Saturday, August 27, 2005 || Another post of my daily life cuz I've got nothing much to say and I'm juz so physically NUMB ALL OVER
- I juz came back from Heart.Sports, whr we had a 2ble victory. Gd things do come in pairs, and to God be Glory for the blessings.
Ok, I'll try to recall wat has happened over the past few days, but my mem's failing me like nvr b4. Recent Monday was a return to sch (duh), but w/ a twist: we had our last Colour Theory lecture, whr I kept dosing off cuz the previous night I was suppose to photocopy my thumbnail sketches for Creative Process assignment, and only remebered it last min, so I had to figure out how to use my personal scanner. By the time I actually grasp the mechanism of a 3-in-1, it was alrdy 1.00 (I started like @ 12). I had to read the Bible later as well, drawing me further away from my late slumber. Thankfully, its nvr a bore reading the Word of God, cuz thr's so many things u can learn (but I admit I was still so worn out @ the end the whole thing). Managed to minister to this classmate of mine called Kingston, who stood a 50-50 chance of comin' to Fri's 'Who Am I' special event @ HOF. Praise and thank God for dat.
Tuesday had juz one U-Media tutorial required for me to attend. So I practically spent my entire afternoon (which was b4 U-Media) figuring out how to utilize Photoshop 7.0. Its quite an achievement once u've gained a basic mastery of it. For me, I had no choice but to learn it so I could do my card design for Des. Fundamentals. Studied some comm. skills, got addicted to Reuben Morgan's All I Am... and yeah the daily works.
Come Wed was G12. A fairly short but powerful lesson on God's commandment to us to serve him. As Christians, service is not an option, or smth we can fit in our schedules if we haf time to spare. It is wat we've been created, saved, called, and commanded for. As Christians, we all haf a part to play in the church, even if u're not in any ministry. Thank God for using me again to teach. It such a joy to teach, even though the lesson was short.
Thurs was free day (as ususal). Woke up early to work on Photoshop 7.0 (courtesy of Walter) for my assignment. I didn't expect myself to go all the way into the afternoon juz working on the program, and was dying to get some entertaniment midway, so I played GunZ for like 1/2 AN HOUR only b4 gettin' back on task! Hahaz, well managed to pull through with the help of the Holy Spirit,a dn through chatting w/ a few peepz on my Msger.
Fri was a special day cuz my fren Kingston was confirmed comin for HOF! And oso... an hr. b4 I left for sch, God told me to seek Him in solace. I thought I was gonna be late, but God's calling was more impt. So i smsed a few pple to pray along w/ me, and Praise God, dat nite, souls filled the Providence! God is gd, Hallejuah. So blessed by the msg on being a true to the pple arnd us, and as Christians, not to live a life of bad testimony, but oso to be a person of character and integrity, even when no one is looking. Praise God for Kingston being touched. I dunnoe whether it was the Holy Spirit or the music, but I praise God dat he now believes in the true and the living God. So overjoyed, and so amazed by God's grace even through simply obedience!
Now one thing's for sure... I'm still being stressed out by final assignments, and God's prophetic word upon my life is revealing itself. "O God, I pray dat u will pull me thru."
I'm so tired dat I shan't continue anymore. I'll elaborate Sat's maybe in another later post.
~Peace out & Gd Nite~
P.S. PLS CONTINUE TO TAG THIS NIFTY BLOG THOUGH SOMETIMES I JUZ CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO END OFF A POST WELL... (*spastic*)
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Monday, August 22, 2005 || ×?No Way Out?×
- Being caught up is one thing. To be troubled by the fact dat God has placed u in smth dat will later proof contrary to His Word is a whole other new problem.
I've been recently troubled by my course itself. DMD is no doubt an arts course, and it sometimes kills me havin' to conceive different designs every single wk. I dun mind dat, cuz I noe I'm working towards something dat I've wanted to do for sometime alrdy. Or rather... ONE of those things.
The complication?
If I'm to enter into a local university, I would haf to take the Bachelor of Fine Arts program, and dat would mean oso havin to take up... dun gross out now... nude drawing! I'm being frank here. However, I haven't really clarified this doubt yet, but u can bet I'm concerned, although its hearsay. Does dat mean God wants me to stop my education @ Diploma lvl? My parents aren't willing to spend yet another BOMB on me going overseas to study. Or does He haf another way out for me in furthering my education? I shan't question The Creator anymore (arghh). His plans will be perfect in time to come. Not my will, but His.
Dat brings me to the sermon preached ytd by Pastor Dale on 'The Quality of Our Faith'. For the sermon summary go to Josh's blog which I've linked in the column on the left. Praise God! I got a revelation! God wants me to take my faith a step further, but He mentioned dat in dayz to come, I will haf to face many challenges so dat my faith can rise up. At dat moment, I dunnoe whether actually to thank Him or not. God's reply? "To become , you muz overcome..." Ok it was smth along those lines, but Praise God he's gonna raise me up again. May my sufffering glorify the name of Jesus Christ, whom He himself suffered for our iniquities!
Well, u bet things today didn't turn out the way they shld. Waking up like a zombie (I slept only for 5 hrs due to assignments); my card mock-up got rejected; my teacher lecturing my entire class dat we shldn't been lazy in doin our visual journals (extra work now added onto my increasingly complexed assignments). Life could be worse though. May faith in God pull me thru.
To top this off, I'd like to say God has nvr left me alone though. His assurance: the Ramah I received from reading Genesis today.
Genesis 7:13-16 - "On that very day Noah and his sons, Shem Ham and Japeth, together with his wife and the wives of his three sons, entered the ark. They had with them every wild animal according to its kind, every livestock according to their kinds, every creature dat moves along the ground according to its kind sand every bird according to its kind, everything with wings. Pairs of all creatures that have the breath of life in them in them came to Noah and entered the ark. The animals going in were male and female of every living thing, as God had commanded Noah. Then the Lord shut him in."
The significance: Many have wondered how this animal kingdom roundup happened. Did Noah and his son spend years collecting all the animals? In reality the creation, along with Noah, was doing just as God commanded. There seemed to be no problem gathering the animals - God took care of the details of dat job while Noah was doin' his part by building the ark. Often we do juz the opposite of Noah. We worry about details over which we have no control, while neglecting specific areas (such as attitudes, relationships, responsibilities) dat are under our control. Like Noah, concentrate on wat God has given you to do, and leave the rest to God.
(Adapted from The Life Application Bible, NIV)
Praise God! He will never leave those who trust in Him alone
Peace out and GB.
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Sunday, August 21, 2005 || So±CAUGHT±Up
- Even as I'm writing up this post, Singapore's 3rd PM, Mr. Lee Hsien Loong is delivering his NDR, which is the 2nd time he's actually doing it. Wats the big deal? Juz wanna let ya'll noe I DEFINITELY prefer Goh Chok Tong standing @ the podium delivering a well-versed vision.
Juz kidding.
Mr. Lee is one of the signs dat represent how far God's soverignty has taken us, Singaporeans, and Singapore, this small little city, this far. So really thank God for this government whom He has enabled to lead Singapore. Dat is why the Bible mentions dat we shld not oppose the government, for a government would not haf been chosen if it was not appointed by God Himself (Romans 13).
Ok, enough of the Rally and onto my diary. Past few days haf been extremely busy with my assignments this past wk, although they were seemingly easier to handle compared to the first few dat were handed out @ the start of my course year. This, FYI, is mainly the reason why I've idled online on my MSN Messenger many a times this wk, w/o actually talking to my contacts. This wk itself I feel rather unmotivated to actually speak my mind out, and its oso a gd thing cuz the only person I could really converse to during this wk was The Almighty God. God didn't tone the pace down though. "Its character development," He says. Many a times we receive new assignments, and complain. Why not we commit it to God? U'd be surprised how he will enable u to work better instead of work LESSER (in other words... slack...).
Friday was Drawing class again, and Edward, a special admissions student who was initially assigned to our class, rejoined us, due to some screw up in his story-boarding module. Boy... is he gd @ drawing manz! Hahaz. Went home, shagged (as ususal), but den rmbed got HOF to attend, and dat nite's topic was so satisfiying I tell you. The msg was abt "Joshua Did not Fight the Battle fo Jericho", and abt God havin' alrdy defeated the problems (the 'Jericho') in our life, but all He needs is obedience from us. Oso learnt dat in the midst of blessing, thr lurk temptation, which is why the taking of Jericho, in The Bible, was toned down in comparison to the commands given to the Israelites b4 they took the city. How important it is to keep our guard up in even in the 'springtime' of our lives!
Sat' was back to Heart.Sports. Praise God my region's advancing into the finals for both Captain's Ball and Super Captain's Ball. However, our gameplay simply crumbled in the 2nd half for SCB. Ok, more like... our DEFENSE was left in shambles! Didn't noe why dat happened, but God definitely had part to play in this error in our strategy. Not blamin' God, but probably He wants to chasten us b4 the finals when we face the mighty Caspian Rays?
Haiz... so many things... so lil' time. Only God noes the things to come. One things for sure... CGI Trip to Korea in 50 days. Looking forward to dat, and hopefully my mind will be less clogged up w/ work den to receive spiritual refreshment.
Peace out and GB!
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005 || ll^*^GLoRy-DeFinED^*^ll
- God is good! He's slowly removin' my worldly desires gradually, although its not really visible to the human mind. Thnk God though, cuz I finally can sense my life takin' direction again through the Lord Almighty.
B4 I blabber on abt my personal persepctives, juz wanna let the B-11ths noe dat I've updated the class blog w/ some wholesomeness b4 virtual 'cob'webs and mildew obsolete the beautifully designed structure of OUR humble, internet abode.
Hope dat wasn't too flowery for ya'll.
Anyway, life's takin' a turn for the better. Still, Sunday was another humbling experience b4 God, as Pastor Lim continued his msg on the dry bones, which lead to him talking abt the Holy Spirit the Helper. How did dat minister to me? True, I gave glory to God whenever I did my assignments, but one thing was this: I relied on my own human strength rather than calling on the Holy Spirit. A truely prophetic revelation I muz say. Sometimes we become so caught up w/ trying to finish the task @ hand until we loose focus on who we are relying on. Thnk God for His conviction.
Returned to sch on Mon, only to receive more orders to modify my various module assignments. Went home physically worn out, but recalling the msg the day b4, I turned to the Holy Spirit. Waddaya noe! I managed to pull through till midnite... which may not haf been a gd thing, but @ least my desire to complete much of my work was answered.
Nxt day (Tues)... haiz... disasterous! Went to sch late, cuz I thought comm. skills was to start @ 2.00p.m instead of 12.00p.m.! Thnk God it was juz revision for my up-and-comin' comm. skills exam. O yeah... it was oso the last lesson for comm. skills! Woot! My Tuesdays are shortened alrdy. Anyway, I felt bad abt it though, despite consolations from my teacher, whom I hope was willing enough to put my name down in attendance... which is in the least likely of nature to happen. Dat was the 1st mistake. The 2nd one came after my last lesson of the day: went to the Grinning Gecko and bought a sandwich; HUGE one cuz was feelin' hungry, no discerning dat I had dinner @ home later. Anyway, to cut the whole story short, I went through several hrs of excruciating stomach pain (again), and of course was brought to the docor's for a anti-vomitting jab to soften the contraction. Haiz... made my parents quarrel w/ one another over my affliction. Thnk God they reconciled the nxt day.
Wed: My pain, miraculously dissapitated. Went to sch early in the morning for lessons as usual. Came back, did some Creative Process colouring, den went for G12, whr a powerful lesson on Takin' Our Assignment was taught by Devon. It went down abt how God has a ministry for all of us, and all of us are crucial in the Body of Christ. Juz a lil' suggestion to the msg here: if u're attending church but not doin' anything, den u're nothing but a tumour which hampers the growth, or the actions, of the Body. All of us, as such, haf a ministry in chruch. It is not juz for the pastors, for the leaders, or the teachers etc. to take up such tasks as winning souls. As servants of God, we are ALL called for this purpose, cuz the ultimate purpose of the church is souls. Dun be the oxymoron of an unserving Christian! Prayer Request and testimonies followed, den came fellowship, whr Lionel approached me abt his problem of hatred. Shan't reveal wat it is cuz its confidential, but really, really Praise and Thnk God for giving him the courage to tackle the problem in faith! Hallejuah! God is slowly, but surely, moving.
Kudos to Josh, who later spoke to me abt Aggressive Christianity while we were travelling back home w/ Walter. Said smth stumbling by accident. Hahaz, Thnkfully Josh was thr to correct me in the nick of time. Its gd to fellowship w/ Godly pple.
Prayer of the post: "God, help me to rely on the Holy Spirit more often, dat I may truley edify u in all areas, big or small, short or tall. Dat I will not be so blur and stumble others, but w/ all consciousness of The Helper in my heart, help me to be a gd testimony to my frens and the pple arnd me."
Dat ends this post. Gonna do some hand, feet drawing for my Friday classes this wk. Hope today's msg inspired smth in ya'll peepz readin' this. Peace out and GB!
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005 || ~~~~God, My Complacency Is...
- Arghh! A strong lesson from God this wk concerning my spiritual aspect. Sometimes too much blessings = too much COMPLACENCY!!!
Ow! Woke up on Mon morning with a tinge of flu (which would later would become full blown in the afternoon). As if dat wasn't enough, I had a whole day of lessons and lectures to go thru'! (Note: Periods stretched from 9.00a.m. to 4.15p.m.), plus Praying Thru' later in the evening. So, yeah God sorta spoke to me, tellin' me dat I've been resting on my laurels for too long alrdy. Wonder why he blessed me in e 1st place. Hmmm.... God's faithful even when we're not!
How true dat I've not been as compassionate for souls as b4, and God had to reveal dat to me thru' a illness once again! Anyhow, He told me dat he allowed this to happen to chasten me becuz I've been slacked in reaching out to souls, lacking in compassion for em'. However, the chastisment sure did serve to humble me for the Praying Thru' dat evening. Boy, did I feel God's presence in full force! Hallejuah! Cried tearfuls, and really experienced God' special touch. I was so stunned; w/ God speaking to me through my suffering. It really speaks a lot abt how God works: he doesnt look @ the superficial but @ the spirit. "God rejects the proud, but giveth grace to the humble."
Maybe God made me sick so I could be more on fire for him. Hahaz... God sure does the ridiculous, but His plan always falls into place. Maybe my proclaimations of being on fire for him earlier on may not be genuine. For sure, now, I am. Its now a matter of how long the fire will burn, and I really pray God will help me keep it up as well.
Praise and Thnk God tho' 2day he healed me partially, and I managed to deliver God's msg 2nite (for my G12) still w/ much annointing, despite havin' butterflies in my stomach upon the 12 member strong fellowship on this very nite (much thnks oso to Kirk and Jasmine's visitation)! Hallejuah! Can finally see God' strong hand upon this G12.
Wat more can I say. It seems God is takin' more presidence(wrong spelling?) in my life. My daily life seems to be gettin' more and more centered around God. I hardly listen to worldly music anymore, I'm readin' the Bible more, and prayin' ever more fervently. All thnks to God's touch.
Thnks to Jia Min oso for prayin' for my flu. God Bless U, sista'! You've got a Godly 'virus'! Contagious when u pray!
Many thnks to Hougang 5 G12 oso. I've nvr said this b4, but all of u (Devon, Josh, Wen Yi, Wei Sheng, Walter, Lionel, Wei Hoong, Dennis), and in no particular ranking at all, haf been a blessing to me in more ways than one, and I pray dat God will bless you all in return - overflowing! May u shine as Christ's ambassadors wherever ya'll are.
"I noe life's not gonna be a bed of roses when I serve You, nor is it gonna be smooth-sailing all the way. But, I have chosen this narrow and winded path becuz I noe You are the true and living God, and no other gods like you. I dun ask for much, but wat I ask is for Your wisdom and guidance to walk this way; to do the things dat pls You. As I turn my back on the world one step @ a time, and focus my eyes on u, I noe dat Lord You will bring me thru' all trials and temptations, becuz Your word says dat 'You will be w/ us, even to the ends of the world'. When I'm tested me, help me to trust in You. When You test me, may I walk by faith in You! Lord, this is prayer. Make it my strong desire."
Peace out and GB!
B4 I forget... ITS SINGAPORE'S 40th B'DAY TODAY. So HAPPY B'DAY SINGAPORE! God Bless the nation.
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Sunday, August 07, 2005 || +==BLESSED==+
- This post is specially dedicated to my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, who's special touch I've experienced with more prevalence over the past few days. U may call it a personal REVIVAL.
The Bible says: "The joy of the Lord is my strength." How true this is when we learn to take hold of His promises. Life truely will be like this blog topic mentions. I mean... it's a peace that passes all understanding, justified far beyond wat words can describe.
However, when we experience more of God, we experience more of spritual warfare, cuz the Devil a.k.a S.A. Tan will wanna rob us of this touch. Dats rite, my life is expriencing spiritual warfare RITE NOW. Its juz like wat God told the Apostle Paul (then called Saul): "You will have to suffer many things for My Name". Still, we gotta to keep movin, walking by faith not by sight.
A recent instance of a challenge to my faith: Anger, when it comes to competition. In ytd's Heart.Sports (which is my church's sports section that takes place every Sat.), I was cheesed-off by remarks made by a fellow church member who gave extreme, negative remarks on my team's performance. (We were playing Super Captain's Ball, an experimental game conjured up by our church). This team member was from the opposing team (obviously...). Anger completely overwhelmed my heart there and then, and I started wishing for the other team to lose. Juz then Lord Jesus spoke to me in a still, small voice, and I was stunned. He said: "why do u habour these thoughts against ur brother? If smth like dat were to be spouted by your a fellow team-mate, do u think u would want me to stop ur team from winning?" How naive of me to think dat none in my team had such a discouraging spirit. As soon as happened, a new church member in the substitute stands ( whr I was standing in) spouted a bad word! I shan't expose wat vulgarity it was, but at dat moment, I really asked God for forgiveness.
Its in times like these dat we haf to be careful not to throw away our testimony. The Bible says dat in the last days, "Brother will turn against brother", and dat does not exclude us Christians. I encourage all of my bros' and sistas' in Christ readin' this... DUN THROW AWAY UR TESTIMONY WATEVER THE COST. U may think its easy for me to say this rite now, but the truth is, it isn't. I could haf easily, spouted smth foul back in response to dat church member's comments!
Peepz out there, wat spirit do u carry w/ u today? Carry a spirit of encouragement, no matter who or wat entity u believe in. I believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and He came here not to judge the world, but to save it.
We are blessed for a reason, so dat we can bless others in return.
Peace out and GB!
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