Monday, January 30, 2006 || Blessing§ to Burden§
- I've been seeing red throughout the entire of this past wk. Either I've been extremely frustrated w/ sch work, or its juz the notion of the CNY this period.
Anyhoo... I've been really bogged dwn by sch work. Thnk God I found time to relax this wk, esp. w/ the dawning of the much needed Lunar New Yr. break. More imptly, I was able to spend more time w/ God.
Speaking abt pryer, I'm really motivated by EFC's (shld I say the elite?) prayer warriors to involve myself more in grp prayer, although I hardly meet-up w/ em' to do so. Hehz. PTL, I went for one recently and could really felt he presence of God saturate the meeting place. Really grateful for such wonderful peeps in Christ, and I believe God is gng to work great and mighty things through us as we pray.
I could see a few prayers ans'd as I did my 'bai nian' this wk. My auntie on my mum's side actually broke dwn when she saw me and my sis. She even speaks differently, complaining less abt her life and how trying it is to live. My mum says it's becuz she has no peace. I'd prefer to see it as God workin' smth out in her spirit. PTL! Once again, the beattitude of James 5:16. Woot! My cousins were oso less difficult to deal w/ this time rnd when I visited them. Got many more ang-baos, and though I collected slightly lesser than my sis [it's the same every yr. becuz I'm always more focused in interacting w/ my cousins], I consider it God's blessings to haf such rich relatives and selfless Christian elders. And I mean it in a gd way.
Lol.
I will admit that I gave in to certain temptations, that being mostly of gaming along w/ my cousins, who r addicted to video games. Guess I've quite some way to go b4 I become a total spirutal Nazarithe for Christ. God help me.
Devon and I haf been really burdened by the spiritual condition of my G12 members. Many of them r very far away from God rite now, not juz in terms of commitment. Smtimes, it becomes v. difficult to encourage them to come, and thr's a very fine line between push and shove nowadays when I try to follow up on em'. I did mention I wld take drastic measures, so I'm turning to fasting beginging tmr. I believe its a step closer to uniting the G12 together, smthing I believe both me and Dev haf overlooked for a v. long time alrdy. Pls keep us in prayer. I haf faith our G12 Certification will come yr., not juz physically, but spiritually as well. Why spiritually? I want my members to consist of genuine believers, not lukewarm Christians. Its juz like Jesus in John 6:60. When he delivered hard teaching, many couldn't accept it and deserted him. I believe its oso a rhema to me when I reached the conclusion: Jesus still ended up w/ the 12 disciples he had CHOSEN. Its time to start gettin' picky, but I wun cease soul-winning, but if thr's anyth. I wanna accomplish in this time of fasting is spiritual growth, above all things, in my G12 b4 we get certified. No use gettin' certification yet havin' dry bones amongst my grp. I pray the Holy Spirit will lead me to disciple those who r willing to seek God's will, not theirs.
It's a Godly jealousy ppl. Pls dun be stumbled.
Headed dwn to Changi Broadwalk this afternoon for a leisurely walk w/ my family. Initially I was reluctant to, since I had a great deal of work yet to be completed, but I figured it'd be no harm to get a lil' gd ol' sea breeze. Felt v. refreshed after the entire outing. Praise God for day-time beach convection.
Will be headin' over to Aunty Jenn's place tmr for grp prayer once again. Yehaw! Let's move heaven and earth once again, my bros' and sis' in Christ. Looks like its cheong time for my homewrk tmr morning, but believe God will bless as I sacrifice my time in faith!
Dats all for now. And do give ur opinions on this blog and if thr's anyth. else dat needs changing. Thnx!
Peace out GB~.
Tohster was left alone
on 10:14 pm
Wednesday, January 18, 2006 || ..SaDNeSs...
- I'm gng to make this a rushed post for several reasons:
1. I'm leaving for G12 soon.
2. Last wk was one terrible series of events after another... and so I can't really be bothered to blog abt it.
3. I'm trying to cut down on my com. usage.
I dunnoe wazzup w/ my spirit these days, but I have reason to believe its S.A. Tan himself trying to get me dwn like nvr b4. The overwhelming feeling of lethargy keeps comin over me, and somehow I'm finding it hard to pray, nowadays. Then again, I thank God for His faithfulness (always). W/o Him, I'd probably haf lost every sense of direction this wk, but isn't it true He'll 'nvr leave us nor forsake us'?
Hallejuah!
Was late for 2day's Animation lecture (again). Had to rush dwn on '240'(meaning cab), and get lessons on 'walk cycle' animations. I'm thinking of doin' a strolling Batman for this assignment; hopefully I can do it w/ God's wisdom. Had oso had Typo. lecture, whr we were informed for wat to study for nxt wk's test... which is crap-loads lah! Hahaz. I haven't studied a textbk for ages, and my lecturer's expecting the students to do it in 1 WK! Only the grace of God can help me this time, and I thank God, He nvr fails.
Had oso NYP Open Hse briefing today - 1 1/2 hrs on how to spread sch. propaganda. They were tellin' us how Lucasarts approved of our sch. , we collaborating w/ EA blah blah... Rather boring, but I'll be doin' dat come Fri when I take the sec sch. grads on tour of the campus. Any takers? Hahaz. I'll be @ Blk M, 4th lvl, from 1330hrs to 1800hrs.
Well, dats all I can say for now. Gng off for G12 now, and pls keep me in prayer.
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 5:06 pm
Saturday, January 07, 2006 || **Thanksgiving** - That's my DAD
- 6th January - Dad's B'day. Happy Belated one 2day!
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They say like: "Like father like son."
As I grow older ea. day, I nvr fail to see how God is making me not only more Christ-like, but oso more like my dad in many ways.
Similar Trait no. 1: The relaxed nature my dad and I haf come to deal w/ certain matters. For one, I've nvr been more sarcastic towards pple b4 until recent times. My dad himself has this penchant for running his mouth on entirely sartirical note whenever he gets out of formality. He can let loose if he juz wants to. I think its juz a God-given character, esp. when he brings this into teaching his cell lessons... and its proven to be effective (but he's always reminded not to get out of hand). We've nvr come to an agreement more often than now; w/ him opening up more to my personal, spiritual opinions, and giving me much more freedom. Yeah, @ least he realizes I'm gng on to 18 alrdy.
Similar Trait no.2: We share a liking for certain foods.
(The above is juz an exaggeration.)
Similar Trait no.3: We love the lady in our lives.
My mum dat is. Hahaz. I'm very encouraged by the fact dat my dad, after 26 yrs. of marriage to my mum, is still ever so commited to her. An omen of things (for me) to come? If I ever get married in the first place dat is.
Similar Trait no.4: Strict in discipline. The very reason why I've been raised up under the fear of the Lord. Nevertheless, he always reminds me he had spared me from the rod more often than he did to my sis'. Which is maybe why I'm more prone to do stupid things. Although I dun really take after him in this area, I haf reason to believe in the very near future, I may. After all, I used to be known for being overly serious.
Similar Trait no.5: We love God.
Similar Trait no.6: We love the subject on history.
Above all, I love my dad... and my DAD LOVES ME.
Rock on!
Thank you for: your patience in building me up; for the times when you chastened me cuz it made me a better person; for the hardwork u've put into ur career so dat u can support the family and my education; and most of all, for loving me despite my shortcomings and rebellious attitude, smtimes, towards ur advice.
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"Thank You God for such a wonderful family, and placing such a wonderful guy as the head of the household. Its not cliche when I tell You that You've blessed me w/ the world's greatest dad; one that acknowledges You as the ultimate head of the household. May U bless and preserve my dad for many more yrs. to come for the commitment, sacrifice, and dedication he has shown to caring for us and for serving you wholeheartedly for alrdy, close to, 50 years. Times are gettin' more stressful for him, and I pray U'll keep Him in Ur mercy. As He upholds himself daily in prayer, may U grant Him the peace that passes all understanding as U've promised in Philippians 4:6. May he continue to find favour in Ur eyes, and I pray he that he'll dwell in Ur house forever. In Jesus' Name, I pray, Amen."
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 11:17 am
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 || =Challenged=&=Blessed=
- Happy New Year every1!
The new year has opened for me w/ many tests set by God, primarily tests on integrity.
Thank God for Pastor Lim's sermon on Sunday abt renewing our minds and visions for the new year, a msg taken directly off from 'The 4th Dimension', and it was a definite reminder not just on the lessons I've gained from reading that book, but also... that I've been slacked in reading the book. Hahaz. It seems every1 is reading it now: Josh, Dixon... even Ken. Eek!... Better get dwn to studying it again.
My integrity was put to the test immediately on Mon' afternoon while I was doin' my Digi. Imagery assignment. I knew deep in my heart that I had not taken any camera photos, and having to do a write-up on the various sources I used to create my designs, I was tempted to fake some extracted images from the internet and label them as my own. You see, I was tempted to do that cuz the assignment required us to utilize images from various devices to design an image on a star idol (it was alrdy wrong to do such a poster in the 1st place), and one pic. has to come from our digi-cams taken ON OUR OWN. Thankfully, Walter conversed w/ me on MSN Msger, and we were both in the same predicament: whether or not to compromise on our integrity. Eventually, I got so frustrated w/ it that I went to seek God, and He brought out this verse out so clearly so me: 'Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men. (Ep 6:7)' That really humbled me, and I took to being honest in my write-up, despite knowing I'll get penalised, but ultimately Glory be to God. At least I kept my testimony b4 Him.
2day was another testing: my animation test. A test I hardly studied for. When the paper reached my hands, I was given once again a choice to compromise or to stand up for wat's rite, as 2 of my classmates sat beside me. Yep... I was obviously being tempted to copy, although I was sitting in the middle of row of the lecture hall. Thnk God for his leading, cuz I eventually finsed the test w/o copying any of my classmates' work. PTL. Well, let's hope my results do turn out well, but even if they dun, its God who muz get the Glory still.
My class is gng to get a class jersey incoporated w/ a devil's logo in front, and I've made my mind up - not gng to purchase it.
Hallejuah!
I've really been challenged this wk to make radical changes in my Godly pursuits, smth which I had asked God to help me with, come this new yr, seeing that many other bros' and sis' in Christ oso wanna take a turn for greater Godly jealousy, and the church giving a revamp to its youth programme. Really blessed by the fact that His grace is sufficient enough for me (and for many who are being tested out thr), and that more and more rhema's comin' to me from His Word daily. Juz ytd nite, I was taken (somehow) to this website to play a game. I was oblivious to the game's nature, and eventually, after finsing the game, this grisly pic. of a freak popped out on my screen. I held back from hollering, since it was alrdy 11p.m. at the time I viewed it. I took some water to calm myself dwn, but that demonic face kept appearing in my mind thereafter (I've gotten such nonsense b4 and the same thing always happens to me). I prayed so hard at my computer dat I started trembling and my mum thought I had fits. Hahaz. Thank God he reminded me of wat Pastor Marion said in her sermon: 'There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (1 John 4:18)' Dat nite I manage to sleep peacefully thnx to His Word once again!
Thnk God the injury on my elbow's healing, and still is, but the concern now is my elbow joint whether it has been knocked out of place cuz the bone's hurting more than ever. And, due to lack of my left arm usage, my left shoulder has gone stiff as well. Miraculously still managed to commit to the Chingay project this wk (and we finally got tix to the event. Woot!). Pls continue to keep me in prayer for complete healing now. Other than that pesky ailment, everything went well this wk, maybe becuz God needs me to pray for other pple who are in need, and to help them out. Can't expect a crippled man to help another. Hope God lifts up their spirits this wk.
"Thank You God for helping me kickstart my New Year on a gd note. Your grace truly is sufficient enough for us! Pls make it known to those who r being tested, suffering and losing perseverance this wk. Lift their spirits up and meet their needs that they may noe dat You r still God and You r, and always will, be in control. In Jesus' name... Amen."
Managed to hook onto this Christian hip-hop internet radio juz ytd (www.beatmart.com). Finally... a genre of music which I like. Hip-hop and R&B has always been my preferred type of music. So Thnk God for filling my innate musical needs. LOL. Will be sharin' later @ G12. May God's wisdom be w/ me once again. Woot! (And praying hard for thr to be 12 souls in attendance.)
Peace out & GB.
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