Monday, September 25, 2006 || |-|/-\R[)|=A(TS
- Yoz Samuel... welcome to the School of HARD KNOCKS.
Ok, I received my 1st sem results alrdy... and I FAILED 2 MODS! Rite... I was half-expecting it, since I wasn't really motivated to complete certain of my projects, even tho' I kept up late nites juz trying to figure out ActionScript 8.0, and most of the time... I never resolved to completely comprehend it.
Well... guess it's NS one yr. later. It's not dat bad after all. Seriously, though, seeing 2 F's on my report was pretty demoralising. At least my GPA was 2.3, matching to many who juz scraped thru' as well [thank God for my 3D Modelling B-grade]. Bad thing is... I've to graduate one yr. later. Less opportunites, less time to learn more things b4 I start aging.
I've juz begun work @ this advertising agency Dynamic Asia. Alot of unity in the company thr, and almost all the staff thr are youths. Cool ain't it? I think God was leading me into this type of work basically also to get me to realise how privillaged I am to be studying, cuz, to be frank... no job is easy. Well... @ least not as easy as studies. So 2day I had to create an awareness for charity along w/ a grp of team-mates by encouraging donations from pple. We gif em a charity postcard in return. Honestly speaking, I think it's tough to sell $10 cards for charity donations; really not worth the money, esp. when u can get it free outside [quoted by one of the ladies I approached]. For the first time, I felt the sting of being rejected by pple... it's downright frustrating if u ask me. Can imagine the feelings of how those other charity fundraisers approached me in the past... and I didn't gif em' a single cent [not dat I've never given to charity @ all].
Well, for most of the more experienced pple working w/ me, they did relatively better... of course. I heard someone else dispatched @ another area received 75 dontions, equivalent to $150 in juz one day! Looks like I've got a loooooooooooong way to go b4 I acheive smthing like dat. At least I was commended for my gd effort for receiving 11 donations on my first day @ work. Others couldn't even fins half of one book.
Glory be to God.
Yesh... tmr I'll be heading back to work, tho' it may juz kill my partially-flat foot. Boss says I'll get used to it no matter wat. Time to start trainning for hardcore shopping, esp. since Christmas is juz a few mths down the road. I wun really noe whr I'll be assigned to tmr, so dun bother trying to figure out how to help me. Surprisingly, I met a few Bartleyans while I was gng arnd Bras Basah Complex i.e. Tan K.C., Jasmine etc.
They didn't contribute anyway... lolz.
Life sure demands alot more from u as maturity catches up. I'm sure God is preparing for greater things... not dat I'm boasting. I thr's one thing I've learnt from all my foolish ways in the past it's dat God breaks a man b4 he makes a man. And, boy, do I haf much to learn [no pun intended]. Staying true to Pastor Chui's sermon on Sunday, I simply can't help but sympathize w/ King Solomon. Truly, wateva man strives for is in vain. One day, riches and materialism will all be folded into a garment, and the only one who will truly be rich is the one who has built up his treasures in heaven.
God wants to bless us w/ more material things, but it's all to bring us to a realisation dat we need to gif back God even more, in time, energy, tithes etc. May even the life of mine be one of serving the Lord w/ all my heart, and obeying His commnds, for truly, dats the whole duty of man. Imagine the whole world resting simply on dat one duty... how much less stressful life would be.
"God... help me to focus on heaven's treasure -building. Even bring me back to the discipline I once had settled upon for my studies and education. As King Solomon proclaimed: 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto thy own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.' How tough it is to acknowledge u in everything, esp. when we are busy trying to build ourselves up in every area. We want health, we oso want wealth. Sometimes I wonder about Your tolerance for man. Yet, Your heart will not contend w/ man forever. Help me, thus, to recognise Your unfailing grace and mercy upon my life thus far, preserving me thru the seasons. As I lean upon u, teach and guide me to build the rite treasures, which above all, is treasures in heaven i.e. fruits of the Spirit, discipline, holiness, righteousness... and not least... souls. I pray all these in Jesus' most wonderful name... Amen."
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 10:28 pm
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 || IWANTTOBREAKFREE!!!
- Arghhh...
The boredom's seriously sappin' me dry.
The only thing dat really excites me [in a negative manner] these days is simply the not-so-friendly, neighbourhood, flying cockroach dat ends up in my toilet every nite, and I get a 'kick' out of gasing it w/ a few shots of Sheltox, which is normally done in defense for my own hygiene's sake.
My dad's biblically correct: God gave us dominance over animals... so why should I fear them. I mean... it's tough to strike down a pesky lil' pest upfront really, even though we're like having a whole lotta' physical advantage over them. Maybe I can tame the household gecko, but roaches... maybe after NS when they've really hardened me up.
Anyway, I didn't really spend the whole day @ home ytd since I was @ Sentosa w/ Stan, Adrian, Andrea, Linda and Ming Yi [Linda's bf'] for @ least the earlier part of 9/11 [forgive me for the deliberate mention... planes only flew over us]. Yeah, u probably haven't heard of these peepz, and I hardly make mention of them myself. Anyway, we did some suntanning, and for the first-time, I got no sunburn. Cool ain't it? Thnx to Stan's banana-cake fragrance suntan oil - really smelt like one. Played this sea-jostling game, whr one player becomes the 'horse', and the other, a 'knight'... yeah... and u're suppose to knock [via push/pull] the other 'knights' off their 'horses'. FYI, the 'horses' piggy-back the 'knights', and since everyone was a 'horse' or a 'knight' @ one pt. or another, we were all kinda knocked out after the game was over. LOL.
Hit the showers w/ red spots all over my body, den it was off to Sakae Sushi for a sumptous buffet. Ate a whooping 50 over plates, I think, which actually, isn't quite a feat for a group of 8. I was down by my 11th. Left for Dhoby Ghaut w/ the gang b4 we parted ways, they to watch movie and me to go home w/ some $2 Takoyaki balls[finally... some worth eating], dead beat.
For once... I slept @ 10 p.m. ytd, a first ever since my pri. sch days.
Ok... sounds mundane but it was a comparably exciting outing as opposed to rotting @ home.
I finally managed to get the Freaked! album 2day from Life Bookshop @ Tampines, since Stan wanted to collect his dad's repaired HP from thr, and got me along 'cuz it's awkward doing stuff alone'. Guess he's more sociable than I thought. Anyway, I managed to share some of my Christian faith w/ him, along w/ a Chick tract, and pray he will open up his heart soon.
BTW, Freaked! is a 7/10 album for me. In my opinion, get it if u really juz need to hear something different. Other than dat, DC Talk fans may find it a lil'... um... disturbing. And I mean really disturbing [remixes].
I really dun understand why I haf to do this @ 3.30 a.m. Juz felt like it.
God is still gd, no matter wat. Only he can give me freedom, even while stuck in my household half the time.
Peace out & GB.
*zonk*!
Tohster was left alone
on 3:00 am
Sunday, September 10, 2006 || Blog's 2nd Anniversary
- Yeah, like any1 would care these days. My blog seems to haf less entrants as the days go by. Anyway, bloggin' is a gd past-time no matter wat - provided it's conducted in a civilised manner.
I couldn't haf picked a more timely date to start an online journal, juz a day b4 the anniversary of 9/11. I always keep mistaking it as 'the day which will live in infamy', and juz in case u've been hibernating under a rock for the past 7 decades, dat was the famous Roosevelt phrase made after the Pearl Habour attack.
I juz getting it straight here so I wun mix it up again...
It's unbelievable juz looking back @ the events of dat sinister attack which brought down the world's tallest monuments in juz an hour. All it took was juz one man w/ an Ak-47 b4 the cameras, 2 planes, and a handful of madmen. Shows wat genuine faith actually can do, except for these pple... they've done it genuinely wrong.
Anyway... I've got this intriguing video which I was hooked onto last yr. Long one, but worth watching.
Discretion: this video is juz the opinion of a few pple who seriously haf nothing better to do. It's up to u whether u believe them or not (though most of the statements seem to be valid).
As far as I'm concerned, I'm neutral.
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7866929448192753501&q=loose+change
I'm not going to get all gloomy here hahaz.
2day Pastor Lim delivered, once again, a hard-hittin' msg from the pulpit based on Joshua 9. Simple yet effective sermon on seeking the counsel of God first and always, especially, as he mentioned, w/ God about to bless Singapore in times to come. All the more we should not be complacent as the children of God, and rely on secular experts rather than the Almighty.
It's true. Sometimes even when I seek God's will, it's so easy to say I want his will, but in our hearts, we desire none of dat. We may not be like Pharoh who exclaimed in Exodus: "who's the Lord that I should obey Him?" Deep in our hearts, we may even be mumbling w/ dat same phrase.
I think it's also high-time for me to start seeking wat's really God's will in my life, esp. after all dat has happened recently pertaining to my educational path. I mean... I've juz had enough of changing paths time and again. 2day was one message dat was definitely for me.
Ok... it's gettin' late. My initial idea was to sum up the events of the past 2 days, which basically are:
1. I'm going to apply for a job at a Shi Lin outlet. You know... the franchise that sells the big XXL Chicken and stuff. Hahaz. Hoping to get dat job since it's kinda basic, and wun require much cooking skill.
2. I'll be heading to Sentosa tmr with some poly-mates! Woot!
All in the name of my blog's 2nd anniversary. Who noes how long it will last. Not even I dare assume.
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 12:38 pm
Thursday, September 07, 2006 || [St/-\|\|G(-] LiBerty
- Haf u ever been so busy for a period of time dat when u finally break free of all dat hustle & bustle, I find it tough to get used to the boredom which begins creeping into your life thereafter?
I haf. I'm experiencing dat rite now...
Ok... I mean... I do spend time w/ God everyday, keep myself busy w/ some light reading (I used to like reading alot... haiz), and aimlessly surfing the net. Yeah... I did mention to my peepz dat I'll be finding a job and building up my portfolio at the same time during these hols. Just wanna make a simple plea here...
IF YOU GOT ANY JOB LOBANGS DO NOT HESITATE TO INTRO' ME TO THEM! Um... but no service jobs lahz (as in those returaunt kinda jobs ya' noe), cuz I'm seriously not cut for them, unless you want me smashing some china-ware and stuffs (which I'm sure you wouldn't want to). Muahahaha!
Anw, I'd love to get a job (can't believe I'm saying this), since it'd be something nice to keep me occupied for a while. May God bless me w/ some office job. It'll be gd. Hahaz.
I wound up making many frens during Studio Project 3 somehow, some of which I've become quite close too. Cool ain't it? Well, I never considered myself as sociable compared to normal pple, but hey, I guess God does bless us w/ frens when we need them, i.e. in times of boredom. LOL.
Anw, I went out w/ some of them ytd and it was hilarious alrite. I'm really looking forward to the Sentosa trip w/ them on Mon. Guys... if ya'll gng out pls inform me! I need some fresh air!
PTL. Ytd's F4(Family, Faith, Food and Fun Night) was terrific, even tho' I came late :P. I was kinda distracted w/ the high noise level, but thank God for the many souls saved! Hallelujah! Truely it's not emotion nor atmosphere, but the Holy Spirit at work. Stanley couldn't make it due to some karaoke session he had arranged earlier, but @ least he'll be comin' for the movie screening tmr @ HOF. Yeah! The Second Chance had some pretty gd reviews according to some internet sources I read recently. May thr be a great demonstration of God's Spirit and Power once again!
BTW... if you consider yourself a Christian, I suggest you dun watch this phenomenon called 'Hard Gay' (or 'Hardo-Gay'... wateva it's called). IF u haf, dun spread it. Shall we partake of something God has clearly condemned as an abomination?
Legalism? Think about it.
So being free isn't dat gd as it seems after all. But... hey... I think I need to chill. Best to spend more time w/ God. Amen?
Peace out and GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 10:55 pm
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