Tuesday, February 13, 2007 || Ex|-|/-\U5Ti0\|
- *Exhausted*
After a long journey to Suntec yesterday w/ my parents, a few hours of shoppin' down there, and a ardous retrun trip home, I'm serious pooped, even today. @ this pt. I'm thinking: 'Maybe takin' SP4 could be a better option...' Well, most unlikely, since I'm only gng in depth into Digital Animation only next comin' sch sem.
Sadly, I was unable to get a new shirt for CNY which is like next week! So... anyone up for a shopping trip w/ me?
It's always refreshing to listen to a worship album, in retrospect to the exhaustion. Initially, I'm thinking... wat a strange thing it is to haf a name 'Pocket Full of Rocks'.
http://www.melodic.net/img5/pocketfullofrocks-song.JPG
Give this album a listen tho'... you wun be disappointed. I can't help noticing they haf almost the same style of music as dat of Casting Crowns, not dat I'm still in dat hangover... but this is a gd album.
Well, dat's wat I've been doing these past few days, ever since my current sem. ended [much to the envy of many of my coursemates, who are currently goin thru their SP4 riggin' and UVMapping processes]: finding out all the hottest CCM hits around. At the same time, I'm probably going to start my Maya retrainning in preparation of the comin' sem's 3D modules, which some of my frens haf reviewed as 'taxing' and 'stressful' in their contexts. I plan to redefine dat... NOT.
Well... I'll give it my best la. The rest will really be God's provision.
Ok... so enough of all this talk about stress and stuff. I had enough of dat for one sem. Maybe, I'd share something from my devotion:
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My Utmost For His Highest
5th Feb.
Are You Ready to be Poured Out as Offering?
If I am being poured out as a drink offering on the sacrifice and service of your faith, I am glad and rejoice with you all —Philippians 2:17
Are you willing to sacrifice yourself for the work of another believer— to pour out your life sacrificially for the ministry and faith of others? Or do you say, "I am not willing to be poured out right now, and I don’t want God to tell me how to serve Him. I want to choose the place of my own sacrifice. And I want to have certain people watching me and saying, ’Well done.’ "
It is one thing to follow God’s way of service if you are regarded as a hero, but quite another thing if the road marked out for you by God requires becoming a "doormat" under other people’s feet. God’s purpose may be to teach you to say, "I know how to be abased . . ." ( Philippians 4:12 ). Are you ready to be sacrificed like that? Are you ready to be less than a mere drop in the bucket - to be so totally insignificant that no one remembers you even if they think of those you served? Are you willing to give and be poured out until you are used up and exhausted— not seeking to be ministered to, but to minister? Some saints cannot do menial work while maintaining a saintly attitude, because they feel such service is beneath their dignity.
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Still seeking revival...
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
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Saturday, February 03, 2007 || N.o.t .'L.o.n.g.i.n.g.' A.n.y. L.o.n.g.e.r.
- After a long, technologically challenging hiatus, I'm back to blogging. And yes, I'm definitely gonna change my modem soon. Did I mention dat free stuff always comes with a 'price'. Ironically, YES.
Well, I've been pretty busy myself w/ projects; some which I voluntarily chipped in more since I had lesser modules than many of my classmates. Thus, dat results in, once again, many sleepless nites. 'Guess no matter wat position u are in SIDM [the new name of my NYP faculty, and it's lanyard colour is hot pink], there's always the same type of demand required of you. Makes me feel sometimes of returning back to my Yr. 1 days which were relatively slack, but... well... the Bible does say dat 'one who is slack is a brother to the destroyer.' Recited dat like countless times in my head, but surely not in my heart living it out sometimes. Gahhh...
I'm spiritually strugglin' still. You can say nth much has changed since the last time I mentioned about my spiritual life on this space. Although as the hols approach, it would be most wise of me to be back more often in the closet, altho' I would agree dat a true man of faith grows closer to God even in the trials we face. Personally, I'm pretty disappointed in myself for being so distant from God, tho' from time to time... u noe... u pray to Him like for 5, 10 mins for the really urgent stuff, and dats it.
I dunnoe abt u, but I've come not to believe in the wd 'longing'. 'Oh I long to be spiritual,' 'I long to be disciplined to seek Him,' 'I long "this and dat"...' The wd longing is a substitute for the phrase '... only wish'. 'I only wish I could be spiritual,' 'I only wish I could be disciplined.' Bros' and sis', truth is, we dun LONG to be like Him. If we wanna be like Him, action needs to be taken now. We need to discipline ourselves now; seek His face now; rise up now! If we believe in the verse dat 'today's the day of salvation', how much more we should believe dat we be all the things we long for in Christ NOW whom we haf accepted into our hearts alrdy!
As I'm writing this, I'm oso whacking myself in the face. How many times haf I overused the wd 'long' to justify myself, and it always turns out dat nothing frutiful turns out in the end.
Maybe I've become too religious to believe dat God can take me whr I wanna be in Him 2day, but glory be to God for his grace is always sufficient enough for me, and dat I muz always rmb. His grace ultimately is to cause us to fear Him even more so, and not to take Him for granted. Let's us long no longer [lol] to be like Him. Let's make it now to be like Him.
Thank God for His grace throughout the whole of the beginning of 2007 despite my distant relationship from Him. Buses haf been coming on time esp. when I'm late for class; being able to sleep 3 or 4, 5 hours yet remaining sane and lively; finishing all my assignments on time yet w/ gd quality; the anointing of God I haf while I'm teaching @ G12 juz to name a few. Now it's time to consider wat can I do for God. More than my ministry, more than the service I render to Him, it's time to devote myself to God Himself. And how true it is dat Oswald Chambers mentions dat 'the greatest contender of our devotion to God is the service we do for Him.' So be careful when u're dedicated to service, and not devotion, to God Himself. Good service may simply be a form of godliness, but yet behind all the hype, could lie a person denying the Holy Ghost and Power.
Ok, enough talk. I should bring all my thoughts to God instead [so as to cut this short as well]. Strange dat I got so much to rant abt here, yet when it comes down to seeking God these days... my mind sometimes juz blanks out.
'God, pls draw me back to You once again. Captivate my heart; reveal to me ur glory, dat I may be reminded of how awesome You really are. Let dat be a starting pt. of revival in my spirit to devote myself to u more and more on a daily, so dat when the world's eyes are on me, they'll see more of You, and yet less of me. I ask of You humbly, in Jesus Name... Amen.'
Juz wanna share a few vids I found on the net. Forgive me if you detest hip hop, but this is gd... and different from the secular stuff you hear.
This one's a lil' loud, so you may wanna turn down ur vol. a lil' if u're viewing this late @ nite.
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
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