Tuesday, June 20, 2006 || \\/\//()rRy-|\\//|(-'-(/)oT
- The 1st wk of the term break has passed by so swiftly, and by the grace of God, he has brought me through w/ some of my homework done. Authoring assignment still bugs me though.
Haf been listening to many sermons which really encouraged me to push forward in the course I'm in. I've learnt one thing through all of this: God doesn't need us to excel in everything we do, but merely juz to do our best, and he will take care of the rest. The scriptures brought me some form of edification when I read this portion:
25 'Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? 28 'So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 'Therefore do not worry, saying, "What shall we eat?" or "What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?" 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.' - Matt 6:35-34
The words of Jesus never fail, and I found such peace after heeding the above. A sermon led me to reading yet another portion of the scripture about Abraham's faith in the Lord:
'5Therefore He who supplies the Spirit to you and works miracles among you, does He do it by the works of the law, or by the hearing of faith?— 6 just as Abraham "believed God, and it was accounted to him for righteousness." 7 Therefore know that only those who are of faith are sons of Abraham.' - Galatians 6:5-7
I think wat God has been trying to drill into me this entire week was the need to juz simply trust Him. Wat I'm convicted of is this; that God's children should not be as stressed out as the ungodly, for it wouldn't be a testimony. I'm not saying that you should put aside all diligence and wait for results. I'm saying dat we should not be overwhelmed by circumstances until we start worrying about our future, and whether or not we can ultimately pull through or not. All God wants us to do is to surrender it all to Him in faith.
Like Abraham, sometimes God tells us to come out of the comfort zone [rmb dat Abram, then, had a call from God to juz come out from the country he lived in for many years and go to a land which he knew not of], or He tells us to do something ridiculous. We hesitate and start questioning God. It' human to do dat. We get over that conflict soon enough, but then some time later the enemy comes w/ a lingering qn, 'wat if...' S.A. Tan juz needs these 2 words to stir up unbelief in us and cause us to shake in our faith.
'Wat if... wat if... wat if...'
Unlike Abraham, we live in post-pentacostal times and posses the Holy Spirit, who's there whenever we need Him. Which is why Paul mentioned: 'Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead'(Philippians 3:13). Wat Paul is trying to say is dat, 'I may not be able to see wat I'm heading for, but I noe where I'm heading for!' Bros' and sis' in Christ, we all may be heading to another tomorrow in this sin-cursed Earth, where juz about everything is unpredicatable. Should these bother us, knowing dat, if we're genuinely saved, we're all going to finish in eternity w/ our Heavenly Father, whr he will reveal to us, in all his glory, all the help and grace dat was available to us through His angels and The Holy Spirit, and dat every worry we had on our minds were unnecessary?
God wants us give Him all our burdens 2day b4 He can cause us to haf peace. We dun haf to remove the worry in our own flesh [which is not possible], or by turning to any other source [which will ultimately fill us]. Juz cry out to God 2day and believe.
My parents finally returned from their China vacation 2day, and Thank God for bringing them home safely. My grandma's not feelin' too well, so it was timely for their return 2day. If my grandma were to suddenly get some sorta heart-attack or smth like dat, I'd probably be so unprepared.
Hahaz.
God is good.
Hopefully, I'll be able to fins my assignments ASAP so dat I can cut myself some slack for the rest of this wk, as well as freeing up some time for MTV filming this wk. Juz too bad when the sun-set came so quickly while we filmed the outdoor scene on Sun.
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 1:58 pm
Tuesday, June 13, 2006 || !Jammed-The-Breaks!
- This morning's post will begin w/ some ActionScripting *grins*:
sis_Esther.duringHolidays = function (success) {
this._dad = overseas;
this._mum = overseas;
this._boyfriend = cometohousetostudy;
this._breakfast = makeforbro;
if (failure) {//if there's such a statement in the first place...
this._brother = norespect
this._complain = 1000
this._sleep = 9hrs
gotoAndStop ("12p.m.")
}
trace("yeah parents are overseas, time to havoc")
};
Hahaz. If you catch wat I juz mentioned, u'd probably be chuckling a lil'.
My parents left for their China vacation ytd, which leaves me primarily in charge of the house [dats if Esther does listen to me]. Thank God for their safe journey thr [was msged by them this morning], esp. after getting so paranoid after overhearing abt a terrorist threat in dat country on the recent news.
Seems like Andrew [Esther's bf] is gng to be part of our family soon, cuz this whole week he's gonna be here in the house tutoring Esther [or rather I HOPE he is]. Really cannot trust Esther somtimes, esp. when she has a tendancy to duality [refer to ActionScript above... hehez]. Makes me feel for Walter who has to deal w/ 3 women in the house everyday of his life - esp. now dat it's the holi... *ahem*... homework week.
Ok lahz... despite being pinned down w/ loads of work during thses 2 weeks of 'term break', I've been feeling pretty relaxed, by the grace of God. Initially, I was pretty downcast, sometimes if wondering if this specialisation is really God's will for my life. Sometimes all the scripting involved can really kill my interest @ a certain pt., but God nvr fails to refresh me by His Holy Spirit. Will be fasting this week to ask for God's direction.
PTL!
One thing I'm getting worried abt is dat it seems many pple haf been lying to me. I've no idea whether they're doin' it blatantly or not, but whatever it is, if God is for me... who can be against me?
Maybe I'm juz being oversensitive...?
Create 2006 marks another leap of faith for me. This time round, Walt and I are promising some form of computer animation to really up the standards of this round's MTV competition, which, thus far, have been dismal. Praise God for the technical direction dat was settled earlier this week, and we're ready for filming ASAP. Hopefully this MTV will come in handy for my portfolio as well. Hehz. Music videos galore!
It's joyous to see dat those who had left the church not too long ago are slowly returning back to Evangel, even thou' I wasn't the one who encouraged them to. So many things haf changed... seeing them makes me really reminisce on the past times of fellowship. Hahaz... yes Weisheng... the 'meat' was thr, but I think now, we'll all haf to rely on only God and His Word for dat. It's all for a higher purpose. @ least my prayers of asking God to heal the land were not in vain, although I can't interact w/ them like I used to.
Btw, I had a really sumptous dinner w/ the poison ball team for the Heart.Sports ytd @ Marche. Pastor Alan was so kind to actually fork out an extra $50 for the amount which could not be vouched. And I realised Xin Yi is the best person to travel home w/, cuz she can converse w/ you on juz abt anything, from her work to girl gangsters [cuz we saw one gang @ Bishan, and she was so afraid] etc. Hahaz. She was practically chattering all the way home w/ me. Hahaz.
'Heavenly Father, ur hand is upon this land, and the spring is slowly returning...
Hallejuah.'
Enjoy the new MTV [it's the latest by KJ-52, btw].
Peace out & GB.
Tohster was left alone
on 10:08 am
Thursday, June 01, 2006 || _=Run For Cover_=
- I REALLY NEED SOME TIME ALONE WITH GOD!
A lot of times, when we're in deepest pits of trouble, we tend to turn to God, only juz to throw him to one side later when the trials are over. Like Pastor Dale said during prayer meeting: 'We tend to give God the crap!'
Personally, for me, it's kinda vice-versa.
I dunnoe. Maybe it's fatigue from all the work and longsuffering I've got to put up w/ during those trying times, and I've a feeling God is putting me through more ridiculously stressful situations for training me up. After all, we're transforming from image to image, and from glory to glory!
Ok, so I thought JC alrdy busted me up real bad. Can't believe 2nd yr. in poly is juz as rigorous. Argh! So much for withdrawing from dat institution. Anyway, I like this course for wat it offers; creativity, skills, industry experience, steady frens... if I were yr. one all over again, I'd probably still choose this course above any other. Hahaz.
Thank God... he has been ever so faithful in helping me deliver my assignments on time, even tho' I've been a bad testimony in certain ways [i.e. 'poning' a particular class this week... *ahem*]. I mean... like haf u ever tried working until 5 a.m. in the morning, and expecting urself to wake up @ 7 a.m. the nxt morning to head for sch? Kinda insane. But as I said, I had only 2 1/2 hrs of sleep during one of the days. Craaa-zzzii-ee!
Well, we all face problems. It's the Christian who always says: 'God is good!' No matter wat the situation, we muz believe God is still in control! It's a matter of opinion... how big is your God? Rmb... the power of agreement matters.
"I tell you the truth, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven." - Matt 18:18
It's time to return back to my prayer closet, and really set ma' mind on Christ. So many things to pray for, yet so lil' time.
"O God, cleanse me of all unrighteousness! Your word says: 'blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled!'[Matt 5:6] Help me to overcome my apathy, and the lack of desire for your presence. May I never neglect this great salvation! I've lived this life for so many years, and I noe much will be expected from me. I believe you're throwing all these @ me to raise me up to another level of trust in you. I will not question Your ways, for I noe wat You haf in store for those are Your's are gd things. You haf good thoughts about us, and You haf never failed us in one promise, and never will. Its all abt our faith in You, and I pray dat You will enable us, by Your Holy Spirit, to haf dat child-like faith in u. Faith dat juz looks up to You and completely believing You are truly above everything we face, juz like a child looking up to a father, and has complete trust in him to be able to defend him.
O Lord, thr's so much to learn still, but help me not to be a drop-out, like wat I was during my JC days. When the tough times came, I crumbled under the immense pressure. My earnest desire to be more like You, tho' it will take even more stamina than any physically strain I've ever experienced b4. Thank You for the Holy Spirit! The Comforter, The Helper on whom I can depend, in times of great adversity to help us, and in times of great triumph even to humble us. A power dat was due to us w/o any conditions or stipulations, but only by the simple acceptance of You, Jesus, was it given to us. The rest was alrdy finished for us.
Help me set my eyes upon You once again I pray! In the most glorious name of Jesus Christ, I pray... Hallelujah and Amen!"
I need some gd rest too manz. I'm gettin' panda eyes soon. No.. wait... I ALRDY HAF EM'! Arrgghhh!
Peace out & GB
Tohster was left alone
on 11:47 pm
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