3. We r doin this cuz some of our bros' and sis' r pursuing 'another Jesus', a 'genie Messiah' (... to suit their own needs...), and r rallying together to preach it (to new Christians and may mislead them). (v. 3)

4. We r not deviant-evangelists! (v. 5)

I beseech ur understanding. We r here to warn, NOT TO JUDGE. Judgement is in the hands of God, but we r to sound the trumpet.
Ok, maybe we haf sounded it TOO LOUD, or too many times. I feel for u, those who haf been stumbled, and it has irritated u, pissed u off u might say, and even offended u in Christ. 'WE'RE GOING OVERBOARD', u exclaim.
We're sry for all dat. This is not legalism, as some of u may haf put it.
However, I'm gng to reiterate once again. Some of u haf heard our warnings, but why aren't u doin anyth abt it? Why aren't u seeking God as u shld? Why aren't u turning ur back from the world?
I shall hold my peace for the moment. Let the Holy Spirit convict ur hearts, so strongly abt this. Yet, once again I... we apologize once again for wat some of u haf labelled us to be: hypocrites, liars, cultists, stumblers, fakes. Pls forgive us. And we frogive ya'll for all dat too.
I wanna take u to this msg, which I hope every true, genuine believer who proclaims his/her love for Christ will listen, and let the Holy Spirit minister.
http://worldchallenge.org/sermons/mp3/050807_tsc_dw.mp3
I've said enough, and I will not address this prob. again unless a beckoning need arises.
Bros' and sis', be steadfast in ur love for Christ!
Peace out & GB.

§§The§§Gates§§Of§§Hell§§Shall§§Not§§Prevail§§

2006-02-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

"And I say unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it." - Matthew 16:18

The church is a living and glorious one. A one that God delights in.

Jesus said dat the gates of hell shall not prevail against the church.

The church: The ppl, the Body of Christ.

If the church r the ppl, den the gates of hell shall not prevail against the hearts of His ppl.

Breathren, I beseech you: do not let the Devil entice u. These are the last days. Men shall become lovers of pleasure, of themselves... of the world.

Satan is the prince and power of the world. I beseech u... guard ur hearts!

I dun wanna stumble ppl... dun get me wrong... but I've been called to be a watchman, separate for the gospel...

U may turn away from this, but will u turn away from the Truth?

I can't take anymore.

To whom shall I give warning to?

I sound the trumpet, but it falls on deaf ears.

I invite ppl to the banquet, but they reject the call.

I'm gng to sek God like nvr b4.

I'm gng to draw closer to Him like nvr b4.

It is not my work, but the work of the Holy Spirit, dat I pray will draw to repentance...

The backsliden...

both in body...

and soul...

Breathren, those who see wat's happening, pls pray along w/ me.

Those whom God has called u to be a watchman/watchwoman!

Let us redeem the time, for the days are evil.

For my bros' and sis' who CHOOSE to be worldly... God is giving u a chance to repent.

The bible says He's slow to anger, abounding in love and mercy...

but He will not cotend w/ ur hearts forever...

juz as he did, in Noah's days...

Oh Lord, OPEN OUR SPIRITUAL EYES!

Peace out & GB.

Blessing§ to Burden§

2006-01-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

I've been seeing red throughout the entire of this past wk. Either I've been extremely frustrated w/ sch work, or its juz the notion of the CNY this period.
Anyhoo... I've been really bogged dwn by sch work. Thnk God I found time to relax this wk, esp. w/ the dawning of the much needed Lunar New Yr. break. More imptly, I was able to spend more time w/ God.
Speaking abt pryer, I'm really motivated by EFC's (shld I say the elite?) prayer warriors to involve myself more in grp prayer, although I hardly meet-up w/ em' to do so. Hehz. PTL, I went for one recently and could really felt he presence of God saturate the meeting place. Really grateful for such wonderful peeps in Christ, and I believe God is gng to work great and mighty things through us as we pray.
I could see a few prayers ans'd as I did my 'bai nian' this wk. My auntie on my mum's side actually broke dwn when she saw me and my sis. She even speaks differently, complaining less abt her life and how trying it is to live. My mum says it's becuz she has no peace. I'd prefer to see it as God workin' smth out in her spirit. PTL! Once again, the beattitude of James 5:16. Woot! My cousins were oso less difficult to deal w/ this time rnd when I visited them. Got many more ang-baos, and though I collected slightly lesser than my sis [it's the same every yr. becuz I'm always more focused in interacting w/ my cousins], I consider it God's blessings to haf such rich relatives and selfless Christian elders. And I mean it in a gd way.
Lol.
I will admit that I gave in to certain temptations, that being mostly of gaming along w/ my cousins, who r addicted to video games. Guess I've quite some way to go b4 I become a total spirutal Nazarithe for Christ. God help me.
Devon and I haf been really burdened by the spiritual condition of my G12 members. Many of them r very far away from God rite now, not juz in terms of commitment. Smtimes, it becomes v. difficult to encourage them to come, and thr's a very fine line between push and shove nowadays when I try to follow up on em'. I did mention I wld take drastic measures, so I'm turning to fasting beginging tmr. I believe its a step closer to uniting the G12 together, smthing I believe both me and Dev haf overlooked for a v. long time alrdy. Pls keep us in prayer. I haf faith our G12 Certification will come yr., not juz physically, but spiritually as well. Why spiritually? I want my members to consist of genuine believers, not lukewarm Christians. Its juz like Jesus in John 6:60. When he delivered hard teaching, many couldn't accept it and deserted him. I believe its oso a rhema to me when I reached the conclusion: Jesus still ended up w/ the 12 disciples he had CHOSEN. Its time to start gettin' picky, but I wun cease soul-winning, but if thr's anyth. I wanna accomplish in this time of fasting is spiritual growth, above all things, in my G12 b4 we get certified. No use gettin' certification yet havin' dry bones amongst my grp. I pray the Holy Spirit will lead me to disciple those who r willing to seek God's will, not theirs.
It's a Godly jealousy ppl. Pls dun be stumbled.
Headed dwn to Changi Broadwalk this afternoon for a leisurely walk w/ my family. Initially I was reluctant to, since I had a great deal of work yet to be completed, but I figured it'd be no harm to get a lil' gd ol' sea breeze. Felt v. refreshed after the entire outing. Praise God for day-time beach convection.
Will be headin' over to Aunty Jenn's place tmr for grp prayer once again. Yehaw! Let's move heaven and earth once again, my bros' and sis' in Christ. Looks like its cheong time for my homewrk tmr morning, but believe God will bless as I sacrifice my time in faith!
Dats all for now. And do give ur opinions on this blog and if thr's anyth. else dat needs changing. Thnx!
Peace out GB~.

..SaDNeSs...

2006-01-18T17:06:00.000+08:00

I'm gng to make this a rushed post for several reasons:
1. I'm leaving for G12 soon.
2. Last wk was one terrible series of events after another... and so I can't really be bothered to blog abt it.
3. I'm trying to cut down on my com. usage.

I dunnoe wazzup w/ my spirit these days, but I have reason to believe its S.A. Tan himself trying to get me dwn like nvr b4. The overwhelming feeling of lethargy keeps comin over me, and somehow I'm finding it hard to pray, nowadays. Then again, I thank God for His faithfulness (always). W/o Him, I'd probably haf lost every sense of direction this wk, but isn't it true He'll 'nvr leave us nor forsake us'?
Hallejuah!
Was late for 2day's Animation lecture (again). Had to rush dwn on '240'(meaning cab), and get lessons on 'walk cycle' animations. I'm thinking of doin' a strolling Batman for this assignment; hopefully I can do it w/ God's wisdom. Had oso had Typo. lecture, whr we were informed for wat to study for nxt wk's test... which is crap-loads lah! Hahaz. I haven't studied a textbk for ages, and my lecturer's expecting the students to do it in 1 WK! Only the grace of God can help me this time, and I thank God, He nvr fails.
Had oso NYP Open Hse briefing today - 1 1/2 hrs on how to spread sch. propaganda. They were tellin' us how Lucasarts approved of our sch. , we collaborating w/ EA blah blah... Rather boring, but I'll be doin' dat come Fri when I take the sec sch. grads on tour of the campus. Any takers? Hahaz. I'll be @ Blk M, 4th lvl, from 1330hrs to 1800hrs.
Well, dats all I can say for now. Gng off for G12 now, and pls keep me in prayer.
Peace out & GB.

Thanksgiving - That's my DAD

2006-01-07T11:17:00.000+08:00

6th January - Dad's B'day. Happy Belated one 2day!
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They say like: "Like father like son."
As I grow older ea. day, I nvr fail to see how God is making me not only more Christ-like, but oso more like my dad in many ways.
Similar Trait no. 1: The relaxed nature my dad and I haf come to deal w/ certain matters. For one, I've nvr been more sarcastic towards pple b4 until recent times. My dad himself has this penchant for running his mouth on entirely sartirical note whenever he gets out of formality. He can let loose if he juz wants to. I think its juz a God-given character, esp. when he brings this into teaching his cell lessons... and its proven to be effective (but he's always reminded not to get out of hand). We've nvr come to an agreement more often than now; w/ him opening up more to my personal, spiritual opinions, and giving me much more freedom. Yeah, @ least he realizes I'm gng on to 18 alrdy.
Similar Trait no.2: We share a liking for certain foods.

(The above is juz an exaggeration.)
Similar Trait no.3: We love the lady in our lives.

My mum dat is. Hahaz. I'm very encouraged by the fact dat my dad, after 26 yrs. of marriage to my mum, is still ever so commited to her. An omen of things (for me) to come? If I ever get married in the first place dat is.
Similar Trait no.4: Strict in discipline. The very reason why I've been raised up under the fear of the Lord. Nevertheless, he always reminds me he had spared me from the rod more often than he did to my sis'. Which is maybe why I'm more prone to do stupid things. Although I dun really take after him in this area, I haf reason to believe in the very near future, I may. After all, I used to be known for being overly serious.
Similar Trait no.5: We love God.

Similar Trait no.6: We love the subject on history.

Above all, I love my dad... and my DAD LOVES ME.
Rock on!
Thank you for: your patience in building me up; for the times when you chastened me cuz it made me a better person; for the hardwork u've put into ur career so dat u can support the family and my education; and most of all, for loving me despite my shortcomings and rebellious attitude, smtimes, towards ur advice.
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"Thank You God for such a wonderful family, and placing such a wonderful guy as the head of the household. Its not cliche when I tell You that You've blessed me w/ the world's greatest dad; one that acknowledges You as the ultimate head of the household. May U bless and preserve my dad for many more yrs. to come for the commitment, sacrifice, and dedication he has shown to caring for us and for serving you wholeheartedly for alrdy, close to, 50 years. Times are gettin' more stressful for him, and I pray U'll keep Him in Ur mercy. As He upholds himself daily in prayer, may U grant Him the peace that passes all understanding as U've promised in Philippians 4:6. May he continue to find favour in Ur eyes, and I pray he that he'll dwell in Ur house forever. In Jesus' Name, I pray, Amen."
Peace out & GB.

=Challenged=&=Blessed=

2006-01-04T16:02:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year every1!
The new year has opened for me w/ many tests set by God, primarily tests on integrity.
Thank God for Pastor Lim's sermon on Sunday abt renewing our minds and visions for the new year, a msg taken directly off from 'The 4th Dimension', and it was a definite reminder not just on the lessons I've gained from reading that book, but also... that I've been slacked in reading the book. Hahaz. It seems every1 is reading it now: Josh, Dixon... even Ken. Eek!... Better get dwn to studying it again.
My integrity was put to the test immediately on Mon' afternoon while I was doin' my Digi. Imagery assignment. I knew deep in my heart that I had not taken any camera photos, and having to do a write-up on the various sources I used to create my designs, I was tempted to fake some extracted images from the internet and label them as my own. You see, I was tempted to do that cuz the assignment required us to utilize images from various devices to design an image on a star idol (it was alrdy wrong to do such a poster in the 1st place), and one pic. has to come from our digi-cams taken ON OUR OWN. Thankfully, Walter conversed w/ me on MSN Msger, and we were both in the same predicament: whether or not to compromise on our integrity. Eventually, I got so frustrated w/ it that I went to seek God, and He brought out this verse out so clearly so me: 'Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men. (Ep 6:7)' That really humbled me, and I took to being honest in my write-up, despite knowing I'll get penalised, but ultimately Glory be to God. At least I kept my testimony b4 Him.
2day was another testing: my animation test. A test I hardly studied for. When the paper reached my hands, I was given once again a choice to compromise or to stand up for wat's rite, as 2 of my classmates sat beside me. Yep... I was obviously being tempted to copy, although I was sitting in the middle of row of the lecture hall. Thnk God for his leading, cuz I eventually finsed the test w/o copying any of my classmates' work. PTL. Well, let's hope my results do turn out well, but even if they dun, its God who muz get the Glory still.
My class is gng to get a class jersey incoporated w/ a devil's logo in front, and I've made my mind up - not gng to purchase it.
Hallejuah!
I've really been challenged this wk to make radical changes in my Godly pursuits, smth which I had asked God to help me with, come this new yr, seeing that many other bros' and sis' in Christ oso wanna take a turn for greater Godly jealousy, and the church giving a revamp to its youth programme. Really blessed by the fact that His grace is sufficient enough for me (and for many who are being tested out thr), and that more and more rhema's comin' to me from His Word daily. Juz ytd nite, I was taken (somehow) to this website to play a game. I was oblivious to the game's nature, and eventually, after finsing the game, this grisly pic. of a freak popped out on my screen. I held back from hollering, since it was alrdy 11p.m. at the time I viewed it. I took some water to calm myself dwn, but that demonic face kept appearing in my mind thereafter (I've gotten such nonsense b4 and the same thing always happens to me). I prayed so hard at my computer dat I started trembling and my mum thought I had fits. Hahaz. Thank God he reminded me of wat Pastor Marion said in her sermon: 'There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (1 John 4:18)' Dat nite I manage to sleep peacefully thnx to His Word once again!
Thnk God the injury on my elbow's healing, and still is, but the concern now is my elbow joint whether it has been knocked out of place cuz the bone's hurting more than ever. And, due to lack of my left arm usage, my left shoulder has gone stiff as well. Miraculously still managed to commit to the Chingay project this wk (and we finally got tix to the event. Woot!). Pls continue to keep me in prayer for complete healing now. Other than that pesky ailment, everything went well this wk, maybe becuz God needs me to pray for other pple who are in need, and to help them out. Can't expect a crippled man to help another. Hope God lifts up their spirits this wk.
"Thank You God for helping me kickstart my New Year on a gd note. Your grace truly is sufficient enough for us! Pls make it known to those who r being tested, suffering and losing perseverance this wk. Lift their spirits up and meet their needs that they may noe dat You r still God and You r, and always will, be in control. In Jesus' name... Amen."
Managed to hook onto this Christian hip-hop internet radio juz ytd (www.beatmart.com). Finally... a genre of music which I like. Hip-hop and R&B has always been my preferred type of music. So Thnk God for filling my innate musical needs. LOL. Will be sharin' later @ G12. May God's wisdom be w/ me once again. Woot! (And praying hard for thr to be 12 souls in attendance.)
Peace out & GB.

...A Wk's Retirement...

2005-12-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

I cant' believe I'm actually typing out this post w/ my left arm being restricted of its movement. Got a pretty bad injury at the elbow area while @ Sentosa ytd.
Anyway, gd news is dat I managed most of my Christmas shopping during the recent Mon (I prefer to take Christmas a celebration spanning over 12 days). Went out w/ my mum and sis', who r pure shop-a-holics lahz... even I couldn't keep up w/ them after 3 hrs. Hahaz, but Thnk God for their patience cuz most of the time I ended up finding my stuff @ the last min. At the end of the day, we got more stuffs for me than the 2 ladies did for themselves. Feel so pai seh manz. Plus, my sis was complaining abt how unfocused I was throughout the shopping trip, which I totally agree w/ her since I was absolutely tired out by the walking (much thnx to my flat feet), and my mum was criticising me not being man enough and all dat stuff abt not being able to accompany my future gf for such a trip, yada, yada... Hahaz. I enjoyed it nontheless.
Ytd, I chionged Sentosa w/ my church peepz and got a scorching sunburn for my troubles. I believe this is my 3rd and counting, but PTL I still had a gd nite's rest. Throughly enjoyed myself until the part when we went to the resort for a swim. I decided to prank my sis by picking her up and throwing her into the water.
Result: Sis went into the water. Sam nailed the edge of the pool on his left elbow after a slip of the foot.
Ouch!
Funny thing was that initially I didn't feel much pain, despite the swelling, until much later when an attendent @ the pool side passed me some iodine to apply... and you NS peepz shld know v. well wat its like to haf iodine applied to a deep cut. The sensation juz makes u wanna holler.
The bleeding didn't even stop after I attended Prayer Meeting. Thnk God Auntie Candy advised me to see a doc, who advised me to do my best not to bend my arm and gave me a thicker dressing this time (the blood soaked through my prev. plaster... !sick!). Took a taxi home, and PTL, I managed to reach out to the cab driver, who although relunctant in listening to me, ultimately told me he would find out more on Jesus. Praise God. Managed a painstaking shower, finally realising for sure how privillaged I am to haf 2 fully functional, working arms. I mean... HOW CAN ANY1 WHO HAS LIVED A NORMAL LIFE THUS FAR ADAPT SO QUICKLY TO WORKING W/ JUZ ONE ARM TO WASH HAIR, FACE, THE ENTIRE UPPER TORSO, INCLUDING THE BACK?! Thnk God for his grace and mercy... He told me it could've been my right.
Wat folly on my part... and I still feel so idiotic abt the incident.
Anw, I'll still haf to complete my Digi. Imagery assignment by this wk b4 sch starts again nxt wk. Pls keep me in prayer for a speedy recovery.
Peace out and GB!

**~~>[Merry Christmas]<~~**:Happy B'day - JESUS!!

2005-12-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

By the time I fins writing this post, it'd probably be the 2nd day of Christmas.
ANYHOO... Merry Christmas to one and all... and of course to J-E-S-U-S(more imptly).
I'll make this quick by listing out juz a few events which haf blessed my heart these past few days.
Ok most of them were my church events
Deck The Halls: I never anticipated myself actually gettin' involved in this, but thnx to our RC rehersal being held @ the DTH location, Pastor Alan kinda got us involved in the whole event by assigning us to a last ditch effort to bring children in. Thnk God we managed to get a few last-min contacts, and were treated to a heart-warming performance by the TKK peepz. Really brings back memories of the times when I was in TKK and we did those Christmas mini-skits to bless the children. Anyway, Josh and I later got obsessed playing w/ a plastic baby, used to improvise baby Jesus, which was kinda sick. A failed attempt to act younger again. Hahaz, but PTL for the wonderful event.
Home Christmas: This was the probably the 1st, and hopefully, the last time, I played Bom Bi Bi w/ peepz such as Wei Hoong and Wei Sheng. Thnk God for the 16 souls in attendance, which was only made possible by God's grace; and Thnk God for the wonderful msg on 'Even Wise Men Seek Jesus'; a msg which I Thnk God for empowering me to share, esp. w/ Wen Yi's and Devon's young cousins being present. Probably one of my God-given weaknesses is havin' this inability to relate to children well enough, but isn't God's strength made perfect in weakness? Hahaz, it was definitely made v. clear to me this nite. Later, we were treated to much fd, of which we were unable to fins and we decided to play the Mid-No. Game of which whoever guessed the no. set by a particular person wld haf to eat wateva leftovers we told them to eat. Wei Hoong had most of the portions intially, and I had no forfeit (Muahahaha... Thnkfully). Then they switched to the Bom Bi Bi game, a game which they thought cld catch me off guard for a forfeit. Eventually, I managed to escape time and again (I nvr expected myself to haf such sharp reflexes), until Wei Hoong and Wei Sheng, the 2 pros, came along to sit beside me. Dats when the forfeits for myself started, and evetually, I went back w/ a tummy ache despite the nxt day being a sch day for me. But, on the whole, it was a blessed evening seeing so many pple in the house.
Fri: The Day - Retro Christmas 2: The Sequel. The day whr every1 wld come dressed in 80's ugly fashion... and we did see loads of it. From pop icons of the 80's to denim wear(which was dat of my G12) to Dynasty... we saw it all dat nite. The most LOL part, for me, was probably the MTVs, whr we finally got to see the finsed product of our hardwork, and all the other Region's corny flicks. Although we didn't win, I noe for sure we did glorify the name of God. Hallejuah! Once again, Thnx loads to those who took part in the MTV; for your sweat and effort and everything else ya'll haf sacrificed. God richly bless ya'll.
OK so the most trying part of the nite, for me, was yet to come. I had to act in my Region's mini-drama as my dad evangelising to this couple. Wat uped the lvl of difficulty was the presence of my parents being thr dat v. evening. Hahaz. Well, thnk God everything went smoothly, and mistakes were corrected by improvision on-the-spot, which wasn't very obvious to the judges. And yes... I did pull of my dad's impersonation, and I anticipated wat wld come nxt. Yes, after the mini-drama, every1 was like callin' me by my dad's name, of which I shall not reveal here. (As if my 'Pas-Tors' stint wasn't bad enough). At least my dad's legacy will carry on becuz of me... Hahaz. Really Thnk God for such a wonderful nite, and after the event, Devon and I expressed rather similar sentiments: 'I'm juz DYING to be normal again...' Buay tahan xia.
Christmas on Sunday(Today): Thnk God for the v. anointed speical nos. and Word of God preached forth w/ such conviction by Pastor Marion on the 'Purpose of Your Life'. Really spoke to me abt entering the New Year w/ a new focus. I muz say dat after being exposed to the ministry this yr. and many other Godly commitments, its definitely time for preparation to kickstart the New Year on an entirely fresh spiritual note, and I hope it'll be the same desire for my bros' and sis' in Christ as well. Thnk God for the wonderful presents from my frens and there're probably too many to mention here... so God bless ya'll richly in return. I'll be shopping for more presents tmr, since I didn't make time for any during the past wk.
"Glory be to God in the Highest, for the Saviour, Jesus Christ, who came to redeem all man this v. day. For God, You so loved the world that You gave Your only begotten son to die on the cross for our sins, so dat every person can find fulfilment in life, and life more abundantly, in You. Help us not to forget, as we close this year, the faitfulness dat You've shown us throughout this yr. Even during the times when we were unfaithful, God, you've nvr once forsaken us, and I Thnk You for Your love dat NOTHING in this world can ever separate us from it. Jesus Christ, Lord and Saviour, may this day not be the only day we give thanks to you, but everyday, may we remember the greatest gift you gave to mankind - yourself as the Saviour of the world, who built a kingdom, not by dictatorship, nor by power, but by love. Use us to continue to build this kingdom through the many out thr who need to noe you. Help us not to procrastinate anymore, but to start taking this Kingdom by force as you've comisssoned us to. We are reminded how privillaged we are in this part of the world to haf peace and stability, while we watched helplessly as nations arnd were struck by Your swift judgement. Lord, haf mercy on your ppl! God, help us to be more propelled to win souls to You as we are reminded once again how unexpected your wrath upon this sin-cursed world will be in days to come.
I Thnk You, Jesus. God help me to shine the name of Jesus more than ever come this New Year, and w/ more intensity and focus, I pray. In Jesus' most Glorious, Precious, and Wondeful Name... Amen."
Happy B'day to JESUS!

Entering>>The>>Promised>>?Rest?

2005-12-17T09:47:00.000+08:00

8 more days to Christmas... and oso to my long awaited term break... FINALLY!
Thank God for the tenacity to @ least pull through, thus far, in this course. I used to psycho myself dat I'll nvr get into any fine arts course - ever... but isn't God's plan juz ridiculous?!
PTL.
The recent G12 meeting saw a drop back to 8 memebers in attendance, which caused some concern between me and Devon. Certification sometimes seems so near, yet sometimes so far away. So we resolved to get together, one day, to start praying for our G12. I believe dats the only way we're ever gonna see consistency, because in general, most of them are unable to commit due to circumstances i.e. work, persecutions etc. However, frankly speaking, I'd rather allow spiritual maturity to take root among our current base members 1st b4 we get certified. No use gettin' certified if our members' hearts are not planted in the good soil of the Word of God, but Praise God, they are growing v. strongly in Christ individually, in different ways. Some are praying more, some are commiting themselves to God's work in a greater measure... many examples. Yeah, I still desire certification... and I pray dat God will stir their hearts (and mine too), at the same time, toward greater Godly jealousy.
Thursday was another long day in sch, but a fruitful one. E.T.(a.k.a Eric Tan, my Typo. module lecturer) came into class as if he had woken up on the wrong side fo the bed, so everybody was kinda shaken when he stormed in. Worse part was dat he was suppose to critique our thmubnails for the 2nd assignment, and its not a very assuring sight when u juz see him sit @ the teacher's desk w/ a black face, juz waiting for someone to 'agitate' him so to speak. PTL, God kinda reminded me dat we shld not fear any man, so, along w/ a few others, I approached him... and slowly, one by one, my classmates' designs got rejected, and rejected... AND rejected (u'll nvr noe wat its like to haf to redo work until u're a design student)... until it came to my turn. He pretty much interrogated me to the very pt. whr I was unable to answer him, but thankfully, God gave me wisdom. After the entire thing, I ended up convincing him instead how my designs actually work, and, by God's grace,I was probably the only person dat day to take an early leave for home. However, I arrived home only to recall dat much work has to be done in this comin wk, which kinda caused me to relent on dat victory. But still... PTL once again. My classamtes eventually managed to get the green light too, and Thank God it wasn't as bad as they expected.
I was pretty annoyed, ytd, by the fact dat my sis actually skipped HOF even when I reminded her abt it b4 she went down to SAJC @ 4 p.m. to appeal for her entry into its JSA. It turned out ytd's attendance @ HOF, for Region A, was, strangely, super dismal. A lot of pple didn't make it (but PTL thr were many new ones... and Vincent made it), and the catch was dat ytd's msg was definitely for the pple! Truely the harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few!
Ok... so after reflecting on all these incidents, I've come to question if this is really the season to be jolly. God's ans to dat qn. of mine: 'why not u restore unto others the joy of thy salvation?' Dat prompted me to recall Rev. Ron Bueno's sermon on smth abt findin' joy in soul-winning. Yes, we can truely enjoy this holiday season, but we muz not forget the greatest joy in sharing to others the greatest gift God gave to mankind, Jesus Christ. May God grant us the propensity and boldness to win souls this Christmas! May we put our hands to the plough and find joy in doin' it.
It'll be drama rehersal for RC later 2day. I've been casted as my dad's jr., a role which shld be no prob gettin' into, as the saying goes, 'like Father, like son' (and my mum keeps pokin' fun the similar traits of 'blurness' we haf whenever I mention dat. So much for heredity). Everyone was like jking arnd w/ me abt my dad's sermon on 'choping and intergrity' ytd. Anyway, I probably haf to revert back to dat nerd hairstyle again, something which I haf nvr tried for aeons alrdy. More imptly, pray for God's guidance and Spirit to lead us 2day, to really get all of us into dat 80's character.
'Dear Jesus, this season is not juz abt havin' fun, shopping, exchanging presents and all dat Christmas high we get into annually. Its abt the love, Jesus Christ, heaven gave dat v. night so dat salvation can be assured unto all mankind. Restore unto every believer the joy of thy salvation, and revive us in soul-winning, for the harvest is plentiful this season, but the workers are few. Help us to put our hand to the plough, not looking back, but fulfilling Ur hearts desire for souls to know You and wat the true meaning of Christmas is. Help us to find joy in it as we go forth, and Holy Spirit lead us I pray. If any1 of us is stoned against the cry of the wilderness, soften our hearts, dat we may see the world through Your eyes once again. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.'
Peace out & GB.

-!!Give Us Boldness!!-

2005-12-14T16:48:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to come to grasps w/ smth God has been impressing upon my heart recently... and I believe its a spiritual truth we all need to exercise.
This truth is BOLDNESS. A rhema dat was quickened unto me when I was reading Cho Yonggi's "The 4th Dimension" book.
The Bible says: "Faith w/o works is dead."(James 2:26). How do we perform works? By being BOLD, courageous, and all the factors dat are involved in exercising our faith. How do we cultivate this BOLDNESS? By the incubation of our faith through prayer. B4 Jesus set out travelling from town to town, performing miracles, ministering, teaching etc. he would be praying through the night, as made mention by his "bread is to do the will of The Father". I can never imagine myself raising pple from the dead, feeding a hungry crowd of 5000, or even walking on water (yeah, but I can pretty much swim). However, in the past few days God has been challenging me, through the Holy Spirit, dat if one day He were to call me out to perform a miracle in front of a capacity crowd, the situation in which Jesus was usually thrown into, would I have the BOLDNESS of faith to do it?
It's difficult to perceive this smtimes, esp. when we're limited to our own human minds! However, God is telling His pple, in these last days, to take the step of BOLDNESS to proclaim the Gospel, to sound the trumpet of warning. We need BOLDNESS!
And I did take dat step during this wk after being prompted by the Spirit to initiate my own prayer toward my ill-stricken aunty whom I visited w/ my family recently (shez my mum's sister), who's diagnosed w/ colon cancer, even though my dialect is kinda broken. Results did show after a recent CT scan report 2day - the disease is not terminal, and has ceased spreading to other prts of the body. More imptly, her spirits haf been lifted up, and she is displaying more interest towards the character dat is Jesus. Hallejuah!
Personally, I'd like to define this as CRAZY FAITH, as wat Marilyn Hickey spoke abt during the recent CGI Trip I made. It is this attitude dat will truly pls God! For without faith, it is impossible to please God - which means, vice-versa, it's best.
May you ask God for the gift of BOLDNESS this season, more than juz to please Him, but rather, to please the heart God has for souls.
Dat's practically all I haf, spiritually, to share for now. This wk has really been a trying one, w/ the filming of the Retro Christmas MTV for Region A, schwork... but Thank God for pulling me through all of dat, and finally, today.... I HAD MY MUCH DESIRED 7 HOURS OF SLEEP! God is good.
I was really blessed by the MTV filming this wk, however, despite the strenous efforts the team put into it during the recent Sat. Seeing all of us, working together as a team, having to endure the hot sun in those outlandish costumes, and ultimately completing it, was by far the greatest testimony of Christians working in hand in hand to me, till date. PTL, dat mins after the shoot, He sent rain to cool us down as we watched the (hilarious?) NGs on Wei Hoong's TV. Really laughed out heads off watching one another dressed in 80's fashion, dancing to "Fire and Ice". Like to thank the team comprising of Josh(overall director), Midori, Wei Hoong(who hosted the shoot), Devon, Dixon, A Kim, Jia Min, Hwee Min(even though she only came for one rehersal), Eelen, Rina, Dennis, Wei Sheng, Jovin, Bernice(the make-up artist), Walter, Alvin, Ivan, and any1 else who I've missed out (apologies), for the superb commitment throughout this MTV. God richly bless ya'll!
Headin' out for G12 soon. Pray hard dat I'll haf 12 souls in attendance 2nite once again.
Peace out & GB.

Thanksgiving - To God be the Glory

2005-12-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to the Creator of the universe, Lord Almighty, the King of kings and Lord of lords.
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"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." - John 3:16

It would be difficult to consider life w/o God. Then again, isn't it true smtimes we'd rather not run to Him and carry on life w/o Him.
No matter, I thank God for all the times He got me through every period of stagnation in my faith. Growing up in church has never caused me to boast: "I've been faithful all the way." Even if I was, it would be by the grace of God. Frankly speaking, its usually the new-born Christians, those who get to experience salvation 1st hand dat grow much faster in the faith... that's the power of the Cross.
So many things I want to give thanks to Him for. Its probably beyond wat words can express... but I'll try to the best of my ability to put it across to you clearly.
Whenever I'm reminded abt God's love for man, I remember Jesus and the work he did on the Cross. Its the place whr every need can be met, every pain can be healed, and every soul can be saved. To put it basically, everything can be found in the Cross. To think of the anguish and heartbreak Jesus went through during the last 12 hours of his life, especially during that period of time when he was hung on the Cross, always propels me to His throne. Truly, nothing ever can separate us from the love of God. He knew, even b4 time, that man would sin against him, but yet He made man, and even provided a perfect sacrifice so he could be reconnected w/ God. That's the love of God, which I'm thankful for ot juz for now, but everyday. God is good.
His blessings upon my 17 years of life, regardless of whether I was cold toward Him or not, never ceases to amaze me. Glory to God for several things which He have made so prominent to me in my life as blessings: My family; who raised me up in the fear of the Lord, and loves me unconditionally. My educational life thus far; He has truly blessed me so many times in this area, and regardless of wat sort of results I achieved, I noe He was still w/ me. My ministry; which began this yr. and is gonna end on a gd note w/ His anointing.
Above all that, I thank God actually... none other than for Himself. Hahaz... not being cynical or anything. If I had not known Him, or rather, if He had not made Himself known to me from young, I personaly think dat everything would haf been finsed for me alrdy. Today pple can call me blur, pple can say I'm physically weak. But I thank God dat when I'm weak He has made me strong. He's the very reason why I live 2day. He's the reason I love Him till 2day. May dat love even drive me to bring more pple into this love - His love.
"Father, a simple prayer of thanksgiving goes out to u today - dat of greatfulness for the Agape love You've shown to me and every other person dat has known you. Its amazing to perceive juz how much You love us by knowing that, God, nothing can ever make You love us less. I thank You. Continue to use me, as Your hands and feet to win souls unto You, so dat many others can know of this love dat You've given them. In Christ's most wonderful name I pray... Amen."
Peace out & GB.

~Faithful~no~Monotony~

2005-12-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

Its summary time! Hope you dun mind the mundane yappings again but here it goes (dun wry I'll start from whr I can recall):
Saturday: Woke up late. Went for outreach, got a no. of contacts (PTL!), played some b.ball (got totally owned), and went to fellowship w/ Midori, Bernice and Kenneth. Came back home to set up Christmas tree w/ my mum only to find out dat the main lighting for the tree wasn't working. O well... one day passes by w/o much work done. Prayed for complete healing from my sore throat.
Sunday: Ron Bueno took to the pulpit w/ a refreshing sermon on the Joy of winning souls, which is a very timely msg since tis' the season to be JOLLY. *Ahem*... rite. I didn't really feel the impact of his preaching, but thank God i felt His wonderful presence dat drove me to renew my commitment in winning souls for Christ! V. essential. Ate lunch w/ Devon and gang. Went home. Slept. Ate dinner. Did homework. Slept.
Monday: God healed me! Hallelujah! Thank God for the recovery becuz I had a 3 hr drawing lesson starting from 8 a.m. The only comments I received throughout the entire session though were juz: "Need more practice." Arghhh! Went down to House of Costumes with RC MTV gang, whr we had total identity crisis for 2 or 3 hrs, trying on every costume we could grab our hands on. We ended doin' the Chicken Dance in bird costumes. Super crazy time... which resulted in Josh losing his specs (thnx to me cuz I was entrusted to tc of it). Gd thing he didn't flare up, even after we searched to no avail. Went home and subsequently had to rush out again w/ my family to my aunt's hse o pray for her; and pls keep her in prayer cuz shez contracted colon cancer ever since last yr, but new test results show dat she may haf to be subjected to kemotherapy again, the last time being several months ago. Prayed so strongly for her salvation, and I thnk God she was really touched (she was tearing like nvr b4). Fetched my sis back from sch (she had gone for a Thai trip and now has returned to SG), and finally, she personally got me a present after so many yrs. Yep... a pair of baggy Billabong shorts, so baggy i had to tie its safety string around my waist lest it accidentally dropped. But I'm truly grateful dat my sis' actually rmb'd me. Thnx hor! God richly bless you!^^Y
Tues: Took a 3D modelling test whr every1 was prepared to fail and retake it nxt wk. Spent half the time chatting on MSN Msger during Digi. Imagery lesson, informing pple abt nxt day's MTV rehersal. Came evening when my mum, after several yrs, finally got back to telling my sis' and I bed time stories...
Ok juz jking... she taught us the Parables of Jesus, topic being on the 10 Virgins and the Bridegroom. It talks alot abt havin' a character reserve to be prepared for Christ's second coming. Had a breakthrough in prayer whr I prayed so fervantly for my G12 (can't rmb exactly how long), and for the 1st time, felt the presence of the Holy Spirit descend upon my room. Really wonderful to come b4 the King of Kings an the Lord of Lords, and thank God for the spiritual propensity to supplicate.
Wed: The 2 lectures scheduled during this day was short, so managed to rush down for rehersal on time. Got try out the dance moves, which totally cracked the gang up, but coordination still lacking. Kudos to Wei Hoong and Josh for deriving the moves which was juz so 80s'. Sad thing was, every1 was kinda lethargic. Josh was K.O'd after practice (thankfully he wasn't assigned to teach dat evening), and I was O.K. enough to @ least teach the lesson to G12, once again by the grace of God. Speaking abt G12... WE FINALLY HIT 12 SOULS IN ATTENDANCE! HALLELUJAH! James 5:16 rox. And thnx to those who made it happen. God richly bless ya'll.
Today: Was super-panicky after I learnt dat the com I had stored my animation slides in could not access the assignment drive; and I had to hand it up by 6 p.m.! So I literally ZIPPed around campus looking for frens who potentially had a ZIP disk I could borrow. Eventually, I had to waste $16 on one @ the college bkstore. Moral of the story: always haf a back up (in this case, haf it loaded into another com ). Really had to ask God to prepare my heart as I headed down to church for Konquerors, cuz I was totally beat. PTL God didn't short-change the pple 2day, w/ a msg focusing on how we perceive God in our lives: whether as One who's far away (bad), or One who runs toward us when we seek Him (gd). A msg which truly spoke to me to end this yr. on a gd note in every aspect possible, esp. w/ God.
I've tried my best to exclude the monotony in this post, and somehow, after seeing God's blessings during this wk, I still feel rather low in spirits. For some reason I've been extremely lethargic so far this wk. In fact, it seems every1 is. However, I know God is faithful. From my perspective (and I say this for myself too), we need to focus not on the things dat go wrong in our life, but on the things God has blessed us w/, and believe dat He can turn every undesirable situtation around if we juz learn to commit it unto Him.
Forgive me for my seemingly neverending post. Hopefully the next time I blog, my thoughts wun be dat long-winded (if u're readin this, I take my hat off for u... and urge u not to stone me in return). Hahaz!
"Father, times may haf changed, but You are the same ytd, 2day and forever. In this modern society, rest seems to be the last thing on our minds, but I thank You for Your yoke dat is easy, and Your burden which is light, and we can always run to you whenever we're weary. All things are possible through Christ who strengthens us, and I claim dat in faith. With dat, help us to see Your goodness when rest finally is bestowed upon us, forgetting our troubles, and then can we truly proclaim 'Hallelujah' unto You who hath been faithful."
Peace out and GB.

Remember¿?to¿? Remember

2005-12-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

'But God remembered Noah and all the wild animals and the livestock that were with him in the ark, and he sent a wind over the earth, and the waters receded.' - Genesis 8:1.

'Within three days Pharaoh will lift up your head and restore you to your position, and you will put Pharaoh's cup in his hand, just as you used to do when you were his cupbearer. But when all goes well with you, remember me and show me kindness; mention me to Pharaoh and get me out of this prison... The chief cupbearer, however, did not remember Joseph; he forgot him.' - Genesis 40:13, 14, 23.

Smth I'd like to share concerning what the Holy Spirit has impressed upon my heart in the past few days, esp. after the recent leader's prayer meeting I attended (Pastor Dale shared a wonderful devotion on this), and also, after a hectic week, being bogged down by schwork, Retro Christmas, and... yes... my sore throat which has been bothering me since last week's flu.
Needless to say, when we are so caught up in caring for ourselves and many other things, we tend to forget God in the entire process. Personally, my lack of seeking the Almighty, in recent days, has brought abt much pain to both me and my family. Not dat God is using me as a benchmark (as if I'm being the righteous one), but its juz dat He wants to be so clear-cut to me abt not being able to live w/o Him. I thank God for the powerful sermon on Sunday, which reminded me of how we muz 'put a knife' to things dat are dear to us when God calls us to do it. Abraham, on the verge of sacrificing Issac, saw God's provision of a ram for burnt offering instead and the 'raising from the dead' of his only son. The relation of this msg. to wat I'm tokin abt is pretty simple - we muz FEAR God in order to remember Him and experience the better things He has in store for us.
I can testify abt God's faithfulness in answering my prayers during ytd's G12. One thing dat I always keep in prayer is the spiritual growth of my members, and PTL, I could sense the maturity of Wei Hoong, Wei Sheng and Lionel as I conversed them dat day during the session. Subsequently dat nite, God taught me a powerful lesson by inducing insomnia b4 I could fall aslp, and practically the entire nite I was asking God to breathe into me the breath of lullaby (although I did try doing those cheesy 'counting sheep' and 'taking deep breaths' techniques, but to no avail). I woke up like a reanimated zombie 2day, and was drifting in and out of slp esp. during my storyboarding lecture (which taught some pretty impt. stuff in 2day's lesson... *shucks*), which was the last period for 2day.
Still, I got home from sch praising and thanking God, though the chastisement He brought upon me was punishing to my phy. body (coupled w/ the sore throat). I dunnoe how I mustered the strength to give thanks, but I thank God for the Holy Spirit, the Great Comforter and Helper, who drove me to the throne of grace. Hallejuah!
God's grace truly is sufficient enough for us.
Imagine if God forgot Noah... he probably would haf had his funeral in the ark! Imagine if the Lord forgot Joseph... he would've died a prisoner w/o the fulfilment of God's promise. Today God remembers us; our prayers, promises, and problems. Haf u remembered to remember Him?

'When you go into battle in your own land against an enemy who is oppressing you, sound a blast on the trumpets. Then you will be remembered by the LORD your God and rescued from your enemies.' - Numbers 10:9.

Peace out & GB!

[Jeremy Camp] - I'll Take You Back

2005-11-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

A very touching song about, written about God's unconditional love in our lives.
Enjoy!

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The reason why I stand
The answer lies in you
You hung to make me strong
Though my praise was few
When I fall and bring your name down
But I have found in you
A heart that pleads forgiveness
Replacing all these thoughts of painful memories
But I know
That your response will always be...

Chorus:
I'll take you back always
And even when your fight is over now
Even when your fight is over now
I'll take you back always
And even when the pain is coming through
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back

You satisfy this cry
Of what I'm looking for
And I take all I can, and lay it down
Before the throne of endless grace, now
That radiates what's true
I'm in the only place
That erases all these faults
That have overtaken me
But I know
That your response will always be...

[Chorus]

I can only speak with a grateful heart
As I'm pieced by this gift of your love
I will always bring an offering
I can never thank you enough

Chorus Two:
You'll take me back always
And even when my fight is over now
Even when my fight is over now
You'll take me back always
And even when my pain is coming through
Even when my pain is coming through
You'll take me back

Always
Even when my fight is over now
Even when my fight is over now
You'll take me back, always
Even when my pain is coming through
Even when my pain is coming through
You'll take me back

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Pls keep me in prayer as I'm suffering a flu once again. Thnx!

Peace out & GB.

~ReTurNeth~

2005-11-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

PTL!
First of all, I'm back to bloggin'. 2ndly: Sch has started, and its gonna be exciting (although the optimism is not really shared by my classmates). 3rdly: this comin' Fri is my church region's(Region A) event; 1800-Heaven. Hopefully I can get some frens to come along.
Well, I have been really casual, lately, abt updating this space (rather, I COULDN'T REALLY BE BOTHERED). Maybe its due to the fact dat many pple r doing away w/ this whole jazz abt blogs and wat not. Even the recent case abt racism on the web has got the whole bloggin' community all "fired up". Personally... I think this whole thing shldn't get too serious. I mean, in the first place, if you wanna blog, you gotta' be rdy for criticism (esp. when you're trying to personify yourself on the net). More importantly... you gotta be prudent abt wat you mention, lest some busybody reports you to the police.
Hahaz. This is totally goin' overboard.
Speaking abt overboard, pple haf been calling me an ABC(American-Born Chinese) in recent wks much thnx to the "1800-Heaven" trailer dat was screened during one of the wkly church announcements. Wanna find out why? You haf to check out my church webby if u wanna noe. So anyway, everybody has been like greeting me w/ terms like "ABC" and "the Past-tors, the Past-tors..." LOL. I pretty much brought it upon myself. I'll try my best not slang anymore (although I noe the Western-based movies dat I've watched since young haf indoctrinated me so much so dat it comes naturally).** Arghhz**... this is so irritating!
Thank God for His wonderful grace and mercy upon my life. Haf been feeling like a wave in recent days. So many pple facing so many complicated probs dat seems too impossible for man to handle, yet it's reassuring to noe dat God's still in control. Dun get it wrong - these are not your so called unprecedented mood swings (of which, primarily, only females exp.). It's juz dat, through the many trials in life, God appears so far away, yet, You noe dat He is allowing all of this for the Day. Pls continue to pray dat God will show mercy on Singapore. We haf been so close to being hit by tsunamis, bearly surviving the SARS epidemic, enduring through the current Dengue outbreak... no one really noes our tomorrow - only God holds the future in His hands.
And I noe I can trust Him.
Bought a new NIV Study Bible recently and haf Been hooked onto a few things. 1st, it's the band PC3(Paul Colman Trio), a christian band, with their rocking beats and guitar ballads. Really makes up a wholesome album if u ask me, and dats wat a successful band shld haf: wholesome hits. Ok maybe I'm juz biased cuz it's kinda like my genre of music. Still, I think everyone shld sample this album @ least once and be blessed. 2ndly, the bk by Dr. Cho Yonggi dat I've brought back from my recent trip to "Kimchi Land" titled "The 4th Dimension". An essential bk, I believe, in living the Christian faith, and it's been a blessing for me, thus far, in reading it. 3rdly, PRAYER. Ok, not say I'm addicted, but I'm starting to find greater joy in seeking the face of God. 3 hrs of supplication a day, 7 days a wk; but I dun pace myself. It can smtimes be slightly longer, smtimes shorter. Thankfully, God looks @ the heart and not the outward self, rite?
Looks like the forecast's gonna be pretty gd for the comin' mth, esp. w/ Christmas arnd the corner! Woot! Hopefully I wun be too stressed out by schwrk by then to be able to relax and enjoy the hol. season a lil'.
To the O' and A' Lvl students: continue to work hard and strive to do your best to glorify the name of the Lord!
"Whatever your task, work heartily, as serving the Lord and not men," - Col 3:23
May the peace of God reign in our hearts. Amen
Peace out & GB.

[Casting Crowns] - Praise You In This Storm

2005-10-08T19:03:00.000+08:00

I can't help but tune in to this song everyday. It's new so check it out peepz!
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I was sure by now God you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say "Amen"
and it's still raining
As the thunder roars
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain,
I'm with you
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
I'll praise you in this storm
I will lift my hands
You are who You are
no matter where I am
Every tear I've cry
You hold in Your hand
You've never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
And as the thunder roars
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

[Chorus]

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth

[Chorus ]
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Peace out & GB!

//Before I Go

2005-10-08T18:37:00.000+08:00

Ok I wanna make things short for this entry cuz' I juz wrote fins another blog entry, so feel free to scrutinise, Hahaz.
Lets' begin by saying dat the reason for my late update this time is becuz I've been involved in some Chingay latern project, which I've participated on my own accord since I felt I don't wanna really waste my hols away... hehz. Yeah. It's oso partially due to the fact dat I've juz been plain lazy to wanna update this space.
Juz anticipating the coming Korea trip to the world's largest church gets me so hyped up, not juz becuz I'm goin' get some gd sightseeing, great food, authentic branded goods (ya'll muz be jealous by now... lolz jk jk!), but more imptly., becuz I'm goin to exp. a revival! However, juz wanna encourage those who r not goin to rmb wat Pastor Dale had said in the recent HOF service - REVIVAL comes from the people. God only pours out His Spirit for us to receive it! So revival practically can happen anywhr - even in ur own homes! So dun be disappointed. God is omnipresent yeah?
Ok so this is actually the last post b4 I head over to Korea. Really bz w/ the packing rite now, and truly tired out by havin' to update 2 blogs in 1 day. Pls pray for God's protection over me and the people who r goin on this trip: My dad, Pastor Alan, Devon, Nelvin, Alan, and any other person dats goin' on this trip dat I noe not of. Hahaz!
Wish us Bon Voyage peepz! And continue to tag.
Peace out & GB.

@@@PHEW@@@

2005-09-30T16:07:00.000+08:00

Praise be to God! 2 wks of straineous(spelt correctly?) Studio Project is finally OVER! Phew... and now its back to updating this space.
Wakakaka. I'm finally able to update my blog, being relieved of my schooling duties (its my hols. now.... WOOT)! However, my excitement was short-lived after being reminded by my fren dat I'm still anticipating the results of my drawing module, which, ironically, will be released on the day I leave for Korea. Ack!
Anyway, Glory to God in the highest. Ytd was my presentation for my SP module. Almost arrived late, if not for Walter and his mum fetching me thr abt an hr. early b4 my appointment. I dunnoe wazzup w/ my lecturer... he juz shifts the timeslots as and when he likes w/o informing us?! My turn came 1/2 hr. b4 my actual appointment, which was suppose to be @ 4.20 w/o my notice. Grrrr...WAZZUP WIT' DAT?! Hahaz, but the peace of God was w/ me, although initially I was panicking when I heard the impromptu news. The presentation did not start of well either, after I found out some of my portfolio works were not neatly arranged, and one of my schemes had been mounted upside down! Argh! Hahaz, but I managed to keep my composure, juz laughing off wateva bad pts. they pointed out to me (a sMILE really goes along way Y^-^Y). So I came out of Room D w/ praises on my lips, in resounding victory. The lecturers even said my designs could be used for T-Shirt designs. WAH! So flattered xia! Hehz... but once again all these would not haf been possible w/o the Help of the Holy Spirit. Hallejuah! The best thing abt it was dat I was one of the 5 pple in my class need not redo their works. Den again, I was a lil' shocked and saddened by the fact dat it has not ended for my frens in MD0505 yet. "Jia You" horz ya'll. Being given a 2nd chance's actually a gd thing - another chance to improve and get an A+!
Ytd was oso treated to BOD dinner. Um... I would say it was gd and bad in a way. Gd: becuz of the fd. Bad: becuz I came back feelin' ill (maybe I overate...). Well, through my illness, God revealed to me dat under my bed, thr was still those "Passport to Smackdown!" posters I purchased from BK abt a yr. back (those posters had smth like the wrestler posing against a fiery background). So this morning (I was feelin' better) I mustered enough strength to send the posters into the dustbin on the 1st floor, @ the same time being reminded abt turning away God's wrath from me. Hahaz.
So 2day's the 1st day of my hols alrdy. Managed to spend a longer time fellowshipping w/ God this morning, and I realised I had alot of things to supplicate for. Hehz... probably being more conscious of wats happening arnd me now dat I'm not being pressurized anymore (@ least for the time being). Lolz. Well, pls keep me in prayer cuz I'm gonna fast for my Korea trip nxt wk (I'm not very gd @ goin w/o fd for hrs). And of course, I'll continue keeping many of my bros' and sis' in Christ in prayer (most whom haf been feeling rather down recently).
One thing I'll definitely be interceding for is for my G12, after a dismal attendance of 5 in the recent gathering. Devon spoke strongly abt havin' genuine believers, and not lukewarm ones, and dat's definitely my desire now. I realised dat my G12 members (many whom r O' Lvl students), despite havin' finsed their prelims on dat day alrdy, many still didn't turn up! One even mentioned dat he had gone to a cybercafe in the late afternoon and was too tired to come. I mean... WATS THE MEANING OF DAT?! The Holy Spirit's been convicting me dat I'm being too lenient w/ my members (of which most haf accepted Christ alrdy), and I'm not goin' to hold back alrdy. I noe I haf no right to say this since in the past I too wasn't dat committed to the youth ministry, but nvr once had I placed such things as LAN GAMING above my church priorities.
Haiz... a lot of terrible things r goin dwn: being informed of the deaths of 2 pple related to our church breathren (I think the worse part of it was dat they weren't saved) in recent wks; HG5's G12 attendance goin dwn by the wk; pple gettin' depressed all arnd me... wat's the world comin to?
"Lord, I noe these things muz happen. I noe I shld be concerned, but I shld not worry. God u're comin' soon. Help me to live right w/ u, walking w/ u and nvr letting go. Help me be still and noe u're God. Help me to help others! By your Holy Spirit, set the captives free and bind the powers of darkness! Save souls, O' Lord... but deliever to us GENUINE believers: pple who walk by the Spirit, and not by the flesh. I pray dat I myself will live a life wholly dedicated to u. Gimme the desire to be a Spiritual Nazarithe!"
EFC's gonna screen Passion of the Christ (for 18 yrs. and above. Stupid censorship board!), and The Gospel of John (for ages below 18. So much for the censorship board... and I heard it may not be screening since the entire show is 3 hrs long), this evening. Gonna pray and intercede now for this event. May many souls fill the House Of God!
~Peace out & GB!~

`World Through<(o)>Your Eyes`

2005-09-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." - Hebrews 11:1
Many a times, God prefers to see things in a diff. manner than we, in our human perceptions, do. For a God who lives above us, it is not surprising nor anything astonishing to realise dat his perspectives are not dat of man. However, we can be rest assured dat Him, being above all things, perceives all things, and we noe we can trust fully in Him who IS everything.
2day was another fiery preaching by Pastor Lim on the 'Trial of Our Faith'. I hope my peepz in Christ out thr ( those of u who are feelin' down and out) haf takin to heart 2day's msg... and may I add - it was timely. Although 2day's msg didn't really speak to me, but it reminds me of wat the whole idea of faith is. It is not the absence of distress nor the absence of doubt, but it is the belief dat God will bring u out of distress.
So dun falter when u're under pressure. TAKE IT IN FAITH.
The tendancy is for us to complain when we're brought through trials and tribulations. Instead of askin' God, 'Why muz this happen to me', ask Him, 'Wat is Ur purpose in all of this'. He wun withhold the truth from u, but His reply will always haf smth to do w/ strengthening ur spiritual muscle.
Praise the Lord!
So, I juz wanted to do this post so as to reinforce once again the lesson we've all learnt 2day. It is ultimately God, who's the Author and Finisher of our faith!
Keep pressing on.
"So that the genuineness of your faith, more precious than gold which though perishable is tested by fire, may redound to praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." - 1 Peter 1:7.
Rejoice in the Lord always, ye again I say rejoice!
Peace out n' GB.

ll=+=+=+=Behind Enemy Lines=+=+=+=ll

2005-09-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

Yeah, yeah another late post, on a late Saturday nite. Hey, I'm a busy man... dats wat u're when ur in DMD.
Anyway, I'm into my Studio Project alrdy... and boy is it sucking the life outta me. Hahaz, well Praise God I'm takin' things in my stride with the help of The Holy Spirit. Hehez. Bet'cha thought I was gonna complain abt it, rite? Hur Hur.
Ok, striaght to the pt. This past wk was a wonderful wk. We had F4, were many souls of the frens of frens got saved; I managed to fins 15 'hand'nail sketches (Leong Wei's definition of a detailed drawings) all on Thurs despite my deadline being on the nxt day; and Thnk God for HOF, whr I was reminded of "The Trouble With Common Sense", which was a sermon on seeking God for wisdom, based on the Israelites' treaty w/ the Gibeonites (Thank God for using Pastor Casey as well to preach this msg in a light-hearted manner).
Now u muz be wondering why I've put my post heading as such. Well... lets juz say juz recently, I'm seeing my bros and sis' in Christ tripping up and falling down. Initially, It didn't really make me feel uneasy, but slowly, I hear of my own G12 members and frens getting hit by all sorts of adversity. My G12 members are being stressed out by exams; some haf no motivation to study. A gd fren of mine is being threatened for living for Yaweh. Oo... S.A. Tan's @ work alrite.
However, he shall not prevail!
We live behind enemy territory, for Satan is the Prince and the Power of the Air. Still, God nvr fails to deliver help in times of need.
To my G12 members: Dun lose hope, for God will be with you until the ends of the world. Continue sowing ur seed, for u will nvr noe how beautiful a flower or how great a tree it may grow into!
To Josh, my beloved bro' in Christ: Dun let the Devil haf the better of ur emotions even @ this time. In the Name of Jesus, may the deception of darkness be removed.
It seems it was not too long ago dat I've been faced w/ much problems myself. However, I've managed to climb out of them for a reason: becuz I sought the Lord fervantly. The Word of God quotes (John4:13,14): "Jesus said to her, 'Every one who drinks of this water will thirst again, but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst; the water that I shall give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."
I will keep ya'll in prayer. I've been pulled thru the probs... so dat I can lend a helping hand to others, in Chrsit Jesus, to those who believe in Him and yet suffer. We may suffer as Christians, becuz we're in enemy territory. However, we will attain an eternal glory dat will ultimately far outweight all dat we've been and haf yet to go thru here on Earth.
Trust in the Lord guys... Trust in Him who delivers, and brings hope ea. passing day. May the peace of God rest upon ya'll.
Peace out and GB.

[[The§Awareness§Protection§Program]]

2005-09-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

2day is the 4th Anniversary of the Sept 11 Terrorist Attacks in America, and a day after my blog's 1st anniversary since its creation in Sept. 10, 2004.
Now b4 I start this post, I'd like to say sorry if I've stumbled any bro' or sis' in Christ, whether it was through my actions, or through the result of these actions, during this past wk.
Devon talked to me ytd abt my Pillar video, becuz he sensed the spirit behind it was not right, afterwhich he refered me to David Wlikerson's topic in this bk "Sounding the Trumpet", about 'Devil's Music in God's House'. If u haf realised by now (if u've frequented my blog recently), the 'Bring Me Down' video has this man wearing a Satanic tattoo on his torso. Now, its not dat I didn't realise it in the 1st place, but I seemingly thought it was alrite, since this band is actually a Christian band, and I pressumed they were denouncing the Devil in the Name of Jesus. Now David Wilkerson discusses about this in his bk, refering to 2 Corinthians 11: 11-18, and this is how it goes:
"And why? Because I do not love you? God knows I do! And what I do I will continue to do, in order to undermine the claim of those who would like to claim that in their boasted mission they work on the same terms as we do. For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, disguising themselves as apostles of Christ. And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. So it is not strange if his servants also disguise themselves as servants of righteousness. Their end will correspond to their deeds. I repeat, let no one think me foolish; but even if you do, accept me as a fool, so that I too may boast a little. (What I am saying I say not with the Lord's authority but as a fool, in this boastful confidence; since many boast of worldly things, I too will boast.)"
Its strange though... cuz I've juz finsed readin' @ 2 Corinthians for my daily devotion... and yet I FAILED to discover the application of these verses to smth personal - my blog.
Den again, I Praise God for revealing this to me through Devon! If not for this, I'd probably be stumbling more pple! Hahaz, well I'm replacing the current video w/ smth else now. Pls forgive me if I've truly stumbled anyone as a Christian.
Reflecting on the past wk, I feel dat I've let God down. A G12 member recently mentioned dat I've stumbled her in my teaching; den a bro' in Christ recently told me off for discussing about a worldly game; and now this video thing. All in all, u may think it doesn't sound dat bad. After all. we're all human... aren't we? If dats so, wats the diff between a God-fearing Christian and an average human? Its the very reason why I'm worried about my spiritual life now.
However, Praise God I've finally found one of the answers to 'loving God, and not juz loving wat he does for us'. Dat ans is to let the joy of the Lord be ur strength! Alas, trust the Holy Spirit to use such a basic concept to convict me even in today's service, but how true it is to do so. Pastor Chui preached abt 'The Eternal God & The Mortal Man' in 2day's service, and it was kinda like a Revelations sorta preaching, but Scripture verse from Psalms 90. We muz truly turn back to God, and turn His wrath away from us, even in these last days, with recent events i.e. Bird Flu, SARS, Mad Cow Disease, Tsunami, HURRICANES! Etc. I need not elaborate... but if u've not been walking in obedience to God, den its abt time u did.
Thank God I oso finally found peace in him 2day. A 2ble victory u may term it hahaz!
Ok, my life sounds very gloomy, but my wk has oso be an interesting one though. Well, @ least it was interesting toward the wkend. First, I ran into an old classmate from my pri. sch ytd, while I was @ AMK Library doin' some research, and amazingly we were abe to haf a cuppa-and-chat for like an hr b4 I had to rush off to buy my 1st Christian tee from Funky B's, along w/ Josh, Wen Yi, and Jovin. I assumed dat Funky B's had really large, American sized shirts since they were imported from the U.S. Much to our surprise, we had gals-tees sizing up to only dat of a dinner bip! Sounds like toddler's clothings... but seriously, they were small! Bought a few shirts for ourselves and for other pple, den rushed down to Yishun for Community Outreach in the midst of a shower (but thankfully, it stopped when we reached our desintation). Now here comes the catch... this voice inside me from the onstart kept tellin' me not to play w/ the rest of the guys, but to do serious outreach today. So I went along with Pastor Que Beng to do juz dat, and we bumped into quite a no. of genuine pple (I would say) who wanted to come down for our F4 barbecue (not the Taiwanese band, but 'Family Faith, Food and Fun Nite'). Now another interesting thing dat happened: Pastor and I came back from outreach and we kinda like met up w/ the gals who oso did outreach in the blks, and they were talkin' abt these 4 kids dat they tried to reach out too. Coincidentially, we had reached out to this group of kids b4 the gals did, and the ladies went like: 'O! So u're the uncles they were talkin' abt!'
*Blank Stare*
So later we had this kid who came from behind while chasing a soccer ball and accidentally knocked into Evelyn. The apology went like this: 'Sorry, Auntie.'
*Big Grinn*
Hahaz - I'm so bad. Still, Praise God we have contacts woot!
Yet another interesting, or rather quirky, thing happened later. While on the way to fellowship after Outreach, me and Wei Hoong were talkin' abt Counter-Strike when this guy came from behind us, askin' us how long we had been playin' CS, and den tellin' us he was a noob @ it, askin' us whether we could spare some time in teaching him the do's and the don'ts (the worse prt. was dat he said it rather openly). So I was like: 'Um, Wei Hoong... let's catch-up w/ the others in front shall we?' So dats another eccentric human on the face of the Earth for ya. Hmmm...
2day, I was talkin' to Jia Min on the way to the same place whr we had our fellowship ytd (ALONG w/ my other church frens), and we saw a myna who looked as if it had a bird flu (probably sneezed all its feathers off from its head). A bald myna. Quirky.
God nvr fails to brighten ur day in ur blues.
So now I muz seek peace w/ my Bros' and Sis' in Christ now... the nxt step to takin' another step in my faith. Continue to keep me in prayer ya'll! To be AWARE with a heart of wisdom.
Peace out & GB.

ROLE>REVERSAL>

2005-09-08T11:52:00.000+08:00

Thnk You ALL for ur prayers. This morning I woke up refreshed and rejuvenated in the Lord.
God delivered this verse to me this morning during devotion: "For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities; for when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:10). So I finally got a revelation! God was making me feel weak so I could rely on him to be strong. Hahaz, thnx to Josh oso for the (parable?) of the giant cabin rock. Its through suffering that we grow strong in Christ. Hallejuah! Sounds like a paradox huh?
Ytd was my comm. skills test. A relative easy one (I sought God for first of course), although initially I was lost when I went through the paper. But waddaya noe?! God's grace is truely abounding whenever we put Him 1st. However, as much as battles were won, thr's another to overcome: Studio project was at hand! I was extremely overwhelmed by all the do's and don'ts till I almost cracked! Hahaz... ok a lil' exaggeration thr, but I think its yet another challenge I haf to go thru in order to take another step in faith. Hmmm... continue to pray for me peepz.
Ytd was oso a special day for our G12 in particular. No. 1: It was Hai Ning's b'day. No. 2: It was Josh's last day @ Hougang 5. Wei Sheng brought up a pretty gd fact dat nite: Josh has been to HG 4, 5, and now goin to 6. Hahaz. Ok lame fact but we hardly notice such things, do we? Well praise God dat He is raising more AND more pple to take on the harvest for Him and sound the trumpet of warning. Josh spoke abt raising up a Nazarite G12, one dat is completely seperated from the world, and I believe it is this passion dat gonna propel him in this new ministry. God will equip u Braddah!
My teaching last nite had a minor setback (lesson was on: "Shaped For Serving God Prt. 2" abt listening to ur heart for God's calling in ur life), and I'd like to clarify this again - ur gift muz be sanctified b4 u can commit it unto God. Kudos to Devon for even pt'ing dat out, after I mentioned if u like playin' video games u can use it for God's glory. Ack!
Big Mistake, Sam...
Hahaz, thnx to Devon oso for comforting me after the teaching, telling me dat I noe abt such a thing, but its juz human in our nature not to bring them up when we get too familliar with them ourselves. I hope I didn't stumble ya'll, Hougang 5? Hehe... I still haf a lot to learn abt being a gd teacher.
Our songleadin' oso hit a minor setback. Wen Yi's printer ran outta ink, and so we had to write our own songsheet for dat nite, which was really a 1st for most of us. Thnk God dat he looks @ the heart during worship huh? We oso had lotsa fd during fellowship (coupled with the 10 Roti Boys I bought from AMK). Celebrated Hai Ning's b'day w/ 2 cakes (one was a decoy; a ploy set up by Josh). Dats the pt. when every1 suddenly went crazy. Josh had STM (or rather he misplaced the cake-knife), which led to Wei Sheng using the stainless steel one and brandishing it @ almost every1 after he sliced the cake (btw, the cake was an ice-cream cake, and we did not consume it immediately. So u can imagine how creamy it was when Wei Sheng served it). So dat nite, we practically did a lot of crazy stuffs. The only pple dat were calm was Wen Yi and Devon. Hmmm... smtimes I feel they shld let lose a lil'. Well, actually we oso shldn't haf gone TOO crazy esp. when its during G12 time?
I read Times Mag this morning on the Aftermath of Katrina, the recent hurricane destruction dat swept New Orleans, wiping out homes and leaving half of the black community thr stranded. The seriousness I saw in the situation could be one way God's prompting me not to focus on myself anymore, but rather one the pple out thr who r less fortunate. Pls pray for a swift reovery oso in Medan, whr a recent plane crash occured.
I hate to say this... but the end is near! We muz start making peace with God! (Not juz referring to myself, but oso to all my bro's and sis' in Christ). Sound the trumpet of warning. Pls pray for the casualties, and dat they and their families will be saved.
Peace Out and GB!
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P.S.... CAN U HEAR ME?!

Findingll?llPeace

2005-09-06T13:22:00.001+08:00

I got down on my knees. I prayed. I cried out to Lord Almighty. I sought for peace.
Sometimes, I feel juz like a hypocrite. God calls me to be a peacemaker, but in Him I haf no peace.
Still I thank God for the victory on Sun nite when I overcame temptation. It had brought me closer to the fact dat we can never truely let our guard down.
Which is why Jesus told us to 'guard our hearts w/ all diligence'.
Abt me takin' the nxt Step of Faith in God - it was God speakin' to me to rise up in my faith, and nothing dat was pre-conceived. Stagnation is not an option. I need strength to move forward, and I Thank God I found it in the Holy Spirit; The Helper, The Aid.
Now, its not dat I'm weak in faith or anything. Rather, I'm being tested by the Lord so dat I can rise above greater adversity through faith. I can be comforted though whenever I think back on my past experiences w/ troubles: my O' Levels, my Dengue fever last yr, and the ministry I was tasked w/. God helped me clear all of them becuz I sought Him in the 1st place.
So wat now?
Now I'm gonna get on my knees everyday and seek His face. 'The fervent supplication of the righteous [man] has much power'. Hallejuah. I mean... its the only sensible thing to do. However, its not the kneeling down dats gonna do the work, its the heart dats gonna fins the job.
And Josh, how rite u r when u talk abt ridding oneself of the worldly desires. I think I've still yet to master dat. Truely we muz walk by the Spirit and not by the flesh.
So I praise God now dat He has given revelation, for it is not becuz I've strayed from Him, but becuz I'm still attached to this world one way or another, even though I dun realise it myself. Dat can be serious, cuz when we r brough into eternity w/ Christ, even though everything may be perfect, we'll still find it uncomfortable living w/o the world and its desires amiss. I muz pray for the desire to release completely. Release completely I muz.
"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up; then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field." - Matt 13:44
May I uncover the worldly desires, which I haf buried, in due time, and relase them unto the Lord.
Thank u all for keepin' me in prayer. Fret not - I'm growing steadily, but surely, in Him who started the work in me, and will go through life w/ me until the complete metamorphsis is done.
Peace out & GB.

NØT BEAUTIFUL (prepare for a shocker)

2005-09-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

"For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I that do it, but sin which dwells within me. So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand." - Romans 7:19-21
This post will be the toughest one for me to write-up, for I am greatly troubled even @ this pt. of time, @ this very moment.
Be prepared, cuz I'm gonna sound real serious from this pt. onwards. Dun be shocked brothers and sisters in Christ, for wat I'm goin thru now is the greatest testing of faith I've yet to receive. A test I muz overcome with God. A personal battle, so dat I may take another step of faith in living for Him dat haf called me to His ways.
It all began last Sunday when I came back from church and fellowship to finish off a project. A project which would eventually lead to my spiritual demise. I turned to frustration after having to retry, reprint, and redesign this Card assignment I was working on. Thr was tantrum, thr was anger, and thr was hatred towrds myself for being unable to even execute a seemingly simple assignment consisting of glossy paper, printer ink, pen-knives, scissors and wat not.
I believe it was from dat pt. that the flesh consumed the spirit.
Events dat followed: havin only 5 hrs of slp for the past few dayz alrdy much thnx to my assignments. A dismal songleadin' @ G12 (and I was late for it). No motivation nor drive to work. NO PLACE FOR GOD!
I believe God has a will and a way for all of us, and its easy to think dat when things r goin rite. Wat if circumstances change to hurt u? Wat if they start sucking the very life out of u? Will u still serve God? Will u 'be STILL and noe he's God'?
Dats my situation rite now. I'm not doin enough for God so he can do a work in me! I'm doin wat the world thinks is gd for me! The circumstances draw me away from Him instead of towards Him. Am I becomin' a hypocrite? No, I WILL NOT.
Help me to fight back O Lord! Help me to fight back!
Pls pray for me. Devil's implanting evil thoughts in me. He is working slowly, but surely, and one day if I'm not careful... surely he will consume me. God's challenge to me is now a personal battle. For sure thr's a need for drastic measures, and only God is the ONLY hope I haf now.
My salvation rests in ur hands now O God, who thru Jesus, binded the powers of darkness in this world.
"There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set me free from the law of sin and death. For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do: sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the just requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit." - Romans 8:1-5
Thr is still a chance to turn back...
I muz fight the Devil. I'm gonna do battle - a battle dat rages in me. Not by my might, not by my power... but by the Holy Spirit. In a few mins time I gonna pray, down on my knees. I will defy the powers of darkness In the Name of Jesus, even if it brings me to sweat.

Another post of my daily life cuz I've got nothing much to say and I'm juz so physically NUMB ALL OVER

2005-08-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

I juz came back from Heart.Sports, whr we had a 2ble victory. Gd things do come in pairs, and to God be Glory for the blessings.
Ok, I'll try to recall wat has happened over the past few days, but my mem's failing me like nvr b4. Recent Monday was a return to sch (duh), but w/ a twist: we had our last Colour Theory lecture, whr I kept dosing off cuz the previous night I was suppose to photocopy my thumbnail sketches for Creative Process assignment, and only remebered it last min, so I had to figure out how to use my personal scanner. By the time I actually grasp the mechanism of a 3-in-1, it was alrdy 1.00 (I started like @ 12). I had to read the Bible later as well, drawing me further away from my late slumber. Thankfully, its nvr a bore reading the Word of God, cuz thr's so many things u can learn (but I admit I was still so worn out @ the end the whole thing). Managed to minister to this classmate of mine called Kingston, who stood a 50-50 chance of comin' to Fri's 'Who Am I' special event @ HOF. Praise and thank God for dat.
Tuesday had juz one U-Media tutorial required for me to attend. So I practically spent my entire afternoon (which was b4 U-Media) figuring out how to utilize Photoshop 7.0. Its quite an achievement once u've gained a basic mastery of it. For me, I had no choice but to learn it so I could do my card design for Des. Fundamentals. Studied some comm. skills, got addicted to Reuben Morgan's All I Am... and yeah the daily works.
Come Wed was G12. A fairly short but powerful lesson on God's commandment to us to serve him. As Christians, service is not an option, or smth we can fit in our schedules if we haf time to spare. It is wat we've been created, saved, called, and commanded for. As Christians, we all haf a part to play in the church, even if u're not in any ministry. Thank God for using me again to teach. It such a joy to teach, even though the lesson was short.
Thurs was free day (as ususal). Woke up early to work on Photoshop 7.0 (courtesy of Walter) for my assignment. I didn't expect myself to go all the way into the afternoon juz working on the program, and was dying to get some entertaniment midway, so I played GunZ for like 1/2 AN HOUR only b4 gettin' back on task! Hahaz, well managed to pull through with the help of the Holy Spirit,a dn through chatting w/ a few peepz on my Msger.
Fri was a special day cuz my fren Kingston was confirmed comin for HOF! And oso... an hr. b4 I left for sch, God told me to seek Him in solace. I thought I was gonna be late, but God's calling was more impt. So i smsed a few pple to pray along w/ me, and Praise God, dat nite, souls filled the Providence! God is gd, Hallejuah. So blessed by the msg on being a true to the pple arnd us, and as Christians, not to live a life of bad testimony, but oso to be a person of character and integrity, even when no one is looking. Praise God for Kingston being touched. I dunnoe whether it was the Holy Spirit or the music, but I praise God dat he now believes in the true and the living God. So overjoyed, and so amazed by God's grace even through simply obedience!
Now one thing's for sure... I'm still being stressed out by final assignments, and God's prophetic word upon my life is revealing itself. "O God, I pray dat u will pull me thru."
I'm so tired dat I shan't continue anymore. I'll elaborate Sat's maybe in another later post.
~Peace out & Gd Nite~

P.S. PLS CONTINUE TO TAG THIS NIFTY BLOG THOUGH SOMETIMES I JUZ CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO END OFF A POST WELL... (*spastic*)